I'm thirsty...for life...and a drink

I'm 33 years old and I 've been an alcoholic for the past four years. I took my first drink at the age of 29 because I felt alone and outside of everthing. I haven't had a drink in 1 week now and have no one to support me in my effort. I hope I don't slip. I've wasted all of my life and need to take it back before its too late. I don't have a wife, a girlfriend, no friends, no strong family support, and I am an atheist. I feel alone again. I need something good in life and I won't ever find it from drinking but its the only time I'm happy and really wish I had a drink right now.