I Abused Pills

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    I Used To

    ok i will admit this. i used to be addicted to sleeping pills. It started after i got kicked out of high school. I had real trouble sleeping back then. i would stay up fro over a day and sleep half a day. i would stay up all night walking around town then sleep when the day came...
    CaptainJackass CaptainJackass
    22-25, M
    4 Responses Dec 1, 2010

    I honestly love to take Percocet

    and Norco as often as I can get them, that feeling from opiates is just so relaxing and makes me feel so happy and relaxed. I have sever anxiety and have to take some pills to keep it under check but honestly those pills make me numb and don't feel anything. I heard that...
    John2526 John2526
    36-40, M
    Dec 27, 2015

    I use pills to get me high

    for like the past two weeks on the weekends and I feel terrible about doing that. I don't want to get my boyfriend mad at me and ugh I need to stop. I love him to much to destroy this relationship cause of me being an idiot
    BooBear99 BooBear99
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 18, 2015

    Back To Square Zero

    This is going to sound stupid maybe, but I got so upset that I couldn't go to the fireworks show here. I love fireworks. It was too far though and I would have felt silly being all alone. I got more and more depressed and started crying. I took two Benadryl, a Klonopin, two...
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    3 Responses Jul 5, 2011

    Because I Am a Self Destructive Eejit

    I have abused pills for a variety of reasons from bulimia to suicide attempts from being very impatient and deciding to keep eating painkillers until the pain stopped rather than giving them time to work.  So the moral of this story - Don't, it is not big and it is not...
    deleted deleted
    May 7, 2009

    I Still Kind Of Do....

    I take over the counter sleeping pills, as if they are candy or something like that, or at least that is what I have been told. Since I don't have any health insurance, I have to relay on over-the-counter pills, to help me sleep, and because I have to do that, it takes more than...
    deleted deleted
    Nov 10, 2010

    To Sleep

    I guess I was getting a bit desperate. I didn't sleep well, on most of the nights not at all, and I still had to study as hard as possible five days a week. I wonder if I had gotten an actual sleeping medication if I asked for it? Maybe, maybe not. I live in a small town, where...
    Fearofsilence Fearofsilence
    18-21, F
    Aug 11, 2010

    Maybe a Lifetime Ago

    I used to abuse pills almost every day.  I have been sober for a year and I just got off probation.  Already people want me to do them again.  The high i got from pills was unreal and that is always in the back of my mind.  I don't want to use pills again even...
    Locogirrl Locogirrl
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 9, 2009
    beautifuldisaster0 beautifuldisaster0
    26-30, F
    Dec 30, 2013

    Every Night

    I would take on average anywhere from 5-10 tylenols along with a few sleeping pills. This all started when I was 12 until I was about 16. My Mom kept all the pills in her bedroom above her bed. I would go in randomly complaining of a headache or sick stomach. She would usually...
    Aleighsha Aleighsha
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 8, 2010

    I've been told many times I have an addictive

    personality, and because of that I do struggle with addictions. I abused pills for many years, and its something I still worry about, weather it was my sleeping pills when I got out of high school, my xanax went I entered collage, or my pain pills after my car accident in...
    HisLittleAriel HisLittleAriel
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jul 18, 2015

    Oh Yes.. A Lot

    Aqutic, Percaset, oxycodone serequill, all Years ago. The worse was probablyy when my best friend had saved up all of her medication, for a few months... we both just downed probably over 60 each...
    xScreamOfTheButterflyx xScreamOfTheButterflyx
    22-25, F
    9 Responses Nov 2, 2009

    I'm Addicted!

    Yes, i've abused pills since i was 13. On and off until 2 years ago that it got so out of control> i was taking more than 12 pills a day < 2 bottles wouldn't last a week. So 15+ months ago i kicked it! i'm in recovery now and i know for a fact that if i start to take...
    andreinac13 andreinac13
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 6, 2008
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    1 Response Dec 1, 2014

    I never told anyone about it

    but I used to have a pretty bad problem with pills I would go to school so high most days and spend my weekends tripping so bad I wasn't sure what was real but secretly hoping one day I would just overdose and it could be over. My friends at the time had the same problem and one...
    WhoseMe WhoseMe
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 25, 2015

    Last night I felt hopeless I took it without

    thinking My body went numb And I continued I felt heavy... I cried endlessly I laid on my bed And swallowed the last in the container Listening to music I felt paralyzed I couldn't move The pain was gone More tears ran down my cheek I smiled Then my phone ringed I...
    kpoppanda124 kpoppanda124
    18-21, F
    Jul 1, 2014

    I Still Do...

    abuse pills. It numbs the pain of having to live life. It makes me forget whats going on. It helps me shut my mind off otherwise I won't sleep for days because I have so many things eating away at me. You can call me what you'd like but this is how I deal. People always say do...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response May 31, 2011

    Far, Far Away......

