I Feel....

i feel worthless. i swear all my efforts are just in vain. no matter how much i try, im not understood. i feel like i dont matter in the end. im never ever gonna find someone that'll ever understand me, how in the world can i when my family doesnt even understand.  my friends think that just because i smile and laugh alot and have a good time with them, that i don't really get upset. i hate feeling lonely and sad and upset and depressed and frustrated. i dont know why i even try anymore, not like people expect much from me anyway. to them, all i'll ever be is either a failure or a person who was simply just put on this earth to just be here, or even more so to just fail at life. i know i typed alot, sorry about that. i didn't have anyone else to really talk to at the moment and i know you're not on. and you have to respond if you don't want to, i'll understand.