I Am Screaming In Pain Under This Smile Stories of Experiences

I remember one day I was at school with some of my classmates it was early and I was joking around smiling and making the others laugh.So one girl asked how can I alway be happy and energetic and make everybodys day...I just smiled and...

Anxiety. One seven letter word that ruins everything for me. That discusting feeling in my stomach, that feeling that means i need to cut. As soon as I start to bleed some of that pain just pours out with my blood and the more I cut the...

I've said a lot somewhere else about this. If I have to be somewhere public it is so hard to not look strained. In my head I'm screaming and have this intense overpowering feeling I need to flee. Panic attack I'm told. I would hide in...

most of the times i will be smilling not because i will be happy but i hide my pain under the smile.i wish i could have a real smile without any pain

I was scrubbed clean
There was nothing left
My dignity gone
My body wrecked

I angered her
With what he did
She set it up
And then she hid

Behind excuses
She made for them
Animals fed on me
Time and again

We had a name
For this game...

...sometimes. I'm often ready to burst into tears under this smile, and sometimes I do. I once saw God, Himself, as I was walking home back when I lived in my parents' house eight miles from here and I recall every detail of His...

There is me.

I am the strong one. Depend on me. Look to me. Talk to me. My advice is sound. Nay, stellar. I never panic or raise my voice. My temperament is stoic, as a lighthouse in a storm. You won’t see me lose it with the...

When I am anything but. I have a horrible homelife and have a difficult relationship with both my parents, particularly my mother.
My job with kids is good for me but also incredibly stressful at times. After a difficult day, all I want...

It is all an act!!  scream in agony under this facade of a smile. I scream in pain under this happy face! I have been doing this for years and that is my life, Hide all the pain, agony, and suffering, under a happy face. The pain gets...

wipe the tears, put the smile on, and get ready to face the world :P that's me everyday, but it's always better when someone's there to talk to.... but i'm alone again ^^ guess that's just the way things are supposed to be.... I...

i am sick of this constant struggle just to breathe. I am sick of the constant feeling of wanting to scream until my voice is hoarse and my throat is a bloody mess. Sometimes i wish i could just scream while i am in a big group of...

The saying goes 'If you dont laugh you'll cry" thats been my life since , I honestly dont remember , I laugh alot lately and its not real laughter either you dont know how much I wish it was , My friend said to me yesterday "Hope your...

Only my friends know what i feel but they don't understand it.....most of my friends i don't even tell....i go to school like a normal kid.....i laugh....i bord all the time....everyone thinks i nice....thinks im afraid to do...

It's amazing that no one can see under the false smile now a days. I grin, smile, and laugh with all of my friends, but I feel it clawing to escape. That need to scream to everyone in earshot "Can't you people see that I still struggle...

This smile on my face has been painted on.
The pain underneathe is what I am feeling.

This Smile is to lead you on
That everything is okay, and that the smile is what I am feeling.

However, can you see past the smile...

My lifes getting better but yet I still wanna scream! I still have to force a smile on my face everyday! I want to scream in fustration that others dont understand me!!! But I smile happily and laugh and though you wont ever see it, Im...

I've accepted that life is pain a long time ago. I figured that my family doesn't need any of the pain that I let myself carry. Somehow it feels right that they should live as close to paradise as possible. So every single thing in the...

I just want the injustice to end. We have all the documented proof. There is no need for them to continue to fight. They have already lost and the war has barely begun. Three years is long enough. It is time for justice to prevail. We...

when i was seven my mom lost her job at a factory because it moved to mexico.so my mom found a job waitressing at a pub and grill. she also started to drink more heavily so did my dad. my mom worked every day till closing but the...

My 1st  father never wanted me. As soon as he found out that my mother was pregnant, he ran for the hills. Then before i was even living a year, she married my 2nd father. He started hitting her first. She thought that as...