    I have abused these and more...I really like the feeling I get with painkillers. But, I tend to get hooked on them really quickly...I find myself taking doses more frequently, and when they're gone, the crash is horrid!!!  I need to stay far, far away from all painkillers...
    lonesurvivor lonesurvivor
    56-60, F
    3 Responses Nov 3, 2009

    Long Time Ago!!!! I was 16

    when all this started..... me and my friends started taking 'relaxin' pills. these pills would relax all the muscels in the body and bring us in a new zone...we used to take 1 pill a day in the start and eventualy we took it as a candy without water..... we used to bear the bad...
    Pseudo69isback Pseudo69isback
    31-35, M
    Nov 11, 2014

    Still Do Sometimes

    I like taking a bit more klonopin than what is prescribed to me because I just need something to chill me out. I get so anxious. Only bad thing is- it chills me out but I get so tired and I knock out.  Years before, I used to abuse painkillers. I would take at least a...
    nitid nitid
    16-17, F
    Dec 1, 2010

    Tyanol Was My Best Friend

    Living with my mother I had a dependency on sleeping pills and tyanol 3's, They numbed all the pain away. But with this dependancy I became ill..all I can say now is that I steer clear of tyanol.
    Canadianpunchingbag Canadianpunchingbag
    18-21, F
    Sep 27, 2008


    ive abused pills of all sorts bout everythin u could think off painkillers anti-inflammatories sleeepin tablets anti psychotics blood pressure tablets ant acid tablets everthin u could think of i have abused and i aint gonna stop cause it keeps me alive and saves me...
    ccdo ccdo
    22-25, F
    Nov 18, 2009

    Once, Never Again

    I'll admit to doing it once, when very low. Luckily didn't take enough to be sick, just a good sleep. I'll never do it again, I count my lucky stars.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket
    46-50, M
    Feb 4, 2012
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    1 Response Mar 27, 2015

    I was really depressed

    and sad that day. When I got home I took 10 pills, I don't know what I was trying to accomplish I just knew I was tired of life. Anyway a couple hours after I took the the pills I was really scared I was going to die. They were sleeping pills so I was scared to go to sleep...
    LikeAPrayer LikeAPrayer
    18-21, F
    Jul 29, 2014

    Not Anymore Though!

    Although I would if I could (as sad as that is)... It's just not within my means right now.  I live in a new state and wouldn't even know where to begin.  They were so readily available to me where I was from.  Everything... OC's (80's), Loratabs, Xany's, percs...
    BlueWhaleMeatMcFacer BlueWhaleMeatMcFacer
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 4, 2008

    OMG Always

    Known for it... my cure all for life I guess. No I'm not out buying them on the black market but the thought of heading to Mexico does appeal to me. I just self medicate when need be. When I'm up all is well and no need... well unless I'm too up and uphoric and then take a small...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality
    36-40, F
    1 Response Dec 2, 2008

    I Did

    A long time ago... When I was in one of my experimenting phases... One of the stupidest things I have done... I have od'd more then ten times because of pills... But I never stop... Because well I was an idiot... I stop abusing pills when I was 14 because I thought I found better...
    XLunaXLovegoodX XLunaXLovegoodX
    22-25, F
    Jul 17, 2008

    Long Time Ago!!!!

    I was 16 when all this started..... me and my friends started taking 'relaxin' pills. these pills would relax all the muscels in the body and bring us in a new zone...we used to take 1 pill a day in the start and eventualy we took it as a candy without water..... we used to bear...
    Pseudo69 Pseudo69
    26-30, M
    1 Response Sep 20, 2013

    Used Them Until Near Death

    Two years ago I swallowed about 20 depression pills. I almost died from an overdose because of this. I've learned a lot from that mistake. Never again will I abuse pills like I did. It is so dangerous and I really didn't think at all when I took them. It feels good when you take...
    iloveedward iloveedward
    22-25, F
    Nov 2, 2009

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