I Don't Know Who I Am Anymore Stories of Experiences (Page 4)

For a few months I have been dressing femme at work and using the women's restrooms.  Everyone has been nice.  They look at me differently and I look at them differently. It is kind of surreal in a way.  I have to figure out what...

Freedom just means exchanging your shackles for a new pair....

I came a long way this past 5 months. I am finally feeling that I can cope with some of the world's struggles. But after months of therapy, I feel like there are many bits of me that I have no idea where they belong. I still don't...

So many people believe that they are different but the truth is I think I am the most different of them all. I am almost 24 years old, never had a boyfriend in my life, never kissed a guy, never slept around, never been to a club, never...

A lot of times it just feels like i'm waiting to die. I don't go out with friends. I don't enjoy activities with my kids. If feels like all y time is consumed with work and chores. I see no purpose for me other than taking care of my...

My life has been long and harsh, at merely thirty, I have tried to make the best of bad events. As a child my father died and I lived with my mother and brother. I was only 5 when my father died and I was told he died of a broken heart...

I wrapped my life around a guy, who was always there for me. Yesterday I realized that all I've ever wanted is him. So I almost told him, but then he said that he's heart belongs to someone else and that I've missed my chance. I thought...

I've lived in so many places with so many different faces. All these different cities and school and colleges and relatives and foster care. Just because I'm not really wanted. I never settle anywhere, I've not had a stable home, ever...

I remember junior high like it was yesterday...even though in reality it was almost 4 years ago, im a senior in highschool. looking back on life I have realized ive messed a lot of things up. Junior high was a great time i had so many...

i stop and look and think how pretty the world is. but it hurts and it hurts so much. everyone is happy and talking and enjoying life. i used to feel everything; happiness, anger.. now a days i lay in bed wishing to fade away, to be...

I don't know what happened to me, and I don't even know how. I have had a wonderful life. a great family, and a promising future of success and everlasting happiness. I used to be the person that people would cry on. I used to be the...

I feel so lost sometimes I will look in the mirror and though I know it's my face don't recognise myself anymore. I have messed up my life so many times trying to be something I'm not, I use to lie about who I was or things I had done...

 my whole life people have asked me how i am always so happy and told me how great of a person i am. i used to think they were right, but now i'm not so sure. if i were happy, why would i feel so bad? if i was such a great person, why...

But I'm not sure and don't know anymore. I had this image of me in my head. I mean, I am with myself 24/7, I stopped lying to myself about myself long ago. 
I'm constantly being told am this positive person, such a good friend, amazing...

I don't think I've ever known who I am. I thought I did but now I find, as cliché as it sounds, there's someone else looking back at me from my mirror. I'm a bitter, misanthropic cynic, filled up with anger and depression. I feel like...

The long and short of it is my dad died and I don't know who I am without him. I felt like we shared a soul. Whenever I had a question about anything, especially spiritual, (he was a philosopher) I went to him. I don't know where to...

I forget who I am and who I was.. I am almost 30yrs old and is afraid to get married, now that a date has been fixed I walk away from it. I cannot trust men and it is destroying me. My dad did it to my mom and she died at an early stage...

I don't know what is happening to me anymore every since i turned 10 a few years ago it's been like a truck hit me and im paraylzed completely. My thoughts are jumbled up i have all these weird feelings for godsake i falling in love...

I was with a man for 19 years. Almost the entire time he was cheating on me with another woman. Now he has been with her three years. I have been getting better, or so I thought. Today I saw a picture of them together and it upset me...

after i lost my mother, i lost my identity. i was in foster care, but the feeling of "non belonging" was quite strong- always popping its head up. i didnt look like them, i didnt act like them, i didnt have the same interest as them...