I Battle Depression Stories of Experiences

I think about all the reasons I have to live, and they don't seem important. Nothing is important, nothing matters. I simply drift through my mundane life, yet I feel like I'm drowning. I hate this, but most of all I hate me.

I haven't gone to a psychologist, but I'm pretty sure I struggle with depression. This all started at the beginning of January this year. I've been feeling shitty ever since then. I avoid talking to people. I go without answering my...

“Amae” is a word in Japanese that means sweet dependency. It is a word that embraces our primal need for a sense of oneness and belonging. In the United States, where we work so hard to establish our separateness and independence...

Sometimes I feel unreachable. It's like I know in the very pit of my being that I will always be alone. It's just my destiny. This thought isn't terrible or something that feels me with dread. It's a very neutral thought. But it's one...

I have long suffered bouts of depression.

I think the worst time is the bit BEFORE you go in, knowing you're getting sucked into the worst bit of your life...,and knowing you can't stop it.

Thankfully, counselling and anti...

During my teenage years, I endured four episodes of severe clinical depression. Partly due to my introverted nature, and partly due to the fact that there was no obvious and easy person to confide in, these were known about only to...

I can't take it anymore... Someone do something... Ahhhhhh just flip everything! I can't take this sadness... And there's so many severe illness' with me that nobody don't understand! I cannot write my beloved poems anymore because my...

I don't know if I'm depressed, sad, or just hormonal. But I make mistake after mistake and I hate myself for it. Even if I don't do anything I can't look at myself in the mirror and when I do I cry. I regret every decision I make. I...

My name is Brandon, and I have battled with all of these since my early 20's. My help comes from medication and a passion for running and biking. These do not always work though. When I am so low and so depressed I have trouble to keep...

So had a tough few months with my depression and anxiety. Been a complete mess practically sleeping on the sofa and if i had the energy to do things like pop to the shop my anxiety would get too bad and id have a panic aattack, always...

... or some spectrum of it? I guess I kind of knew this for some time, but the second I realised it, i pushed it out of my mind. I was ashamed. The first time i learned about BPD was in a psych class that i took specifically to learn...

But, it is a fight I face head on everyday. I didn't believe anything was wrong with me but, when I spent a week in bed not looking forward to each day that came I knew something was wrong. I don't have days like that anymore thankfully...

I don't waqnt to die....but living isn't my forte I just don;t feel like being anywhere It seems as though i don't share the same values as those who inhabit this patch of earth alongside me I feel like im in a constant state of...

After my abortion, I was miserable. I felt guilty and sad of my descicion. I got depressed and I broke up with my boyfriend. I wanted to be alone and I didn't want to talk to anybody. I started starving myself, spending all day in my...

I don't like my life I don't like the fact that there is a daily routine which I dont like yet I am forced to follow because of society I can see most people are not happy and only pretend I;m sick of fake smiles and all the judgements...

My moods are often like a roller coaster. One moment I can be ok or happy and the next I can spiral into an existential abyss. Despite this, I have found that over the last few months I have been able to control my mood more. My lows...

EP Sangha member anya1212 commented on my story “The Blossom Pales in Comparison” with:Is our questioning affected by our past experiences and beliefs. Do we question without reasoning or analyzing the immediate situation. Does this...

I've had some pretty bad spells of depression. They seem to be associated with emotional stress, and a lack of love, and support.
The first was during the second semester of my freshman year in college. I lost the ability to sleep...

I don't know why I play doctor and get off my medication when I know that they help me. I use to comply with all the doctors recommendations. Now I am not so compliant. Today I took my first dose since the last four days. I decided to...

My name is Mike and I suffer from depression.
I have battled panic disorder for nearly 25 years but more recently have had major depression.
I do see the doctor regularly and do take meds to help with it all.
Really looking to...