My Mr. Perfect

I’m thankful for your letting me be your friend, even if it was only for a season.  I have never met anyone like you, yet you are exactly the someone I wanted to share my life with.  There’s just something about you that makes it so easy to be around.  There were countless times I could’ve talked with you all day and night.  I never grew tired of listening to you while loving the moments of looking in your eyes.  You were right when you said I was your fan.  I am, quite profoundly.  I know when you were in my life, I did everything I could to be near you (even if it were only for a few minutes out of the day).  I must’ve looked so foolish.  I just couldn’t help it.  I adore you that much.  You made my heart beat so fast with just a glimpse of you walking in the class to sit beside me.  I was always tongue tied (so I just kept silent for most of the time), I would get hot and easily flustered, and sometimes jealous; which I loathed.  There were times when I would see your beauty and just melt right on the spot.  Like the day you were sitting in front of the window (on the table) outside your class.  If I would’ve stopped to talk to you (after the way we had already connected earlier that day), there would’ve been no separating us.  I wanted nothing more than to walk up to you, stand between your legs, look in your eyes and kiss you so passionately.  The biggest thing that has bewildered me is ONLY you have had this power to shut me up where most have spent a lifetime of trying to get me to be quite.  You just leave me in awe. It’s been very frustrating yet exhilarating at the same time.  I really believed there was something between us, so I stayed around, always following your lead.
 
I really hope that the many difficult aspects of your family are being restored.  I also hope that everything has worked out for you regarding a job (since that was the route you decided to take the last time we spoke). I know that after all that has happened, I also hope that you are happy and that you and your girlfriend are doing better.  I had to keep reminding myself all along that you chose to be with her last October. She IS whom you are with now and whom you’re turning to for comfort.
Since you removed yourself from knowing me, I need to follow your lead once again.  I’ve done what I can to reach out to you, and you know how to find me.  My hope is that our paths will cross someday and that we will pick up where we left off. 
 
Thank you for helping me through some bad times without your knowing it.  You helped take my mind off a lot.  Thank you.