Experience Project Stories for the Group: I Am Struggling With The Urge Of Wanting To Hurt Myself

Wanting To Bare My Marks

Mon, 13 May 2013 10:41:51 PST

I asked my mom a hypothetical question last night and she about flipped. I asked her what she would say if I started cutting. She said "If youre going...

Dying

Sat, 11 May 2013 22:55:11 PST

I think of dying everyday.......I have 3 reasons that keep me breathing today and that is my children......without them I dont know where I would be.....

Why . . On Selfharming . .

Sun, 07 Apr 2013 01:54:26 PST

You know why people cut . . ? Because it is a distraction . For one moment , you don't feel all the pain , the loss , the hurt . All you feel is...

The Day Of March 17th And What Happened

Thu, 04 Apr 2013 22:10:38 PST

On March 17th this was the day when I had called first call for help. I had told them that I was thinking about taking pills which was an impulse deci...

It Hurts

Sun, 31 Mar 2013 16:55:39 PST

On days like today, when I lie in bed for hours, not eating, unwashed and lethargic, seething with anger and disgust toward myself, my fingernails are...

Wanting Revenge On Others

Sun, 10 Mar 2013 22:21:12 PST

i think that most people who hurt themselves do so because they know they will have consequences if they hurt their abuser(s). i wanted ...

I Feel Like I Deserve It

Sun, 10 Mar 2013 22:17:11 PST

i feel like i deserve it when i hit myself. i feel like after biting the inside of my mouth or stubbing my toe or something self-injurious like that <...

Wish To Stop

Mon, 21 Jan 2013 22:37:27 PST

My boyfriend is mad at me when i give into it.. but i don't know what to tell him sometimes.. Because it's so hard not to and when i give into it he t...

I'm Losing The Battle

Wed, 26 Sep 2012 04:45:01 PST

I've tried so many times to stop cutting but I can't. I want to, but I can't do it. I love the feel of a blade slicing through my skin. One of the few...

New Meds

Wed, 29 Aug 2012 09:08:53 PST

i am on these new meds but they don't seem to be helping. i actually took my favorite knife and cut myself with it, but because the blade was dull it...

Hanging On The Edge Of Gloom

Tue, 10 Jul 2012 15:21:11 PST

its been over 4 years since i last cut. i wanted to see myself bleed. i needed to feel that there was someone called 'me' inside. it was a tough tim...

Sick Of It.

Mon, 18 Jun 2012 18:00:09 PST

Some day's I just feel like cutting myself open, like a patient being operated on. Carving myself harshly like a pumpkin ready for Halloween.

Lost With No Direction

Sat, 09 Jun 2012 22:11:51 PST

there is so much going on. since December (especially) i have had strong thoughts of suicide. the school counselor had asked my mother to take me in...

Yesterday...

Fri, 04 May 2012 22:54:31 PST

....I looked up how to obtain a gun in my state of residence. I've struggled with suicidal thoughts for an extremely long time, but I've never actuall...

I Want To

Thu, 19 Apr 2012 15:13:18 PST

I want to. I can't tell you, whoever the hell that is, how much. I want to break the skin, see the blood grow and spill over the edge. I n...