Post

Suicide...

All Confessions

« Next Previous » Category: venting Confessions

CrisWeb - 26-30 years old - male

Posted by CrisWeb
on June 25th, 2012 at 11:57 AM


I've quit things in life, but usually it's because I'm morally against it. I've fallen down some pretty dark holes, and faced some very hot flames in life, but now I'm to the point where "Hope" is fading away, and away, and away. When a good friend of mine took his life, I was so mad, and almost insulted that he didn't come to me about what he was going through. Now that I'm down on my knees searching for answers, I really don't feel the need, or want to talk to my friends, family, or loved ones. I am lonely, I do want to move on, but I just don't care about most of the ones around me like I use to, and I feel like ending it, is alright some days. Win, loose, or draw, I want my last days to be on my terms, or at least have them be with the few I need in my life, or doing the few things I love in life.

Vote up! 1

2 Comments (add your own)

Sort By  
  1. anex1496 - 16-17 years old - male

    Posted by anex1496 on June 25th, 2012 at 12:03 PM

    I understand how that feels. Why should your life end on the terms of someone else? Why shouldn't you be the one to end it? Why does someone else get to choose the way you leave this world? The thing is, why end it? Why go so far to just kill yourself? If you're playing a game and want to quit do you purposefully lose the game? No. You save it and shut off the console, take a rest, think about the problem, ask people who have the game, and get back at it. At least that's how I look at it. Why not keep playing this game of life, and try and get as far as you can? Winners never quit and quitters never win. Good luck, and I hope I helped and that everything turns out for the best.

    Reply | 3dislike | Flag

  2. Anonymous

    Reply by An EP User Dec 29th, 2014 at 12:21AM

  3. CrisWeb - 26-30 years old - male

    Reply by CrisWeb Jun 26th, 2012 at 12:22PM

    I've always liked games, and because of becoming very sick, games, EP, and other media have recently become my new family. I always want to see the ending, or exhaust every possible option before throwing in the towel. In the last 3 months I have had just about everything ******** from me, and I don't know how to deal with it. I use to skateboard until my feet bled, and now it hurts to walk some days. Mission Control, we have a problem...

    Reply

  4. mdna - 31-35 years old - male

    Posted by mdna on June 25th, 2012 at 12:08 PM

    dude. i appreciate you sharing such a personal experience. i know. life don't always make sense. i've never closed the deal on anything important to me and i've lost people to violence and suicide as well. i don't know what to tell you to give you strength. things may not go your way but the again they might. i guess you'll have to stick around to see how the story goes. this is probably just the suspenseful part.

    Reply | 2dislike | Flag

  5. Anonymous

    Reply by An EP User Dec 29th, 2014 at 12:21AM

  6. CrisWeb - 26-30 years old - male

    Reply by CrisWeb Jun 26th, 2012 at 12:06PM

    The unknown is what makes it so F@cking hard some days, but it's what also keeps me going.

    Reply

Experience Project is a community based on authenticity, support, and respect. EP encourages you to post with these values in mind.

Add your Comment

Post

Post A New Confession