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lonleystoner - 18-21 years old - male

Posted by lonleystoner
on July 5th, 2012 at 5:44 PM

That's what I always see..Thats how I feel when I look in the mirror see.I see my face I know I'm handsome I used to have the swagger.I used to be an ******* now I'm living in one..I'm lost in the eye of the storm but I'm painfully loving the ride because I invision myself escaping horrid waves.I just hate that I have to live feeling this way.But being down hell atleast I'm not high and alive sobered up by my boots and looked the devil in his eye.Always trusted GOD I made mistakes in my life but the unnoticables once really took it this far?What does it seem that thou hast forsaken me or forgotten me.I'm the lower middle man trying to look up hopeless romantic wants a good gal to love...Funny how life turns they wont notice me...Well make them....My mind contrdicks it's self my mind makes me want to beat it's self...Like my mind kicks my *** for not doing what it wants to do I'm not good enough for myself an't that a bicth...I did have enough to stop being a pothead almost alcholic and every hour smoking cigarettes...But I love that I have this memo maybe EP will help it feel better for a couple bloggin highs might find a true love meet some friends on the glob???I just want to get out here in the world and make it own but I'm self aware damn I wish I never cut my hair I had it all so it seems but I lost y confindece when I went to the Barber shop see I wasn't ready and being an ******* had it desserts I wasnt ready but I'm really a nice guy at heart but couldnt take it...Wanted to stand out from the crowd and I had made it but damn I wish I was made maybe O my Lord why did I used to be a ble to talk to strabgers to walking in a room and feeling nerous and not knowing how to conversate....To doing me to doing nothing for GOD sake fogive me lord I used your name in vain but I sit in a chair and change postures and postions quite often I feel so open in this world this is what I wanted or expected I hate this life please end it send me to heaven but I wanna leave I just want this burden off of me.

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  1. Posted by An EP User on July 5th, 2012 at 5:59 PM

    wow you're very expressive! you know you really need to continue to stay strong, don't worry about the past, just continue working towards a better future you seem anxious to just be able to live comfortable. the more you look back that's the more you will self destruct keep your focus on God and your future, and btw dont worry about girls, they'll come along and you wont even notice them or need any validation from any, you'll be doing your thing in a positive way, and you will attract positive girls she'll come your way, you won't have to search it will happen when the time is right.

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  2. lonleystoner - 18-21 years old - male

    Posted by lonleystoner on July 5th, 2012 at 6:07 PM

    Yea I guess..I hear that but its a differnce when it comes along...I know girls are no big deal..But its like I know that but I dont feel that I guess cause I never had one...

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  3. Posted by An EP User on July 5th, 2012 at 6:10 PM

    everyone has his own time.. you're still young and got long but worthwhile road ahead..

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