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My Own Father Is My Enemy

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cinorignikcuf - 22-25 years old - female

Posted by cinorignikcuf
on July 30th, 2012 at 10:59 AM


I know I'm not not the only one who has a problem with my father. He's my bilogical father, nothing more nothing less. And I hate for being labeled as my father and yet i never felt like I have or even had one. He was never a father to me. When I was younger, he never treated me or any of my siblings with respect. He's been always against everything we do. He never treated us with respect, from the very first time I learned to think up to this very moment. He never even taught us any wisdom. He only showed us disrespect. He seem to always stand on the fact that he is the father and we were just his kids. On my part, I'm not saying I'm an angel, I admit I'm more of a devilish. He's harsh and rude on me and because of defense mechanism of a person to a person, I treat him the same as he did. I am aware and always be with the life I set eyes on. I wouldn't really mind that he's not the best man on earth or that he didn't even finished high school or that the only job he knows is repairing automobiles, only if he really acts as a father. Yet he don't. At a very young age, he already fed me with curses, telling me how stupid I am. He always tell me that I'm no good. He always tell me to just go ahead and be a maid or something. Whether or not I do something good, he scolds me. When I started college, he always tell me to quit just because I didn't do the dishes or I didn't clean the house. Until, because of financial issues I had to stop and find work. Until I found work, and he ruined it. Now that I'm in the unemployment line, he's getting even meaner, when he himself been jobless for years. I hate him from the bottom of my heart! These words are not enough to describe how badly he ruins my life. It's really beyond words, too indescribeable. I hate him before and now. Instead of helping rise, he's kicking me down. It just breaks my heart that I don't have anything and what breaks it even more is that I don't feel like I have a father.

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  1. Elijahx - 18-21 years old - male

    Posted by Elijahx on July 30th, 2012 at 12:18 PM

    my dad is the exact same way with me and my siblings, he was born and raised in Nigeria and thinks he knows everything. He always trys to compare the U.S.A to Nigeria, my dad finished college and has his docotors degree, so know he has even more pride.



    I'm the first son, and he thinks I should know eveything too even though I was born with a small brain defect that makes me forget things easily. He has too high standards for me want me to have all A+'s even though I more of a B type of person.



    All of my siblings even my mom talks befind his back about all the things he does wrong, and thats like almost everyday.

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  2. cinorignikcuf - 22-25 years old - female

    Posted by cinorignikcuf on July 30th, 2012 at 1:46 PM

    dunno if i'm the position to say this but i guess ur father just want u to surpass him in a good way.. he just wants the best out of u. my father on the contrary never indicated what he wants for me and for the whole family. he just married my mother, had sex with her and now he has 4 daughters and a baby son. yes when he works, it would always be for the whole family but i think being a parent is not all about being hardworking to give u materials because everybody is hardworking in their own ways. it's about how u connect with the kids right. i'm open about how i resent my father but that doesn't mean my mother is his opposite. my mother never pampered me.. both of them sucks! they lack the materials and the spirit of being parents so here i am , wasted as them.

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