I Wonder Why I Bother Stories of Experiences

I sit within arms reach of my two co-workers. We are all women and I am the senior person at the job, although they have all been there a considerable amount of time.
I feel to some degree that they are jealous of my job and seniority...

Well right this very second I'm wondering why I bother getting pissed off.
Why I bother letting people get under my skin in the freaking first place.

But there have been so many times in the last year or more that i wonder why I even...

Me and my other half are mainly happy together, he makes me happy, and I think I make him happy too. But because of the way we are, we have to be a secret. And when arguments kick off, they're always about the same thing, and they're...

Sometimes I get hopeful and think that things will significantly change for the better but they really don't.

I'm in my mid 30s in a job that's probably not helping me to get any further up the ladder, I've also never...

It was hard to do, btw...with the way I have been feeling lately. 
I am just trying to be nice and thoughtful. I can't change that part of me. So, whatever. Do whatever.
I will probably either keep bothering once in a while and...

I do wonder sometimes why i bother, why i bother voicing my opinion on anything, why i bother even having one, why i bother telling anyone anything or talking at all.
I wonder why i bother trying to be functional in society, why it is...

i don't know why i am bothered..hehehe
i wonder why??
 

why do i bother?
i have no idea.
i need to bother less, i think.