i still miss my dead husband

its been six years since he died , man i miss him , i still cry for him all the time . Oh God help me ..... he was my best fried ive ever had ....... wow how everything changes when some people die, he had an older brother who was killed while truck driving and his father died about 2 years ago and my husband was a twin hes the only one left in the family still alive ........ its taken a toll on him loosing two brothers to truck driving and his father, my lifes not the same i miss my best friend i was 30 years old when he died,,,,,, my parents woke me up at 2:oo in the morning to tell me that his truck caught fire on his way home i had to tell our girls that their daddy is dead my oldest was 12 years old and the younger girl was 8 years old they just talked to their daddy the night before telling him happy vallentines day he was coming home to go bra shopping for the first time for our older girl and to the beauty shop to get them new hair styles, instead we went to the funerual home smelly  dead burned flesh ,,,, for the wake no one showed up he was my only friend so  my daughters and i ate the food that people made that went to my parents chruch,,,,, the food was so good there was nothing in life like it, the food at a waking is always so sweet and wounderful tasting i think its a way that god conforts you in a situation like these. oh how i wish he were here hes still my best friend ..... people im so sad..... i cant seem to cry enough  it never stops hurting i met him when i was 15 in school he looked like an angel  with long light colored hair