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God, isn't there someone who could help you out sometimes? maybe take your kids and give you a break? Sometimes that's all we need is just a little break.....

I think it is time for you to visit your doctor - It sounds like you have clinical depression. It isn't healthy to resent or hate your children, but it isn't because you are a bad person. I think you might be ill and obviously the difficulties you are experiencing are only going to make it worse. It sounds like you've had a really hard time of it and although you might not like the idea, a course of anti-depressants and counselling will probably put you back on to the straight and narrow. Anti-depressants treat depression for what it is, an illness, a chemical imbalance in the brain. Speak to your GP and tell him how you have been feeling and he will be able to offer you some sound advice. If you have had a child in the last couple of years it may be post-natal, which would explain your feelings towards your children. My mum experienced the same sort of feelings and you aren't alone in this... Please seek help.

You need to see a professional. It's quite possible you have a chemical imbalance that can be solved in 24 hours with the right treatment. You will feel better and so will your kids. By the way, no matter how much you hug them, if you think they don't know how you feel, you're fooling yourself. So part of the problem is that you are not getting help and things are getting worse because those kids feel the anger, hate, and resentment, and they are miserable. And they're kids, so go get the help you need. Quickly. Really really quickly. Tomorrow, first thing. You'll feel better the day after tomorrow.

Sometimes doing the same things every single day gets to you , but you must remember , what keeps our bodys alive is our soul and if u kill urself u will see people maybe hurting ur kids and u wont be able to do nothing about it, never do it cause once u are death ,regret will come to u and you cant return to ur body, try new stuff like 1 to 2 days a week finding some one to take care of ur kids and u and hubby going out to a movie , dinner etc. find a new hobby you can do. and start looking for a job that maes you happy , or study a short course of something interesting that u really like and get a better job. dont be afriad to move to another job , just try to study something u enjoy and finding a job in that. never regret ur kids cause eventho they sometimes dont behave good u were a kid once too and think about how would u have felt if ur mom killed herself . they are here on earth for a reason , just plan stuff for u and kids ....new chart everyday. try to not do the same things repeatly. if u need someone for advice write to me