Yao Ming face for my ex

Within the last 2 weeks I have been very upset with my breakup, but after realizing how unfair he has been to me about the whole thing I have really began to care less. I can easily admit that I am not one to be "friends" with my ex, it is very hard for me and i usually wind up being an *** towards them without even realizing it half the time. But to be honest i don't even care! i'm at a point of looking back at our history or when he talks to me I catch myself in a "b*tch please" meme. Maybe that's how i'm handling it, but either way i feel almost exactly like i did before....not in a relationship!