Why I'm doing this.

I'm doing this because I love you, and I want some way to interact and engage with you that's somewhat appropriate and on-topic. I want you to know I'm interested in what you're interested in and that I'm paying attention. I don't care all that much about what we're talking about, but I care about you, and I want to connect with you. I'm aware, as you probably are, of our chemistry. It's been both pleasurable and agonizing. I fell in love with you pretty early on when I realized who you were and how admirable you are. I want to show you who I am, but it wouldn't be appropriate. I don't think it ever will be, and I'll always want more with you. What's the point of starting something that could never be finished? But, I also don't want to give you the impression that I don't like you. I think you know I do, and not only because of the attraction. I like who you are. We don't have that much time left together, and I both feel relieved and sad. I feel something with you, and all I can do is dream.