I thought about killing myself today

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Littledreamer83 - 26-30 years old - female

Posted by Littledreamer83
on November 22nd, 2012 at 11:46 PM

I have been having a really difficult time. I don't want to get out of bed most days because I'm just so tired of trying and failing. My marriage has been troubled. I feel like my husband doesn't really want this anymore. I feel like I am somehow not enough for him. It kills me. Maybe it's my fault for loving him too much. I trusted him. I know he doesn't respect me because if how he talks to me. I really don't know what to do any more. In public, at work, with family, with friends, I can hold it together. But I am dying inside. I feel lonely. I feel insignificant. If it were not for my kids I do feel that I would be dead by now. I feel like that is the only way to gain some piece. It sure isn't here.

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  1. kbang78 - 26-30 years old - female

    Posted by kbang78 on November 23rd, 2012 at 12:24 AM

    Why you can't get to hevan and you have kids so why you can always get anouther guy there are plenty of them I myself worry about my kids me then a guy notice the guy is last he should be there to hold you high and make you feel like your the world if not find one who will

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  2. Littledreamer83 - 26-30 years old - female

    Reply by Littledreamer83 Nov 23rd, 2012 at 3:28PM

    Well I'm not going to start a religion battle but I do not believe that god would continue to punish someone already suffering. I can't leave I have no options. I do love him so I don't really want to leave. I just want to feel like he respects me, loves me and right now I don't . I feel like I'm just a prop. I think maybe he would notice I was gone but not because he missed me. My life has been a struggle and the one person who is supposed to be there for me isn't.


  3. Earthen - 36-40 years old - female

    Posted by Earthen on November 23rd, 2012 at 1:31 AM

    Sounds to me like you've lost your sense of self. The person you were before you became a wife and mother. Possible you could find and re-connect with that person lost within you?

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  4. kbang78 - 26-30 years old - female

    Posted by kbang78 on November 23rd, 2012 at 4:30 PM

    Not saying god will punish you it's just suicid is the most unforgivable sin so hang on and hope he comes around if not your kids will be there to in lighten your day

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  5. Littledreamer83 - 26-30 years old - female

    Reply by Littledreamer83 Nov 24th, 2012 at 2:16PM

    I would think rape or child molesters would be punished more than someone who commits suicide. The bible is an interpretation of gods word. I believe in god. I just don't think the bible is accurate.


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