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Tatteredheart - 16-17 years old - male

Posted by Tatteredheart
on July 13th, 2012 at 1:45 AM

I remember the first time I cut myself. How the heat of the skrew was and how some of the rust infected my cut.. it was absolutley horrid. I remember I wasn't scared though,and the pain I was in actually felt good. And how the blood ran slowly from my elbow.
Once I relized what I had done I ran in and lied and said it was an accident. The peroxide burned the cut so was excruciating. It bubbled over so much. Took over an hour to clean it out.
This memory is what keeps me from self harming myself today. And makes me think how stupid I was. About 4 or 5 years clean now.
Life has been getting harder so the urge has been rising. Sometime I will just sit and stare at a knife.. wondering what I should do. Just yesterday I almost nicked myself. I need help.. a shoulder ti cry on. Someone who will understand me.

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  1. inactiveaccount - 16-17 years old

    Posted by inactiveaccount on July 13th, 2012 at 1:52 AM

    Ya wanna talk about it or something? I was gonna add you, but your settings wouldn't let me. I'm really sorry you're feeling like this :(

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  2. Anonymous

    Reply by An EP User Apr 26th, 2015 at 11:11AM

  3. inactiveaccount - 16-17 years old

    Reply by inactiveaccount Jul 13th, 2012 at 1:54AM

    never mind! I'm adding yous!


  4. Tatteredheart - 16-17 years old - male

    Reply by Tatteredheart Jul 13th, 2012 at 1:55AM

    Ya sure ill talk :) thanks. And my setting are weird. They go on and off as they please haha


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