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I Abused Pills

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    Maybe a Lifetime Ago

    I used to abuse pills almost every day.  I have been sober for a year and I just got off probation.  Already people want me to do them again.  The high i got from pills was unreal and that is always in the back of my mind.  I don't want to use pills again even...
    Locogirrl Locogirrl 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 9, 2009

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    I Still Do...

    abuse pills. It numbs the pain of having to live life. It makes me forget whats going on. It helps me shut my mind off otherwise I won't sleep for days because I have so many things eating away at me. You can call me what you'd like but this is how I deal. People always say do...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 31, 2011

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    Not Anymore Though!

    Although I would if I could (as sad as that is)... It's just not within my means right now.  I live in a new state and wouldn't even know where to begin.  They were so readily available to me where I was from.  Everything... OC's (80's), Loratabs, Xany's, percs...
    BlueWhaleMeatMcFacer BlueWhaleMeatMcFacer 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 4, 2008

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    Oh Yes.. A Lot

    Aqutic, Percaset, oxycodone serequill, all Years ago. The worse was probablyy when my best friend had saved up all of her medication, for a few months... we both just downed probably over 60 each...
    xScreamOfTheButterflyx xScreamOfTheButterflyx 22-25, F 9 Responses Nov 2, 2009

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    Last night I felt hopeless I took it without

    thinking My body went numb And I continued I felt heavy... I cried endlessly I laid on my bed And swallowed the last in the container Listening to music I felt paralyzed I couldn't move The pain was gone More tears ran down my cheek I smiled Then my phone ringed I...
    kpoppanda124 kpoppanda124 16-17, F Jul 1, 2014

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    Used to have a friend

    who could get her hands on anything. Ambien, Xanax, Valium, barbs, and Vicodin are a small portion of what we would take. Pretty stupid now that I reflect back because there was no point in taking all that crap. I was one crazy kid.
    JessicaTacos JessicaTacos 18-21, F Dec 24, 2014

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    I Used To

    ok i will admit this. i used to be addicted to sleeping pills. It started after i got kicked out of high school. I had real trouble sleeping back then. i would stay up fro over a day and sleep half a day. i would stay up all night walking around town then sleep when the day came...
    CaptainJackass CaptainJackass 22-25, M 4 Responses Dec 1, 2010

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    Once, Never Again

    I'll admit to doing it once, when very low. Luckily didn't take enough to be sick, just a good sleep. I'll never do it again, I count my lucky stars.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Feb 4, 2012

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    Everthin

    ive abused pills of all sorts bout everythin u could think off painkillers anti-inflammatories sleeepin tablets anti psychotics blood pressure tablets ant acid tablets everthin u could think of i have abused and i aint gonna stop cause it keeps me alive and saves me...
    ccdo ccdo 22-25, F Nov 18, 2009

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    SheIsHealing SheIsHealing 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 1, 2014

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    Tyanol Was My Best Friend

    Living with my mother I had a dependency on sleeping pills and tyanol 3's, They numbed all the pain away. But with this dependancy I became ill..all I can say now is that I steer clear of tyanol.
    Canadianpunchingbag Canadianpunchingbag 18-21, F Sep 27, 2008

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    I Did

    A long time ago... When I was in one of my experimenting phases... One of the stupidest things I have done... I have od'd more then ten times because of pills... But I never stop... Because well I was an idiot... I stop abusing pills when I was 14 because I thought I found better...
    XLunaXLovegoodX XLunaXLovegoodX 22-25, F Jul 17, 2008

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    Used Them Until Near Death

    Two years ago I swallowed about 20 depression pills. I almost died from an overdose because of this. I've learned a lot from that mistake. Never again will I abuse pills like I did. It is so dangerous and I really didn't think at all when I took them. It feels good when you take...
    iloveedward iloveedward 18-21, F Nov 2, 2009

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    Still Do Sometimes

    I like taking a bit more klonopin than what is prescribed to me because I just need something to chill me out. I get so anxious. Only bad thing is- it chills me out but I get so tired and I knock out.  Years before, I used to abuse painkillers. I would take at least a...
    nitid nitid 16-17, F Dec 1, 2010

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    To Sleep

    I guess I was getting a bit desperate. I didn't sleep well, on most of the nights not at all, and I still had to study as hard as possible five days a week. I wonder if I had gotten an actual sleeping medication if I asked for it? Maybe, maybe not. I live in a small town, where...
    Fearofsilence Fearofsilence 18-21, F Aug 11, 2010

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    Long Time Ago!!!! I was 16

    when all this started..... me and my friends started taking 'relaxin' pills. these pills would relax all the muscels in the body and bring us in a new zone...we used to take 1 pill a day in the start and eventualy we took it as a candy without water..... we used to bear the bad...
    Pseudo69isback Pseudo69isback 31-35, M Nov 11, 2014

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    Long Time Ago!!!!

    I was 16 when all this started..... me and my friends started taking 'relaxin' pills. these pills would relax all the muscels in the body and bring us in a new zone...we used to take 1 pill a day in the start and eventualy we took it as a candy without water..... we used to bear...
    Pseudo69 Pseudo69 26-30, M 1 Response Sep 20, 2013

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    beautifuldisaster0 beautifuldisaster0 26-30, F Dec 30, 2013

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    I'm Addicted!

