I Have Sucidal Feelings Stories of Experiences

I've felt this way before, when I was like 16-17. I'm 21 now so I haven't been feeling it for a while. The problem is I know nobody understands me. Some of them know everything...so they should. And then others don't cause i don't tell...

...truth is, with my health problems it's nearly impossible to go a day without thinking about it.

if i were gone three and a half decades of untreatable severe clinical depression.... gone. no more pain there.... but unable to be...

WARNING: could be triggering
Today was pretty shitty. I am really tired because I stayed up really late last night on EP, that didn’t help much either. So almost as soon as I got up we left to go to a barbecue with a bunch of Mom’s...

About two months ago, I was raped by my boss at work.
I pretended that it didn't happen and tried to move on, but couldn't so I quit.
After that, life has just been a mess.
I've talked to lawyers and decided to press charges but the...

I was doing good. i wasnt suicidal for 5 days. i was so proud of myself. i hadnt harmed myself either. then i snapped. i started having a slight panic attack. i began crying. All the emotions i had held in from the other day & from all...

I'm so tired of living..

Pff.

It's getting darker..time to sleep..soon..:(

I have suicidal thoughts and urges right now I am at my therapists office. She is going to evaluate my ability to stay out of the hospital after group at 1 and I need suggestions. I want to be safe in a way and dead in a way. How do I...

I have suicidal feelings and thoughts frequently.
I have for years.
I have survived one pathetic attempt many years ago that resulted in horrible feelings of failure and shame.
It ended up being something I had to explain to my family...

I don't really know how I feel. Sad? Depressed? Alone? Hurt? Does it even matter? I know I hate myself. I hate every inch of my body and every thought I have. I feel cowardly because I find myself at the edge but I just can't bring...

I am currently having suicidal thoughts. I talked to my therapist before about it and she said thoughts are different from urges and urges are different from actions. So right now I am just lying in bed wishing I was dead. I am so...

I'm a happy person or close enough to being one. I have a wonderful career, home, friends, fun, etc....I have plenty of money to spend and i'm in amazing health. I tell myself daily that i made it up from poverty but no matter how many...

Well, I have been home now for 2 days. I tell you I just dont want to even look at her.....my mother. I cant believe she ambushed me like that with the hospital. For all I know..... she just needed a break from being around me for...

I've felt suicidal what seems like forever, but it's getting worse. The feeling to give up gets stronger and stronger every day. I recently went to my doctors he sent me to see a counsellor. It's not helping, the suicidal feels are...

When do you know that it is really you and not just a side effect of the medication that you are taking?

Deep down inside, I have always wanted to to kill myself. I will just get that out in the open. I have tried on several occassions...

I sometimes fantasize about killing myself. It's not a bad thought, really. Not a good one either. Just a thought.

Let me clarify really quickly:
I don't really want to die. I mean, I'm pretty sure I don't. Generally, I want to stay...

I never really thought I'd be sitting here asking myself, "Why?". I always thought that by now I would be pretty and popular and I would have it all. I don't. I was so, so wrong. I'm not saying my life is all bad, because it isn't. I'm...

Today I found myself writting my letter again.It`s bizarre, but I cant stop thinking about it, you know, about dying.And I get so mad at myself because this isnt me.I try to push that thought away,to ocupy my mind with other things, but...

Once I heard that a previous behavior to suicide is that the person starts to get rid of personal things, they give away they belongings, their clothes, even their pets.
Some people might not say outloud I want to kill myself, but they...

I just feel so hopeless right now.
I have nothing else to give, no strenght left to fight this.
Please please please Lord help me! How much do I have to pray for you to listen to me?
How can I live like this? fighting every day against...