My Shining Star

I think about you a lot, and can’t wait to talk to you. And I have no idea if you feel it too. I do not think you do. And I fear we would not be friends, if you ever knew, in a crazy mucked up world, you're what keeps me sane. And by my side forever, I hope you will remain... You do not know how special you are… that in my cloudy grey, you are my shining star. And when I see you face to face, I must resist the urge to pull you close and embrace. You make me feel totally renewed, there's a powerful stir of emotions you unknowingly ensue. My thoughts are forbidden and impure. I’ve racked my brains for an answer but there seems to be no cure. I don’t know what to do anymore! Just falling helplessly, with no abating cure for me. This has never happened, you see. All brand new territory… Never have I felt like this and oh how I long for your kiss. No one has made me feel so special. You haven't the slightest of an idea how my wicked thoughts run rampant every time you're near, and how powerful the slightest touch can be. "Just one kiss" my mind incessantly repeats, to seal this uncertainty that maims and controls and eats (ME ALIVE). The fantasies of me taking control and pinning you up against a wall, and forcing that kiss to be, completely taking control of you. It all excites and terrifies me. If that happen, my mind would scream “at last’’. Soul mates…. I've heard the word many a time, and often question if you are mine. I do not know if you are, but you are definitely my shining star.