    Yes, i've abused pills since i was 13. On and off until 2 years ago that it got so out of control> i was taking more than 12 pills a day < 2 bottles wouldn't last a week. So 15+ months ago i kicked it! i'm in recovery now and i know for a fact that if i start to take...
    andreinac13 andreinac13 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 6, 2008

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    Every Night

    I would take on average anywhere from 5-10 tylenols along with a few sleeping pills. This all started when I was 12 until I was about 16. My Mom kept all the pills in her bedroom above her bed. I would go in randomly complaining of a headache or sick stomach. She would usually...
    Aleighsha Aleighsha 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 8, 2010

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    Far, Far Away......

    I have abused these and more...I really like the feeling I get with painkillers. But, I tend to get hooked on them really quickly...I find myself taking doses more frequently, and when they're gone, the crash is horrid!!!  I need to stay far, far away from all painkillers...
    lonesurvivor lonesurvivor 51-55, F 3 Responses Nov 3, 2009

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    OMG Always

    Known for it... my cure all for life I guess. No I'm not out buying them on the black market but the thought of heading to Mexico does appeal to me. I just self medicate when need be. When I'm up all is well and no need... well unless I'm too up and uphoric and then take a small...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 1 Response Dec 2, 2008

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    I Still Kind Of Do....

    I take over the counter sleeping pills, as if they are candy or something like that, or at least that is what I have been told. Since I don't have any health insurance, I have to relay on over-the-counter pills, to help me sleep, and because I have to do that, it takes more than...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 10, 2010

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    Because I Am a Self Destructive Eejit

    I have abused pills for a variety of reasons from bulimia to suicide attempts from being very impatient and deciding to keep eating painkillers until the pain stopped rather than giving them time to work.  So the moral of this story - Don't, it is not big and it is not...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 7, 2009

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    I was really depressed

    and sad that day. When I got home I took 10 pills, I don't know what I was trying to accomplish I just knew I was tired of life. Anyway a couple hours after I took the the pills I was really scared I was going to die. They were sleeping pills so I was scared to go to sleep...
    LikeAPrayer LikeAPrayer 18-21, F Jul 29, 2014

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    Back To Square Zero

    This is going to sound stupid maybe, but I got so upset that I couldn't go to the fireworks show here. I love fireworks. It was too far though and I would have felt silly being all alone. I got more and more depressed and started crying. I took two Benadryl, a Klonopin, two...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jul 5, 2011

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    I won't take them. I used to work in "in-home health care" and the woman I cared for took 80 pills, 60 of which treated the side effects from the 20 pills she "actually needed...
    MommysGotTats420 MommysGotTats420 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 19

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    Am I the only one that feels this way? I was sexually abused at a young age, and then about three years ago I was abused by my brother in law when living with my sister. I lived...
    MissSeaGal452 MissSeaGal452 22-25, F 3 Responses Feb 19

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    Last night...oh boy. I threw up something fierce. I truly believed I was going to die. I must never forget it. I took the pills to avoid feeling pain yet last night was...
    LastofmyPeople LastofmyPeople 31-35, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I feel a lil un easy about posting this..but that's what this app is all about right? Being ourselves without judgment ect ..but I feel stuck ..at home...Im abused daily by my...
    glisteningheartz glisteningheartz 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 6

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    stay alive stay strong get human lights by your hand with someone's help i am survivor of sexually abused by father i am survivor of phisically abused by mother i am domestic...
    JerryJerryA JerryJerryA 31-35, F Feb 9

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    what is the max number of sleeping pills you can take without dying? (just curious.)
    ashi28 ashi28 16-17, F 4 Responses Feb 21

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    I have period pain and the only relief is a pill. The problem is, I can't swallow pills. Even the tiny ones I nearly choke on and it's awful. I have a such a fear of it. I've tried...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 6 days ago

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    I took a pic of the pills I take. Usually one a month. This is the tablet sleeve (whatever you call it?) and a tablet on top. I cut that into 4's and 4's and 4's again and even...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 6 days ago

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    i am survivor of sexually abused by my father. my mother and sisters always beated me up and called me useless,you are joke,ugly,nothing. ...i live alone now. flash back is...
    JerryJerryA JerryJerryA 31-35, F Feb 8

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    i was sexually abused when i was 8 by a woman when she was 21
    priyanujdev priyanujdev 26-30, M Feb 10

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    I was sexually abused by my uncle and grandfather, it took 8 years of my life. It began when I was 2 years old and continued until I turned 10. I would go to my dads house and my...
    cassiedafuq cassiedafuq 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 22

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    I was abused from the age of 14 by my Aunt and Uncle who I lived with. It continued until I was 18. I still stay in touch with them and it's even talked about, sometimes I think it...
    TheFoxhound8421 TheFoxhound8421 31-35, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I was sexually abused by my aunt and uncle while I lived with them from the age of 14 until I was 18. It then continued with my mum, but in a differant way.Sometimes I wonder if...
    TheFoxhound8421 TheFoxhound8421 31-35, M 5 days ago

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    My step dad used to try and 'toughen me up' when he realised I just wasn't like that he started mentally abusing me, he would say I was a girl for not liking fighting and would...
    LeighUK LeighUK 41-45, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I was sexually abused by my uncle at the age of 5 till 11.... Im 17 now and i finally went to the police it was the best decision i ever made, please if this has happend to you i...
    helpmeplease1973 helpmeplease1973 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Feel Pain For All Abused Children
    god1011 god1011 22-25, M 1 day ago

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    He never used to be like this... It starts with he's not in love with me anymore and now becomes he cannot see any good in me... I don't believe in divorce but lately I contemplate...
    rocknangel rocknangel 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 5

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    My wife was sexually assaulted over a period of time when she was in her early teenage years. We are both struggling with this, she as a survivor, and me as the partner of a...
    PHBalanced PHBalanced 46-50, M Feb 5

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