A man broken.

All Confessions

« Next Previous » Category: other Confessions

KarmasNcarnate - 22-25 years old - male

Posted by KarmasNcarnate
on December 22nd, 2012 at 9:43 AM

Flashback to august 2010, I met a girl. We started talking and decided we liked each other. She was about 8 months pregnant, her husband/baby daddy had abandoned her a couple months in.

So she decided to drive up from San Diego to the bay area and pick me up, to move in with her. Everything was great, I was excited about the baby, she worked in the navy and made good money, we were carefree and in love, nothing could ever change that...
We spent nights watching the sunset out at the marina together, went to her Dr appointments, having ultrasounds done, making each other laugh and feel like teenagers again.

So the fateful night came, we went to the base hospital and at 2:48am 10-01-10 Alexander was born. I fell in love with him instantly, and from that moment on he was my son, regardless of DNA.
Well her mom and sister came down as well, and it was quite obvious her mother didn't think I was good enough for their family.
Alex was in the NICU for about 24 hours due to a small heart murmur, and you had to have a bracelet to get back there. Well the nurse gave myself and Sarah one, the mother and father, and her mother all but threw a fit.

I was nice, and gave up visiting hours after I checked on him, and asked the nurse if she could go in, which she was allowed.

He was monitored, then later released back to us, and the next day we went home. It was hectic though because she was getting evicted due to being late on the rent (roommate skipped) so we had to find a new place.
We found one and got everything moved in, then I'm told my lady is going with her mother back to az for a whole month. Well I was upset, but nothing I could do but watch them drive off with my newborn son and leave me with nothing in a more or less empty apartment.

So I bided my time, unpacked what little we had, set up the crib, and ate ramen noodles for a month because all my money had gone to this new apartment. She called/text me every day, sent pictures and videos of the baby, until finally she came home.
We were together again, and I was happy to start being a daddy and devoted boyfriend. She went back to work and I was the stay at home dad, taking care of our son and the apt.

I raised him everyday, he took his naps om my chest, and that's how he went to sleep every night. I taught him to hold his own bottle, crawl, walk, played with him and dada was his first word.
A little more than a year passed and she got out of the navy, and we couldn't afford San Diego anymore, so we asked her parents (who by this time freaking hated me btw) if we could stay for a little while. Well they let me stay about a month before telling me specifically I had to leave and was no longer welcome in their home. I think they hated that I was atheist, but anyway.

So I moved into a little studio apartment, and she refused to come with me for not wanting to upset her parents, but we had been having some issues so that wasn't all of it. A month passed and she moved in finally, annoyed at her parents I'm sure, and things were normal until I got into a bit of trouble with the local pd and was given a 3 day notice to vacate the apt.

She broke up with me then, and I took what little I could on a greyhound and went back to California.
We stayed in touch, talking daily but her uncertain if we would get back together again. Eventually her parents told her she had to get out, and having no one else, she turned to me. Of course I was happy and left immediately to get into another apartment with her, and we resumed our routine, her now working at Amazon and me being childcare.

This went on for months and everything was normal, until one day about a month after our 2 year anniversary I picked up her phone and found out she was getting hot and heavy with some guy in NY, sending dirty pictures, and vulgar messages. Naturally I confronted her, and she told me it was none of my business.
I gave her an ultimatum, to choose him or me, and after everything we had been through together she chose him...

I was devastated, the life I was building, gone because she didn't care anymore. I had to say goodbye to my son, who I had raised practically everyday since he was born, and once again, but this time for good left for cali.
A few months have passed now, and I miss him everyday. I haven't got to see him, talk to him, nothing.

I was completely broken, a shell of my former self, going through a dark depression and contemplating ending it all.
But then someone came into my life, and reminded me how wonderful of a person I was, and that all my self doubt and ridicule was just my ex talking. So now I look forward to a brighter future, but I know I'll always remember, and always miss my son.

Vote up! 2

4 Comments (add your own)

Sort By  
  1. koolman2811 - 36-40 years old - male

    Posted by koolman2811 on December 22nd, 2012 at 10:03 AM

    you fool!

    Reply | 1dislike | Flag

  2. Anonymous

    Reply by An EP User Apr 21st, 2015 at 6:54AM

  3. kamalivory - 22-25 years old

    Posted by kamalivory on December 22nd, 2012 at 10:54 AM

    According to me u were loyal, faithful boy friend and a good father..

    but see at the end u got better one.. so my friend always be happy..

    u r emotional and lovable person..

    Reply | 2dislike | Flag

  4. Anonymous

    Reply by An EP User Apr 21st, 2015 at 6:54AM

  5. kamalivory - 22-25 years old

    Reply by kamalivory Dec 22nd, 2012 at 10:55AM

    ur name is Karma so i m sure u believe in Karma


  6. yumankumar - 26-30 years old

    Posted by yumankumar on December 22nd, 2012 at 12:04 PM

    wow that a shocking story, u have been used.

    Its not difficult to guess for anyone that any fool only will fall in love with 8 months old pregnant women, was new to me. She got this and used you until the baby comes.

    Although you are honest and emotional, try to start new life and find a woman who can understand you.

    And one more personal advice , never means never ever tell this story of Fiasco to anyone ever, else u can even worse again.

    Keep it as a secret, and start a new life.

    If you are atheist check out darkmatter2525 on youtube all his videos are super funny.

    Your Friend,

    Nachi from CA

    Reply | 1dislike | Flag

  7. Anonymous

    Reply by An EP User Apr 21st, 2015 at 6:54AM

  8. AntiveninKiss - 22-25 years old - female

    Posted by AntiveninKiss on December 22nd, 2012 at 1:14 PM

    I believe eveything happens for a reason. It all led you to something better. =]

    Reply | 1dislike | Flag

  9. Anonymous

    Reply by An EP User Apr 21st, 2015 at 6:54AM

Experience Project is a community based on authenticity, support, and respect. EP encourages you to post with these values in mind.

Add your Comment


Post A New Confession