Happy With How I'm Turning Out

I used to be really depressed. Like, REALLY depressed. I went to therapy, I attempted suicide a couple of times, I had an obsession with weight loss (though I never became anorexic) and I was just overall really bad at life. I just finished reading one of my confessions from two years ago and I can't help but smile.

And not because it was a good confession. I'm actually really embarrassed by my lack of control over my life and the way I was handling it. But now I'm better. I'm notdepressed. I'm getting discharged from therapy. I'm not obsessed with weight loss anymore. I mean, this year was a pretty bullshit year for me- my friends ignored me after I broke up with my boyfriend, my mom called me a ***** and ignored me for a month, a guy I was really into decided he wasn't interested in having a relationship with me (AFTER a month of bonding and such), and after having an emotional breakdown, my therapist STILL wouldn't hospitalize me. Over the course of just one year, I pretty much lost everything. I still don't know how I haven't slit my wrists so far.

I don't know if it's because I'm better at bouncing back and handling horrible situations or because my emotions are dulling and I just can't feel pain anymore. 

Whatever the reason, I'm happy with how I'm becoming.