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kateegirl - 18-21 years old - female

Posted by kateegirl
on August 13th, 2012 at 2:40 AM


I feel like I have reached my limit. I suffer from depression and an anxiety disorder and one of my biggest issues is self loathing. I will get so upset at myself that I get into hige panic attacks and have a strong desire to self mutilate... Cutting, alcohol,, anything to get the edge of and calm down.

Right now I live with my mom and younger sister who is bipolar and has border line personality disorder... and somehow they manage to consistently make me feel like I am dirt. It is hard enough fighting myself when I feel like I'm no good, but to.fet that from your family? And it's always over the stupidest things, I know that I am a good oerson and yet they always assume the worst in me and treat me like I'm a horrible person.

I've just about had enough, that the majority of my panic attacks these days are triffered by their treatment towards me or upset at myself for upsetting or disappointing them when I've really done nothing wrong. I feel like I'm falling apart fromt he inside out.

I finally got a job and am getting my life on track. My question now is if I can move out on my own. I have a potential roommate and we've looked at places we can afford but now my question is, is moving out such a good idea when I could.be saving money staying with Mom? Can I get some EP advice please, do I stay home and continue to be emotionally abused, or take the financial risk of moving out.

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  1. TheRQCKSTARZHquSeNHDZQ3 - 46-50 years old - male

    Posted by TheRQCKSTARZHquSeNHDZQ3 on August 13th, 2012 at 2:50 AM

    Take the financial risk & move out Katee, u didnt deserve that abuse to begin with, & u dont deserve it ANYMORE €:-] <3

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  2. kateegirl - 18-21 years old - female

    Reply by kateegirl Aug 13th, 2012 at 2:53AM

    Thank you! i'm just nervous about fetting ot there on my own and have to wonder if putting up with it is worth it but my heart tells me it's not

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  3. TheRQCKSTARZHquSeNHDZQ3 - 46-50 years old - male

    Reply by TheRQCKSTARZHquSeNHDZQ3 Aug 13th, 2012 at 3:01AM

    Listen to ur heart Sweetie, u deserve to be treated BETTER, ALOT better! €:-] <3

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