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SarahIsNotMyName - 31-35 years old - female

Posted by SarahIsNotMyName
on November 10th, 2012 at 6:27 PM

I was in love with him...and I still am!! 

but he married someone else last year... 

I am 100% sure he married her just for her finantial situation...

he was my true love and I was to proud to stop him....

never told him how much I love him....

it is too late now, but it's impossible to forget him....

I feel like my heart is exploding....I am exploding...and I cant get rid of this feeling.....

I meet him 2 days ago and 

he said to me ``we had to get married together...but we didnt``....

I told him: ``you didnt like me that much``  

He said nothing and then ``it will always be respect beetwen me and you, you really are a great woman``...

And when I was about to leave he gave me this big hug....

I felt like dying surrounded by his arms....

Then I said to him: ``dont forget about me``

He gave me a big kiss on my cheek...aAnd he touched the corner of my lips and he said ``I cant forget about you``.

I can tell he still likes me because he felt nervous.. 

What to to

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  1. skyler1486 - 26-30 years old - male

    Posted by skyler1486 on November 10th, 2012 at 6:37 PM

    It's 100 times worse when they hurt you and then do things like hug you or tell you that they still care. It is the ultimate heart tease. I am going through just right now. I don't know if she is going to leave me or not but it breaks my heart how she gets distant, demands space, then acts like she loves me, then cheats on me and then goes through that circle over and over again. I keep telling her that I can't handle the impact again of being lifted up and dropped.

    Don't let people like this bring you down. It's hard not to. But keep posting on here and keep reaching out to like minded people. People who will offer you their support when the one person you want more than anything wont.

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  3. SarahIsNotMyName - 31-35 years old - female

    Reply by SarahIsNotMyName Nov 10th, 2012 at 6:42PM

    its almost 10 years that I know him and I loved him since we first met. Life is tough and I think i am never going to be in love again...I wonder why am I so weak....sorry for your situation but if you love her talk to her....I was to proud to talk to him and I did let him go...I loved him and I kept my pride which sucks and is killing me


  4. skyler1486 - 26-30 years old - male

    Reply by skyler1486 Nov 10th, 2012 at 6:45PM

    I try to talk to her everyday. I know that she is my one true love. I am sorry for your situation too:/


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  5. Taraqua - 26-30 years old - female

    Posted by Taraqua on November 10th, 2012 at 7:00 PM

    Hi Sarah, I know how you feel. I'm a mess, a man mess. I've known the guy for half my life, I fell in love with him straight away. Since the very beginning i've never let him know how I felt, when we were younger i always played cool and acted like I didn't care, I always kept him at arms length because I was happier to have it that way rather than get hurt, which I did anyway. He was never a heart pourer either but I definitely didn't give him any occasion to be. But behind what wasnt said my heart was exploding. We both had relationships with other people over the years -long and short- but the chemistry between us always overpowered anything else. When I was twenty I was in a relationship for a few years and got pregnant, while I was in this relationship he starting going out with a girl he had been with before he met me and they're still going out 8 years on. We don't meet often but when we do it throws me so intensely, he has tried it on with me but I had always refused until five months ago, I was just home from a long trip and I met him at a party after quite a few drinks and we shared a cab home which obviously was a bad idea, ever since I have felt so guilty. So I have tried to ignore him, not give him any signals, keep out of his way but he seems to be everywhere lately and I'm struggling.

    I rarely date with anyone, I was never a girl for kissing guys I don't know in nightclubs perhaps that has made me a little naive still being in love with the first guy I slept with, but the feeling isn't going anywhere and i'm going crazy.

    Now for the worst part: Not only is girlfriend is a sweetheart, but her health has suffered over the past four years and she is in and out of hospital constantly. He has been there for her all along, but due to her condition their relationship has not been sexual, she relies on him so much for any bit of positivity about the future and it would kill her if she ever knew what happened. While I want him, I certainly don't want to cause her any more pain .

    I feel so out of control, i'm scared because I know that I have a weakness for him and cant think straight when i'm around him. I dont want to cause any more damage, I need to find a way to forget about him.

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  6. Anonymous

    Reply by An EP User Apr 21st, 2015 at 10:28AM

  7. SarahIsNotMyName - 31-35 years old - female

    Reply by SarahIsNotMyName Nov 10th, 2012 at 7:12PM

    sorry to hear that...i know how you feel...and i dont really know what advise is best for you because i dont know how to forget about him either. my only guilt i think is my pride and i always played cool as you i feel lost...but i am not going to see him anymore...i swear i will change city....i want to move on


  8. Taraqua - 26-30 years old - female

    Reply by Taraqua Nov 10th, 2012 at 7:33PM

    I wouldn't blame you, i've never felt so afraid of my own actions or so completely hurt knowing that it has to be over, all of it. I have no right to him, and he's wrong to tempt me not that I blame him for what happened but he's not helping, just as the man in your situation behaved wrongly. he may still have feelings for you but he does you no good telling you that. Good luck with it.


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