This Ugly Yet Beautiful World

     Three days with less than 10 hours of sleep. Gives me time to think I suppose. I used to think that the world would be so much better off had I never exsisted. A world without me.. really sounded like a pardise at the time. It wouldn't have made much of a diffrence though. People will still live, breathe and die all in their own appointed time. I started to wonder where was my soul before I came into being here on earth. Was I just a tiny sliver in the vast oblivion? Was I a angel of God? Perhaps I was the escence of love patiently waiting for my moment to fully exist. After all as humans we only live from one breath to another and one heartbeat at a time. In the whole plan of life we only live for but a moment. We become ignorant of our fragile mortality. After all if we miss a single breath our life seems strained and weakened. Perhaps it's nonsence to think of these things however I can't help, but wonder if some dreams were meant to stay dreams. I can only hope that, that single precious moment... that quickly ending heartbeat... and that last fading breath will be enough time. With this last thought I want you to think hard on these final words. " Can I afford to waste another second? "