I Am Struggling With The Urge Of Wanting To Hurt Myself Stories of Experiences

I asked my mom a hypothetical question last night and she about flipped. I asked her what she would say if I started cutting. She said "If youre going to do that, you can go a mile up the road. I will not have a self-mutilator living...

I think of dying everyday.......I have 3 reasons that keep me breathing today and that is my children......without them I dont know where I would be........now my husband is trying to take my babies away from me....omg if that happens I...

You know why people cut . . ? Because it is a distraction . For one moment , you don't feel all the pain , the loss , the hurt . All you feel is the razor going inside your skin . The blood dripping down your arm , leg , stomach . you...

On March 17th this was the day when I had called first call for help. I had told them that I was thinking about taking pills which was an impulse decision which I didn't act on and I also told them I had wanted to hurt myself so I was...

On days like today, when I lie in bed for hours, not eating, unwashed and lethargic, seething with anger and disgust toward myself, my fingernails are my only weapon.
I drag shallow red scratch marks across my breasts and stomach, as...

i think that most people who hurt themselves do so because they know they will have consequences if they hurt their abuser(s).

i wanted to punish my birth mother. But i knew she would be angry so i beat my own head instead. So did my...

i feel like i deserve it when i hit myself. i feel like after biting the inside of my mouth or stubbing my toe or something self-injurious like that

Look, nothing is unintentional. People chew the inside of their mouth or hurt their...

My boyfriend is mad at me when i give into it.. but i don't know what to tell him sometimes.. Because it's so hard not to and when i give into it he thinks im weak and i dont want him to be upset.. but sometimes it's voice is bigger...

I've tried so many times to stop cutting but I can't. I want to, but I can't do it. I love the feel of a blade slicing through my skin. One of the few things that makes me happy. So yeah I cut. I wanna stop but I won't.

i am on these new meds but they don't seem to be helping. i actually took my favorite knife and cut myself with it, but because the blade was dull it didn't even break the skin. so much for that.

its been over 4 years since i last cut. i wanted to see myself bleed. i needed to feel that there was someone called 'me' inside. it was a tough time...well it still is. it doesn't have anything to do w/ my husband or my 2 kids, just...

Some day's I just feel like cutting myself open, like a patient being operated on. Carving myself harshly like a pumpkin ready for Halloween.
I get severely depressed and even discussing self-harm sounds almost musical to me; I want to...

there is so much going on. since December (especially) i have had strong thoughts of suicide. the school counselor had asked my mother to take me in for a psych evaluation but she refused. CPS got involved, but it did nothing but get...

....I looked up how to obtain a gun in my state of residence. I've struggled with suicidal thoughts for an extremely long time, but I've never actually had it as an option. Sadly, getting all the permits and then the gun itself with the...

I want to.
I can't tell you, whoever the hell that is, how much.
I want to break the skin, see the blood grow and spill over the edge. I need too. So badly. I can't tell you how much how much I god damn want too!
But I can't hurt myself...

I was discovered, and everybody already had noticed it. And still, I had to bear fucking indirect and malicious comments, as if I was a fucking hooker. They know it: I have a crush on that fucker. Because I, unconsciously, stare back to...

I'm so frustrated with everything right now, I just want to cut and forget about all my fucking problems. Life is starting to go downhill again. Just as I START to feel better, I start feeling like shit...again. I'm so tired of...

more than just "hurt", more than a cut, burn, hit. more than just "hurt". i want it to all go away. i want this life to end. so many people push me closer and closer to the edge and im already about to fall off. what they will never...

the only reason im alive today is because of my little niece. one night at about 4AM i was too depressed to deal with life any more so i went to my hiding place i grabbed my razors and some pain pills and went to the bathroom. i...

i am cutting again but every day its getting more and more i feel its out control again i cut so much it worries even me i get loses init my mind even forgets i cutting sense of relive when i cut is amazing