Posted by RJ43
on December 16th, 2012 at 3:57 AM
I'm not a strong person at least I don't see my self as having any strength like I had when my mom was at my side. It was 3 and a half years ago she passed and moving on is a long and slow process. I knew with her at my side there was nothing I couldn't do (except find love) in this world. Looking at myself today I realize she gave me the most important tools i would ever need and use in my life. Thing is I feel guilty that I can go on without her she is still with me but now it seems she is even more in tune with me than ever before. Am I wrong to say that I have strength I never expressed while she was here cause now I am fallowing a life long goal. Thing is though shortly before her passing I was on this path and she was coming to terms with my being female. It's funny I never wanted to hurt her and in the last days of her life I found myself being me and hoping she understood . I guess my confession is I feel guilty that I am happy with who I am but I feel guilty cause she isn't here to encourage me to continue.
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