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christy0590 - 22-25 years old - female

Posted by christy0590
on June 4th, 2012 at 8:32 PM

I turn 22 in less then three hours and all I can think about is the fact that according to the law I just have one more year in which i can press charges against the man that molested me. I feel sick

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  1. Posted by An EP User on June 4th, 2012 at 8:36 PM

    what are you waiting for then?? Do it!!!

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  2. christy0590 - 22-25 years old - female

    Reply by christy0590 Jun 4th, 2012 at 8:37PM

    i dont want to...its complicated when its a family member...but i dont want to be responsible if it happens to another little girl....ahhhhhh I dont know ;(


  3. Posted by An EP User on June 4th, 2012 at 8:37 PM

    you need to press charges that ******* has to pay

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  4. christy0590 - 22-25 years old - female

    Reply by christy0590 Jun 4th, 2012 at 8:40PM

    I dont want to make him pay... I want to force him to get help, but I dont know if there is anything out there.


  5. TheRascallyOne - 22-25 years old - male

    Reply by TheRascallyOne Jun 4th, 2012 at 8:48PM

    wow you must be a very loving person


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  6. Bostonsgirl - 18-21 years old - female

    Posted by Bostonsgirl on June 4th, 2012 at 8:37 PM

    You can do it, but only you can. Remeber that and do what you need to do!

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  7. Dellered - 26-30 years old - female

    Posted by Dellered on June 4th, 2012 at 8:54 PM

    It's on your mind now, it'll be on your mind forever. You'll always wonder why you didn't... My Step-father sexually abused my for 2 years and then he died 4 years ago when I was 24years old. At first I did feel liberated and a sense of freedom... But that freedom only lasted like a week until I had a horrible flashback and realized that as long as these flashbacks last, he will always control my mind. Popping in whenever he can. I regret not fighting, not knowing how far I could battle him and how much strength I have. I see myself as weak sometimes because I didn't go through with it. YOU NEED TO FIGHT!!! Surviving is good, living your life and doing with what you want is ultimately your decision. It's also your decision when to take the step forward into "THRIVING"........ I know it's hard to open yourself up and let everyone see your hurt, but in return you'll KNOW that you had the strength to fight and you could possibly win!! Hold on to that goal and please consider achieving it especially since the opportunity you have expressed is weighing heavily on your mind. I think the absolute first thing to do is find your resources and support. Maybe even write a list of people names and contact info beside that you know are willing to help when times get rough -maybe even a couple of crisis lines? At times you may feel incapable, but please know that you have been capable to make it this far! I can tell you have already imagined what it would be like to pursue court. The imagination can find it hard to process the thought of overcoming an area in your head that you've had as "negative memories" into positive ones, especially associating a specific item/person/or place. It's just like getting over your fear or heights you'd need to conquer it. Like being afraid of spiders you need to hold one. Think of this as your spider!!!! Hold it in the palm of your hand, CRUSH IT IF YOU HAVE TO WITH YOUR BARE HANDS and feel the power from that experience!!!! ...and ever time you look back, you'll remember the "powerful" feeling of control and possible joy that came from it.... Ok, now... Turn your misery into joy!!!!

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  8. christy0590 - 22-25 years old - female

    Reply by christy0590 Jun 4th, 2012 at 9:16PM

    I'm taking control on other ways. Im getting help, Im trying to be proactive..... just dont know if this is a step i can do but I feel like I should for other people...but I shouldnt for other people. im just scared if he did it again, I would kill myself to make a point.But hes old and almost totally blind, I dont know how he would be able to. I hate that so many people can relate to my story, no one should have to go through what we did. Im sorry, sounds like you have learned to handle it though from your post :)


  9. Posted by An EP User on June 4th, 2012 at 8:56 PM

    DO IT PLEASE, I promise you won't regret it. Do it for all the people who have been molested.

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  10. christy0590 - 22-25 years old - female

    Reply by christy0590 Jun 4th, 2012 at 9:10PM

    I speak to groups, teach teachers warning signs, and look for warning signs in my students for those that have been molested. Abuse is a cycle and what we are doing now isn't stopping anything in fact the numbers are sky rocketing. Wouldnt focusing on preventative treatment make sense? Why isnt it out there? I feel like i need to work on that for those that WILL be molested so they arent.... but I dont want it to happen again now because i didnt say something. I know I was a child then but Im an adult now, so i would totally be responsible. The guilt would kill me... so i feel like pressing charges is a selfish thing, ignoring my family so i dont feel guilty.


  11. Jerzee14 - 41-45 years old

    Posted by Jerzee14 on June 5th, 2012 at 12:51 PM

    The best way you can help him is to press charges. He is probably abusing someone else right now. And that person/child is just praying to god that someone will make it stop. That person is you so just do it. Or stop speaking to people/groups about it. I have had a lot of crazy stuff go on in my life and people say they wish they helped me when I needed it. Well gee thanks, because now that I have the power to stop people from harming others, I do. You have the power to change something and that's a lot better than talking about what you should or anybody should do. Just do it!

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  12. jmmeee - 22-25 years old - male

    Posted by jmmeee on July 28th, 2012 at 12:43 PM

    Because the more gullible people like yourself who think he can change he has around him the more he can get away with it you have no idea how many people in his life tome his hurt it could be ur child his molestering one day every one gets one life and when someone chooses to use their life to cause significant hurt to me I **** THEM UP by any means possible Once again who else?how many ?

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