I Am Self Destructive Stories of Experiences

I am self destructive in many ways.
I push my friends away, I'm rude to them, I don't show them how much I appreciate them, and these last few days I haven't answerd them when they have called or texted me. I think they have started to...

My emotions get the best of me sometimes and whilst I seek solace and find it nowhere there is no choice but to self destruct.

I have been really struggling recently. Been trying to figure where I fit in and why. Have been thinking about what has shaped me the last twenty years. Well, recently I figured it out. . . at 20, I had an abortion ( no one knows...

I am very self-destructive...I even have a self-destruct button, and I hit it ocassionally, doing some pretty severe damage to myself. I need to throw that fucker away, and get one that doesn't harm me, but helps me.

Just to learn from making mistakes?

Sometimes I just feel such emptiness, so hollow, so dark. I might be saying "Hello how are you" but I really mean "I'm empty and hollow, how are you ?". When I'm feeling this way, there's seems no point in trying to be positive or...

I thought i had stopped. I was clean for a year and a half. But in the last two weeks i have self harmed more than 20 times. But what can i say, the blade is my worst ennemy, it's my best friend. I use it when i feel no more alive than...

Well...today I broke my clean streak of cutting. I was 2 years and 5 months clean. I would always feel the urge to do it, but I always talked myself back out of it. And I got help for it when I first stopped. But today...I just felt...

I think i hurt myself in to many ways its hard to explain...I hate growing up in a shitty ass life..with no one believeing me..No one to trust and no one to care for me..its like i am in a shelter of a shit hole...

I mean its like i...

Since I was a little 5 year old child.
It started as simple nail biting, which then developed into skin biting. Gross, sort of. In some years, I managed to stop it - I didnt want to end like my father, half of his nails chewed off...

I'm not new to EP, just a new account. I thought I would start over and see how I differ from a few years back. The fact is, there's not much of a difference. I am self destructive in many ways. I'm a bulimic. I really hate my body. I...

Despair

My hatred breeds stronger. A claim about wanting to be friends. Why? I already was your friend, your soul mate. most people confuse sou mate with lover. Maybe I did, you never did. In the end, you did, and I didn't. I...

It all started when I was just 3 years old, when my dad left home, fortunately he didn’t leave forever like some other fathers do… Until I turned 7 we had a lot of contact. He lived near us, and every very weekend I got to see him...

I am not self destructive, sorry.
Socially self injurious sometimes as I am opinionated with a big mouth.
Not in trouble, not looking for any.
So no real story to tell.

Ever since I was a little girl, I have been self-destructive. In grade 3 I began to lie constantly, and it did not stop until I hit rock bottom a month ago. I have just recently found out that I have obsessive compulsive lying disorder...

Before I was put on medication, I was going through a very hard time trying to control my emotions. Every time I look at my arm, I am reminded of the time when i took scissors and cut three 2 -inch deep gashes into my arm. I remember...

Im 14. And I cut myself. Alot. Almost every night I cut my arms and my legs and my things and...well anything. But I dont know why I do it. I love the way my blood looks. I like how it makes me feel alive and important when I see my...

i am 14 i have diabetes i thought it was the endi have tried to kill my self 57 times at least i have tons of cuts and scars i always choose lieng over telling the truth i have severe depression i take meds but they dont help i cut alot...

I am self-destructive because I was abused by my parents.

They saw that I deserved pain,
Now I see that I deserve it too.

Recently moving out of the house has only changed one thing.
My abuser is now me instead of my parents.

I have...

I tend to do stupid things when I'm unbearably bored.