I suppose

maybe I loved to hard and too quickly. maybe I wasn't mature enough to understand how difficult love could be. maybe I had let the words of the beatles seep into my head, all you need is love, upon reflection its quite foolish. I have closed myself off, and in most regards have no plans of unsealing the door. After years in this lonely state I am just tired. if 10 years were this hard, I would opt for another 5 rather than another 50.