I'm a jealous, selfish *****...

I have an online friend who has indirectly told me he's in love with me. I did not return his feelings. I still don't feel the same as he does. Now he has a long distance girlfriend (when he met her, I told him it wasn't a good idea because ldr suck). He's told me he loves us in the same way.

I feel horrible because I think things like "I want him to be only mine" and I'm tempted to do or say things that he would have wanted me to before he started dating this girl. But I remind myself, despite all 3 of us being in online relationships, their relationship is real. This is real life. And if I did or said anything to him, it'd hurt her. And I'd never want to hurt someone.

I'm a selfish, jealous *****. And I hate myself right now.