I'm rather contradicting.. I mean, I love
the darkness but then again, It worries me. I love having my "mental relapse" so to speak, but whenever I'm alone for too long, I worry internally. If I'm with others, I'll worry. But I dare not show my feelings.. But it's bothersome to be so disturbed. My mind creates these countless scenarios whenever something happens. For instance, the stimulus for this confession is door knocking. It's 1 in the morning, who could possibly be here at such an hour? But honestly, I do know. My mind just enjoys frightening me. I'm so sensitive to most things. I sometimes feel like someone is touching me.. (I know.. I sound like a loon) I'm emotionally stable but then again people just have no idea what my mind is generating sometimes. Anyone else feel trapped? I dislike this nauseating feeling..