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I Abused Pills

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    Because I Am a Self Destructive Eejit

    I have abused pills for a variety of reasons from bulimia to suicide attempts from being very impatient and deciding to keep eating painkillers until the pain stopped rather than giving them time to work.  So the moral of this story - Don't, it is not big and it is not...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 7, 2009

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    I'm Addicted!

    Yes, i've abused pills since i was 13. On and off until 2 years ago that it got so out of control> i was taking more than 12 pills a day < 2 bottles wouldn't last a week. So 15+ months ago i kicked it! i'm in recovery now and i know for a fact that if i start to take...
    andreinac13 andreinac13 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 6, 2008

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    Used Them Until Near Death

    Two years ago I swallowed about 20 depression pills. I almost died from an overdose because of this. I've learned a lot from that mistake. Never again will I abuse pills like I did. It is so dangerous and I really didn't think at all when I took them. It feels good when you take...
    iloveedward iloveedward 18-21, F Nov 2, 2009

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    I've been told many times I have an addictive

    personality, and because of that I do struggle with addictions. I abused pills for many years, and its something I still worry about, weather it was my sleeping pills when I got out of high school, my xanax went I entered collage, or my pain pills after my car accident in...
    BroknGirl89 BroknGirl89 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 18

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    OMG Always

    Known for it... my cure all for life I guess. No I'm not out buying them on the black market but the thought of heading to Mexico does appeal to me. I just self medicate when need be. When I'm up all is well and no need... well unless I'm too up and uphoric and then take a small...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 1 Response Dec 2, 2008

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    I still do, but sleeping pills.

    I took 3 of my dads Trazadone and that was the worst mistake ever. I was in the shower and I was so close to telling my dad I've took them. Them made me want to throw up, made me very very weak and shaky, I could barely dry off and put on my clothes. They made me lose my vision...
    ButteryToast ButteryToast 18-21, F Jul 17

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    Maybe a Lifetime Ago

    I used to abuse pills almost every day.  I have been sober for a year and I just got off probation.  Already people want me to do them again.  The high i got from pills was unreal and that is always in the back of my mind.  I don't want to use pills again even...
    Locogirrl Locogirrl 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 9, 2009

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    JalenFrankie616 JalenFrankie616 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    Last night I felt hopeless I took it without

    thinking My body went numb And I continued I felt heavy... I cried endlessly I laid on my bed And swallowed the last in the container Listening to music I felt paralyzed I couldn't move The pain was gone More tears ran down my cheek I smiled Then my phone ringed I...
    kpoppanda124 kpoppanda124 18-21, F Jul 1, 2014

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    Once, Never Again

    I'll admit to doing it once, when very low. Luckily didn't take enough to be sick, just a good sleep. I'll never do it again, I count my lucky stars.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Feb 4, 2012

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    Long Time Ago!!!!

    I was 16 when all this started..... me and my friends started taking 'relaxin' pills. these pills would relax all the muscels in the body and bring us in a new zone...we used to take 1 pill a day in the start and eventualy we took it as a candy without water..... we used to bear...
    Pseudo69 Pseudo69 26-30, M 1 Response Sep 20, 2013

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    I was really depressed

    and sad that day. When I got home I took 10 pills, I don't know what I was trying to accomplish I just knew I was tired of life. Anyway a couple hours after I took the the pills I was really scared I was going to die. They were sleeping pills so I was scared to go to sleep...
    LikeAPrayer LikeAPrayer 18-21, F Jul 29, 2014

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    I Still Do...

    abuse pills. It numbs the pain of having to live life. It makes me forget whats going on. It helps me shut my mind off otherwise I won't sleep for days because I have so many things eating away at me. You can call me what you'd like but this is how I deal. People always say do...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 31, 2011

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    Every Night

    I would take on average anywhere from 5-10 tylenols along with a few sleeping pills. This all started when I was 12 until I was about 16. My Mom kept all the pills in her bedroom above her bed. I would go in randomly complaining of a headache or sick stomach. She would usually...
    Aleighsha Aleighsha 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 8, 2010

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    I use pills to get me high

    for like the past two weeks on the weekends and I feel terrible about doing that. I don't want to get my boyfriend mad at me and ugh I need to stop. I love him to much to destroy this relationship cause of me being an idiot
    BooBear99 BooBear99 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 18

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    Still Do Sometimes

    I like taking a bit more klonopin than what is prescribed to me because I just need something to chill me out. I get so anxious. Only bad thing is- it chills me out but I get so tired and I knock out.  Years before, I used to abuse painkillers. I would take at least a...
    nitid nitid 16-17, F Dec 1, 2010

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    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 1, 2014

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    Not Anymore Though!

