If I had saved your number

****, this sucks.  I have sh*t to do but every minute of my day is lost to you.  Sometimes I'm so weak, I'm about to give in, but I don't know what to expecct of you and I don't want to throw you off either.  It can't be normal for someone to feel like this for someone for no reason.  It just feel so unnormal.  I couldn't even explain myself if I had to, which is why I deleted you.  Because of moments like this.  That suck.  I don't even know what I'm going to do.  Those people on here who wish this sh*t would happen to them are obviously crazy.  Category:  serious venting.  Seriously.  Where did my life go?  This is why people do drugs, I'm sure of it.