I Am Secretly Depressed Stories of Experiences

Right now I'm meant to be studying for my a levels. I can't find the motivation anywhere. I can just about get out if bed in the morning never mind sit in silence with only my thoughts of hatred towards myself to keep me company. I just...

In fact, everyone thinks I'm very together. I've had people comment to my face how together and calm and laidback I am, and I always just want to laugh. I've been depressed for ten years now, on and off, and suspect I have dysthymia. I...

I feel dead....
I'm physically Drained.
I'm emotionally ready to explode.
I'm mentally ready to shut down.

Physically;
I can't keep smiling like nothings wrong.
I don't sleep.
I don't eat right.
I don't.....seem alive.

Emotionally;
I...

"Denise, look at me"
why?
"What happen, to your arm?"
Nothing.....[covers arms]
"Then where did the big gashes come from.?"
No where....
"......Den--"
STOP trying to make me talk! its not going to work, i've been talking all my life...

Hiding is much easier than showing.
Depression is mainly what I cause myself, I stress out so easy, but supposedly I'm perfect. Mother's little angel. Just what she wants, of course, I live to be her clone. So she says.
Sometimes I...

Today I hit one of those moods again where I just couldn't get myself to smile, so I didn't pretend just hid. All day no one seemed to be looking for me so I just let it go and stayed hidden in my room. By evening I was forced to go...

They think I am Happy. I am okay and nothing is wrong. But what they don't know, everyday I have to pretend that I am okay. I have learned to hide my emotions especially in our office. My way of avoiding questions and gossips. Now, the...

About five years ago I was depressed and suicidal. I was in a very bad state of mind. I cut and even had plans to follow through with suicide. One day I woke up and decided things were wrong. I didn't want to die and I didn't want to...

So this is me. I come from a good family, with a good amount of money. I live in a nice house in a nice neighborhood. I go to a good school full of good people. Nothing terrible has ever happened to me. I should be happy, and grateful...

How do we get up and go to work or school every day with a smile on our face? We know it's all fake. We are dying inside. Most of us think no one cares. Those who do honestly care are the ones we are most afraid to tell. Then when they...

I've always been very quiet. I've always been content with being alone because that's all I knew. I've made my own mistakes and live with them every day. No one knows everything I have been through. My parents do not even know...

i am reaching 18 years of age soon and i have been unhappy for a while. since about 14 years old have been very insecure and i have a low self-esteem. i do have my days when i feel so great about myself but they don't last long. I feel...

I got pregnant young and i had a lot going on at the same time and was beyond stressed. At that point i was just stressed out not really "depressed". After I had my son I had postpartum depression really bad but i thought it was normal...

I've always been a 'happy' person; smiling, joking, laughing.... Until the last year. I won't go into all the details now of what has brought me down, most are posted elsewhere....but 2 big ones I'm still too ashamed/emberassed to say...

I'm a 32 year old mother of two, I'm engaged to be married also. When I was 23 years old I found out I was 2 months pregnant and Hiv positive. It's been 9 years and it still doesn't sit right with me. I'm having going through a...

Where to start?

What do you do when you can't figure out what is going on in your head and it's driving you insane?
Yes i know, i'm depressed.
The question is why?

My life has been a rollercoaster, just like i'm sure everyone elses...

It's all a secret. I can't tell anyone , they will treat me like someone else. They say you have to worry about the quiet ones and isnt that the truth. I put a smile on for everyone, but really I just want to leave, to escape this world...

I act fine and I look fine but I can't wait to come home from work and hide in my room. I don't want to go anywhere. I get up to use the bathroom and go to the kitchen. I don't want my son bothering me or my husband talking to me. I sit...

i haven't had professional help so i don't know if it's really depression but i've been wanting to die ever since i can remember, i cry every night for no apparent reason,,well there is,,are,,but i just start crying even without...

hello everyone.
I am going through the most toughest phases of my life right now.I have completed my masters but I am still unemployed.Have always been a good student.But now I feel i have done something terribly wrong with my life to...