I Not Happy With the Person I Have Become Stories of Experiences

i used to be a happy, carefree anything could make me smile i don't get mad easily i don't think too much and i see the life as beautiful , now i'm the opposite i'm always over thinking i'm sad all the time i have no ambition nor goals...

I used to be so happy. I used to look at life with wonder and amazement in my eyes. I used to think that I'd accomplish great things. I used to laugh and run and splash through life with a twinkle in my eyes and a spring in my step...

I do not hate my Parents
I do not hate my siblings
I do not hate my friends
I do not hate the environment
What I hate is myself
The self-loathing,Pessimist,sadistic me.
I hurt myself
Either physically or mentally
I am slowly destroying...

I hear folks bytch and moan. Look do what i do. When you face the truth and do notlikeit.THEN CHANGE THE TRUTH. I am.

The person I've become,Disappoints me,Never been this low,Gotta change,I'm in one hell of a hurry,I'm startin' now!

I have more fear than I expected. I depend more on other's approval than I thought. I fear rejection more than I knew. I know myself less than I thought. I fear the greatness of life, and had not realised it so far.

I have come to like the person I am more since I joined this group but I could have more confidence. I didn't like who I was because I felt like I was angry more than I was happy, I felt like I argued with my boyfriend all the time and...

Everywhere you go, you see girls with flat stomachs, perfect hair, clear skin, white teeth, and beautiful eyes. They're skin color is perfect and so is their voice. Everything about them is "perfect."
And when you see those things, you...

im not happy with the person i have become.. ever since i moved in, even id we werent living together there are time i want to choke him so bad, he gets on my nerves now every time and i cant fucking take it! i love him to death but i...

Lately, I have not been very happy with myself, in being the kind of person I've become. I AM working on changing that, I know it's needed. It's not a good feeling, when you don't feel like yourself.There have been some circumstances in...

its not so much that i hate the person iv'e become,but more that i hate the person iv'e always been,and my inability to change! people that know me here on ep,know that iv'e always been a loner,and in real life,iv'e always been really...

Last year, i had it all. The perfect girlfriend, the one I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. My friends were amazing. I have the perfect car. Scholarships waiting for me. Big fancy house, everything you could dream of, right...

Today is April 6, 2012. Everything that i've done in the last month has involved a form of stress. A version of hurting. A new ache. I have a wonderful boyfriend and our one month is tomorrow. He makes me so happy, and i don't think he...

I dont really know how to start. I suppose that I just want to get it all out. I cant remember how long Ive been this hard on myself. I guess it just seems to keep happening and I dont realize it. I feel like no matter what is really...

I was on the road to greatness. Well, maybe not greatness but something more respected than what I've become.

My time in high school was unpleasant. I didn't have the attention of girls and I had so many medical problems I spent half...

I wish I could go back and start afresh.

I would do so many things differently.

I wouldn't have started drinking.

I would have broken away from my friends, or not made them in the first place.

I wouldn't have tried to bury down who...

I'm so angry, hurt, tired of my life...it's the same. There's nothing...valuable about me. I never thought that I would end up like this...all the things I said that I wanted to be as or things I wanted to have as a kid, I didn't become...

I cannot tell what attracted me more to this group, maybe I dont like what I am now or maybe I am simply not happy.
The last time I remember being happy was the night of my graduation from high school. I do not know what happened after...

Yeah, I have been very difficult these days because I feel I am deprived. I feel i deserve something more from this world but heck! i am not seeing it.I hate myself all the time, yes I do. I do complain about people and why I don't like...

I did not love enough to save you from death now i sit alone within the ashes of my wrong doings i hope you can forgive me for being so careless i am just existing not living that is my payback for your departure end