Posted by Anonymous
on September 29th, 2007 at 8:15 PM
The only thing that keeps me from killing myself is my obligation to my kids. I know it's unhealthy and selfish, but I constantly think about how much nicer life would be if I were dead... For everyone. And I know that people love me, and there are people I love, but life is just piling up around me and there's nothing I can do. Debt surrounds me, and it'll never get paid off. I hate my job. My kids make me crazy--they never listen to a word I say. My husband works all time, so I'm stuck with the kids whenever they're not in school... I regret having had them and sometimes wish that the State would come and take them away from me. I know they won't because I take care of them, like feed them and bathe them and make sure they have clean clothes. I give them lots of hugs and attention all the time. Nobody knows how much I really resent them and even hate them. I don't hit them or yell at them a lot. But I think I'm seriously on the edge of a nervous breakdown... And I don't know what to do.
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