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thenewestdaughter - 31-35 years old - female

Posted by thenewestdaughter
on May 27th, 2012 at 2:01 AM


I still blame myself for how my brother behaves. I blame myself for his drug use also. I beieve he would also would act better now if i did not stop my mom from spankin him when he was young.
when we were younger i told him i never wanted a sibling and wanted to be only child. I feel like if i never said it he would not be what he is. It was true at the time but i should have never said it. Now even though i hate the way he acts i love him and cant imagine life with out him.

I am not saying thete is not alot of times i dont want to throttle him.

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  1. bboyunreal - 31-35 years old - male

    Posted by bboyunreal on May 27th, 2012 at 2:09 AM

    How do you treat him nowadays? If you act like his mother and try to point out the faults he makes, he may resent you. If you want to help him past this point in his life, than you need to communicate and ask him the reason he does drugs. Everyone makes their own decision and you can't blame yourself for his actions. But kids need spankings and I agree you should have let that happen. But that doesn't make you guily for his choices in the slighest way.  

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  2. thenewestdaughter - 36-40 years old - female

    Reply by thenewestdaughter May 27th, 2012 at 2:24AM

    I am distant most of the time and when he is high around me i sound like mymom. The very few times im around him and he is straight we are ok but i dont trust him. I love him just hate how he acts and when he dose it makes me feel worse specialy when he upsets my parents

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  3. Posted by An EP User on May 27th, 2012 at 2:12 AM

    Tell him how much you love your brother and Hun his drug use isn't your fault. I don't know why but I feel like you tell him how much he matters and tell him you feel you're responsible that just might get through to him and cause him to pursue rediscovering himself through sobriety. I am happy he has a loving sister like you. Bless you :)

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  4. thenewestdaughter - 36-40 years old - female

    Reply by thenewestdaughter May 27th, 2012 at 2:21AM

    I have told him many times but right now its like he cant or dont want to hear it. He blames me too which dose not help with the guilt i feel.

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  5. CelestralCreature - 41-45 years old - female

    Reply by CelestralCreature May 27th, 2012 at 2:36AM

    Speaking from my own life as a "recovering" drug addict pol in your brothers situation often have trouble admitting their drug use came from within they like to blame and make the people who love them most carry the weight of their guilt so they don't have to be responsible for anything. Even if you offered him his first joint he had free will. He got on them himself. That's what's so sad about addiction the addict at the point of drug use is numb yet he/she hurt and disrupt so many others lives without even knowing and sadly in many cases will blame others because they can't face the guilt. I really hope I can put your mind at ease you aren't responsible.

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