I Am So Lost Stories of Experiences

Not for any kind of sympathy.... I just know to cry out through a poem...
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Just lying on my bed and talking to me...
"Who am i..?? and What i want to be..??"
I see people happy holding hand of there love....
And then i see myself...

Its funny how the game of life works. When I was a little girl I always heard that opposites attract but never understood the full meaning but when you look at it; that isnt just for love. You have to experience the opposite feeling in...

What is there in this body,
it's only the cover of the soul,
what's there in this pain,
it's the search of love only,
This wish to love
has destroyed me,
I have only lost, in all the ways..
What's your wish,
you destroyed my heart n...

I don't know what I'm doing... I'm putting on a brave face for treatment but honestly... I'm scared. Like really scared. I've been more irritable lately... I'm just scared... Any advice from people who have been in eating disorder...

My legs and arms bleed... I step amongst the thorns... I am now in the rose bush. I hold up a rose. The wind blows it away. The dust of pills is on my hands. Is it real? Am I really happy? Or is it just my medication making me that way...

I don't even know why I'm doing this. I never do stuff like this. I was just crying and felt lost so I typed it in safari somehow thinking it would help. Nothing helps though really there is never an answer. I'm 16 why am I so unhappy I...

When the phrase "looking forward to a better tommorrow" comes to my mind, many see a bright and postive future. It's a simple phase that gets many people through their days, a phase that build a glimmer of hope that dwells within those...

I am not a good writer. So I'll apologize for that.
I don't know who I am, I always feel, well, gone.
I have no control over my feelings, I feel sad, then happy, then angry, then guilty. There's always something new that I feel. I...

I am 42 years old. Over a year ago, I got West Nile Virus from a mosquito bite. I somehow managed to survivie the encephalitis that signaled my having the virus. It was the longest three weeks of my life. Since then, I have...

its been so long since ive got a decent sleep,
everydream is a nightmare,
tormenting me, scaring me, terrorizing me, into the abyss that leads me to where i am now,
i wake up, when its early night, or late morrow,
and realize that ive...

I hide behind a smile but I cry myself to sleep sometimes.I read people better than a book but i never have the words to exlplain my findings.I am the shoulder, the keeper of secrets, the kindness through people's pain.I am the place a...

We wove a web of hopeless dreams
No way to make them real....
The time was short we had to share
Yet to dream we both did dare...
I kept my word...I did not give up
I did not ask you for anything..
I only wanted to love you dear one
And...

I'm so lost,This world,Ain't gettin' any better,In fact,Gettin' worse,Manners,Where the hell they gone?

i am lost in the world of misery and pain,
hunger and vain
if you give me a bucket i will fill it up with tears
but you know that when the last tear drops ....
the bucket will tumble over and nock
all of the positive responsibilities...

I get them feelings like everyone else, where you just feel alone and like nobody really cares about you. Them moments when people try and make you happy as much as they can but the moment your alone all you can do is think about how...

I truly do not know where to even begin. I am in a big mess with school right now and I am trying to be calm about it but I cant.... my husband is trying to keep me calm and I just dont know what to do. I have decided my major but at...

I am 33 and a Bisexual guy ..
I am out of league from usual gay stereo types and strongly believe in values, career, love and commitment. I absolutely abhor the usual gay scene .which is very much about meeting people for endless dates...

My Life Forever Changed At Age 11 A Nightmare I Re-live Often, (I Learned Then Love Is A LIE) From That Moment On I Begin Searching For Something Deep Inside, Smiling On The OutSide While Hurting Within.... At 15 I Gave What Was Left Of...

I have been separated for a little over ten months from my husband and he says he wants a divorce but hasn’t given me the papers even after I said I would sign them without a fight.........
I don’t want a divorce but I also don’t...

I have no idea how or why people think its okay to make themselves extremely important to me and end up leaving in the end. I'm trying hard to forget about the world because I see no point in trying anymore. My dad died last year and we...