I Want to Cut Myself Now Stories of Experiences

It's some kind of infectious artifact, that sharpener blade in my diary. It screams out to me, as if it is being dragged across a chalkboard, a high pitched squeal filled with longing and hatred. But I really feel as if its the only...

The urges are so strong right now it's all I can do not to run home and get my blade and use it. I've been struggling so much lately. It makes it so much harder and I would give anything just to give in to the urges.

i don't know what to do anymore
i just want take my blade and cut again and again until the pain inside me calm down ! its the only way its work!
i don't understand why I have so much pain inside me and it only get worst whit the time...

i hate when i cut but i love to do it. I dont cut when im talking to my boyfriend i cant but when his gone i want to cut cut cut but its still hard for me. i was cuting on my leg so people wont see but now its on my arm. and when people...

Yes, I cry a lot. Yes, I am probably overly emotional. And yes, I am a girl. Apparently because I'm a girl automatically makes me emotional. Wrong. I shouldn't be crying for no reason or having tantrums at age 20. I shouldn't have urges...

I have cut once but not very deep, I was too scared. But now I have realised just how much I hate myself, my fat. my hair. my boobs. my thighs. my belly. and I can't cope. Somehow I want to cut all the fat away slowly, so no one will...

It's funny how vulnerable we get when we are rundown whether it's physically or mentally or both. I self harmed for 10 years. I will admit, I struggled with depression but it wasn't my main reasoning for doing it. I guess looking back...

I used to cut ALOT and then my parents found out and made me stop. I have paranoia about disobeying them...thats the reason I don't cut anymore....However, it's been getting so strong lately (my urges to) that I am having a hard time...

Although recently I have been better, people are beginning to annoy me even more. I used to cut, and now I've started to relapse. Instead of using a knife or razor, I used my fingernail. The way it works is to scratch the back of your...

well.. I'm new on this site.. But i think it's amazing i can tell my story here.. I cut myself.. sometimes, i'm not depressed or smth i just don't know why i do it :( .. It's like whenever i see smth sharp i wanna slice it trough my...

If you read my other story's you know I used to get hit by so called family. I became depressed and my two best friends who I love so much and I'd die for Tommy and Jonathan made me promise, it hurts them and I hate that when I cut I...

I am fifteen and have gotten better over the past few years. Two years ago I had temporary depression and was very antisocial. Since I had so sad, I started to cut. I thought about it a lot and even came up with a few ways to commit...

I think it's really fucked up how even after getting caught I still have the urge to take a razor and slash my wrists wide open. Whether it's a reaction out of pure anger or hurt I don't know anymore. I just want to leave all of it...

i find my body not numb, but tingly. i have such a craving to cut myself to feel something other then the tingle. i cut my upper thigh, palms of my hands, and my chest. the tingle feeling rarely ever goes away. when i cut myself i...

I want to cut. For no reason. I just like the way it feels. I used to have triggers for this sort of behavior, but now sometimes I don't. I can't keep secrets from my mom, so she knows I've done it. But she told me if I do it again she...

im a new user. im 16 and im the type of guy that dosent get into a relationship unless he is willing to make it a long term commitment. recently after 6 months of being with this irl I love we had a falling out and we broke up she was...

Lately I have felt intense pressure. Unbearable it is so my craving to cut has found me once again. Sometimes I get so messed up inside I can not do anything. I got pissed yesterday when I felt the urgent need to cut, I have no blades...

I was so close to stopping. The urges were dying down. But now they're back. Stronger than before. I just want to take all the pain away. I want to drift into my land of nothing. Away from the hateful people. Away from the world and all...

I lived in hiding for years. Spent so much energy covering them up and making up lies. The bad outweighed the benefits and I learned to love myself instead. I wish I could stop all the girls who feel the urge to injure themselves but I...

Here on EP I can only express who I really am... Or who I want to be.. Yes I cut... People at my school make fun of me... It i am who...