Posted by NRF25
on October 3rd, 2012 at 10:45 PM
I hate being a secret!!! Ive been a secret friend, a secret love interest, a secret for everything. I feel like im a joke to everyone. no one wants to be seen with me, no one can directly talk to me on facebook for whatever reason. they can only talk to me through text or phone call, or message/email. Im a very self conscious person and this does nothing for my self esteem. I just commented on someones post and they text me instead of answering on fb. I feel like im an embarrassment not just to guys but to my family too. I feel like no one ever wants to be seen with me or talk to me in front of people. I feel invisible....well thats another story. but being a secret is driving me nuts. I dont want to sound like an idiot but i cant be hidious looking. I get compliments all the time. but i just feel like a hidden friend. No one ever wants to hangout with me. like neverrrrrrrrrr. I have my work friends. my old friends from college. Guys I like. i dont hang out with any of them. and the only ones i do hangout with I feel like they only hangout with me because Im the only other girl in our group because the other girl doesnt have any other friends. Im sick of hiding. i feel like im a secret to guys. like i was the secret best friend/ who he was in love with when he was with his gf, to a guy i was in love with but he never mentioned me to others. I just dont feel like im worthy of being mentioned cuz thats all ive ever known. it really hurts.
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