Just tired of being fed up

I hear you and I'm sorry you're going through this.

I've been there and here's what I've learned after the fact. You can only work on yourself. You are responsible for your behavior. It's up to you to not explode and find a way to make this better or leave it behind because it's too much for you. This is your life. What can you live with, or without? Get help dealing with your emotions, dealing with your marriage, dealing with your children. It's out there. Find it if you want it. And I think you want it mainly because you wrote about it here.

Hopefully this doesn't sound harsh. I truly don't mean it to. I know it's hard and more complicated than you can bare. We all got them damn buttons. But I'm serious, we need to be responsible for what we put out in response to our feelings. We need to find the reasons we're out of control in the first place. Heh, It's what I've been working on for years and I'm just now making headway!