Posted by Anonymous
on September 4th, 2012 at 11:04 PM
You are the reason for so many of the great things that have happened in my life. What I said to you was not false. You are so important to me that sometimes it scares me. You are with someone else. I'm guessing you don't love me enough to be with me. I know you've been with this guy since high school; even if you wanted to, I could see how that would be hard. To this day, I'm just so confused as to what your intentions were with me. You were just so flirtatious... I don't think anyone has flirted with me more than you have. And I used to think it was just because you really liked me. You would shower me with compliments that all seemed genuine, but so generous that I wondered if they were even deserved. You blushed so much... It was just so obvious you were into me, and I was obviously interested in you. I'm sure you knew that even before I told you. This is just so confusing, and so heartbreaking. If two people have such remarkable chemistry, get each other on such a deep level, truly adore and admire one another...well, shouldn't they be together? I don't know what it's like for you and him, but you definitely were having yourself an emotional fling with me, probably behind his back. I doubt you'd look to me if you were satisfied in your relationship. Unless you just like to flirt and get deeply emotionally involved with people and then try to forget they exist. I don't know. I wish we could have a conversation about this. A real, honest, full disclosure conversation. Everything on the table. But I guess that's exactly what you're avoiding, since you'd have to admit that you're madly in love with me and start the love affair that we've been holding off for years. Your life would change. So would mine. But I'd be ready for that. I've been swept by the tides of change since the day I met you. Meeting you changed everything, and continues to. I've been waiting for you for so many years. I don't know where to turn now. It either happens or it doesn't. I'm really at a crossroads here when it comes to you. I've loved you for so long, and I know you love me even though you don't say it. To love or not to love, I guess. You're still so alive within me. This is the deepest love I've ever experienced. I love you. So much. It's unreal.
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