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Maybe I should just let him go now :(

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fairygal01 - 22-25 years old - female

Posted by fairygal01
on November 8th, 2012 at 7:59 AM


for just over a year my bf and I have had alot of trust issues. I didnt have an ounce of trust for him since he cheated on me, all the proof was there in plain sight...but im not an angel either, i've done horrible things also, but I havent repeadidly cheated on him the way he did to me. I have found his many e-mail addresses with links to other chat/dating sights, e-mails to various women, dik pics and nudies from other women, txts, phone calls, the works....it hurt alot!! finding all of that peice by peice...right when i though i was healing i would find something else, he would forget to log out of his email addresses or wouldnt clear his history from the computer. Was he wanting to get caught? I think so but when i confronted him why did he allow me to stay and keep doing it? after many promises that he made....well i decided that im going to google ways to not get caught cheating just to see what kind of things he was reading about it, tips n stuff because he was really sloppy with it. Then he found my cell phone in the bathroom (i forgot it) and he went through it and for the first time he found something that broke his heart, the first time i decide to look on google was of course the first time he actually found something....Now i dont know wut to do.Is it not fair to me or not fair to him? I have to admit i feel heartbroken because i hurt him like that and i dont have the heart to cheat. i love him unconditionally. How did he have the heart to cheat repeadidly? well now he thinks im going to cheat and and theres probably nothing i can do or say that will convince him otherwise because im not convinced either that he will stay faithful....Should i let him go now?? Im so hurt by all this ongoing lies and cheating nonsense and i regret googleling how to cheat and not get caught......I dont have the heart to....
sorry for the bad spelling

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  1. rjschoch - 36-40 years old - male

    Posted by rjschoch on November 8th, 2012 at 8:08 AM

    lots of hurt and confusion in your relationship and the trust is broken down,,,and he keeps connections with other ladies,,seems he is not going to remain faithful,,,where does that leave you ? having another may not be such a bad idea,,,if he gets jealous and wants to change his ways and get you back 100% Guess you never know if anything could help,,he has a history of lieing and cheating he may never change for a long period of time,

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  2. Anonymous

    Reply by An EP User Dec 22nd, 2014 at 3:34PM

  3. PinkSugarplum - 31-35 years old - female

    Posted by PinkSugarplum on November 8th, 2012 at 8:38 AM

    Men cheat, not because of the women they are with but because of something lacking within them. You just need to talk to each other. Ask him - is this worth salvaging? Do you want to be with me? If so - the cheating has to stop. I've never cheated on you, I never will cheat on you - but I need to know from this point forward you won't cheat. If you need to cheat, we need to be done. Pure and simple. I love my boyfriend unconditionally too. He's cheated and I'm still working it out. I don't think he's cheating on me now...but I still wonder when he hides his phone, when he goes out with the "guys" is he really? He likes to sabotage relationships when they get "real" because he's afraid of starting his life. I was willing to give him another chance and the trust is slowly coming back...you have to be open and honest and realize it isn't going to come back over night.

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  4. Anonymous

    Reply by An EP User Dec 22nd, 2014 at 3:34PM

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