    Although I would if I could (as sad as that is)... It's just not within my means right now.  I live in a new state and wouldn't even know where to begin.  They were so readily available to me where I was from.  Everything... OC's (80's), Loratabs, Xany's, percs...
    BlueWhaleMeatMcFacer BlueWhaleMeatMcFacer 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 4, 2008

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    Far, Far Away......

    I have abused these and more...I really like the feeling I get with painkillers. But, I tend to get hooked on them really quickly...I find myself taking doses more frequently, and when they're gone, the crash is horrid!!!  I need to stay far, far away from all painkillers...
    lonesurvivor lonesurvivor 56-60, F 3 Responses Nov 3, 2009

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    Everthin

    ive abused pills of all sorts bout everythin u could think off painkillers anti-inflammatories sleeepin tablets anti psychotics blood pressure tablets ant acid tablets everthin u could think of i have abused and i aint gonna stop cause it keeps me alive and saves me...
    ccdo ccdo 22-25, F Nov 18, 2009

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    Back To Square Zero

    This is going to sound stupid maybe, but I got so upset that I couldn't go to the fireworks show here. I love fireworks. It was too far though and I would have felt silly being all alone. I got more and more depressed and started crying. I took two Benadryl, a Klonopin, two...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jul 5, 2011

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    Tyanol Was My Best Friend

    Living with my mother I had a dependency on sleeping pills and tyanol 3's, They numbed all the pain away. But with this dependancy I became ill..all I can say now is that I steer clear of tyanol.
    Canadianpunchingbag Canadianpunchingbag 18-21, F Sep 27, 2008

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    Oh Yes.. A Lot

    Aqutic, Percaset, oxycodone serequill, all Years ago. The worse was probablyy when my best friend had saved up all of her medication, for a few months... we both just downed probably over 60 each...
    xScreamOfTheButterflyx xScreamOfTheButterflyx 22-25, F 9 Responses Nov 2, 2009

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    beautifuldisaster0 beautifuldisaster0 26-30, F Dec 30, 2013

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    I Used To

    ok i will admit this. i used to be addicted to sleeping pills. It started after i got kicked out of high school. I had real trouble sleeping back then. i would stay up fro over a day and sleep half a day. i would stay up all night walking around town then sleep when the day came...
    CaptainJackass CaptainJackass 22-25, M 4 Responses Dec 1, 2010

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    I Still Kind Of Do....

    I take over the counter sleeping pills, as if they are candy or something like that, or at least that is what I have been told. Since I don't have any health insurance, I have to relay on over-the-counter pills, to help me sleep, and because I have to do that, it takes more than...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 10, 2010

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    Long Time Ago!!!! I was 16

    when all this started..... me and my friends started taking 'relaxin' pills. these pills would relax all the muscels in the body and bring us in a new zone...we used to take 1 pill a day in the start and eventualy we took it as a candy without water..... we used to bear the bad...
    Pseudo69isback Pseudo69isback 31-35, M Nov 11, 2014

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    I Did

    A long time ago... When I was in one of my experimenting phases... One of the stupidest things I have done... I have od'd more then ten times because of pills... But I never stop... Because well I was an idiot... I stop abusing pills when I was 14 because I thought I found better...
    XLunaXLovegoodX XLunaXLovegoodX 22-25, F Jul 17, 2008

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    To Sleep

    I guess I was getting a bit desperate. I didn't sleep well, on most of the nights not at all, and I still had to study as hard as possible five days a week. I wonder if I had gotten an actual sleeping medication if I asked for it? Maybe, maybe not. I live in a small town, where...
    Fearofsilence Fearofsilence 18-21, F Aug 11, 2010

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    Sawke Sawke 22-25, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I miss my pills. nothing better than crushing and snorting.
    frustration79 frustration79 36-40, M a week ago

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    I abused prescription drugs on large scale during 1995 to 2000. I tried them in very potent and weird combinations. I mostly abused benzodiazepines. Now I find that my memory has...
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    when I was born my mother couldn't except me ... I still don't know why. However my dad loved me to bits and took really good care of me while my mum couldn't even look into my...
    kstra38 kstra38 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 25

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