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I Abused Pills

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    Not Anymore Though!

    Although I would if I could (as sad as that is)... It's just not within my means right now.  I live in a new state and wouldn't even know where to begin.  They were so readily available to me where I was from.  Everything... OC's (80's), Loratabs, Xany's, percs...
    BlueWhaleMeatMcFacer BlueWhaleMeatMcFacer 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 4, 2008

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    I Still Do...

    abuse pills. It numbs the pain of having to live life. It makes me forget whats going on. It helps me shut my mind off otherwise I won't sleep for days because I have so many things eating away at me. You can call me what you'd like but this is how I deal. People always say do...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 31, 2011

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    I Did

    A long time ago... When I was in one of my experimenting phases... One of the stupidest things I have done... I have od'd more then ten times because of pills... But I never stop... Because well I was an idiot... I stop abusing pills when I was 14 because I thought I found better...
    XLunaXLovegoodX XLunaXLovegoodX 22-25, F Jul 17, 2008

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    Tyanol Was My Best Friend

    Living with my mother I had a dependency on sleeping pills and tyanol 3's, They numbed all the pain away. But with this dependancy I became ill..all I can say now is that I steer clear of tyanol.
    Canadianpunchingbag Canadianpunchingbag 18-21, F Sep 27, 2008

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    Still Do Sometimes

    I like taking a bit more klonopin than what is prescribed to me because I just need something to chill me out. I get so anxious. Only bad thing is- it chills me out but I get so tired and I knock out.  Years before, I used to abuse painkillers. I would take at least a...
    nitid nitid 16-17, F Dec 1, 2010

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    I Still Kind Of Do....

    I take over the counter sleeping pills, as if they are candy or something like that, or at least that is what I have been told. Since I don't have any health insurance, I have to relay on over-the-counter pills, to help me sleep, and because I have to do that, it takes more than...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 10, 2010

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    I'm Addicted!

    Yes, i've abused pills since i was 13. On and off until 2 years ago that it got so out of control> i was taking more than 12 pills a day < 2 bottles wouldn't last a week. So 15+ months ago i kicked it! i'm in recovery now and i know for a fact that if i start to take...
    andreinac13 andreinac13 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 6, 2008

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    Because I Am a Self Destructive Eejit

    I have abused pills for a variety of reasons from bulimia to suicide attempts from being very impatient and deciding to keep eating painkillers until the pain stopped rather than giving them time to work.  So the moral of this story - Don't, it is not big and it is not...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 7, 2009

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    Far, Far Away......

    I have abused these and more...I really like the feeling I get with painkillers. But, I tend to get hooked on them really quickly...I find myself taking doses more frequently, and when they're gone, the crash is horrid!!!  I need to stay far, far away from all painkillers...
    lonesurvivor lonesurvivor 51-55, F 3 Responses Nov 3, 2009

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    Once, Never Again

    I'll admit to doing it once, when very low. Luckily didn't take enough to be sick, just a good sleep. I'll never do it again, I count my lucky stars.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Feb 4, 2012

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    Everthin

    ive abused pills of all sorts bout everythin u could think off painkillers anti-inflammatories sleeepin tablets anti psychotics blood pressure tablets ant acid tablets everthin u could think of i have abused and i aint gonna stop cause it keeps me alive and saves me...
    ccdo ccdo 22-25, F Nov 18, 2009

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    Every Night

    I would take on average anywhere from 5-10 tylenols along with a few sleeping pills. This all started when I was 12 until I was about 16. My Mom kept all the pills in her bedroom above her bed. I would go in randomly complaining of a headache or sick stomach. She would usually...
    Aleighsha Aleighsha 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 8, 2010

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    beautifuldisaster0 beautifuldisaster0 26-30, F Dec 30, 2013

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    Used Them Until Near Death

    Two years ago I swallowed about 20 depression pills. I almost died from an overdose because of this. I've learned a lot from that mistake. Never again will I abuse pills like I did. It is so dangerous and I really didn't think at all when I took them. It feels good when you take...
    iloveedward iloveedward 18-21, F Nov 2, 2009

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    Maybe a Lifetime Ago

    I used to abuse pills almost every day.  I have been sober for a year and I just got off probation.  Already people want me to do them again.  The high i got from pills was unreal and that is always in the back of my mind.  I don't want to use pills again even...
    Locogirrl Locogirrl 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 9, 2009

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    I Used To

    ok i will admit this. i used to be addicted to sleeping pills. It started after i got kicked out of high school. I had real trouble sleeping back then. i would stay up fro over a day and sleep half a day. i would stay up all night walking around town then sleep when the day came...
    CaptainJackass CaptainJackass 22-25, M 4 Responses Dec 1, 2010

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    To Sleep

    I guess I was getting a bit desperate. I didn't sleep well, on most of the nights not at all, and I still had to study as hard as possible five days a week. I wonder if I had gotten an actual sleeping medication if I asked for it? Maybe, maybe not. I live in a small town, where...
    Fearofsilence Fearofsilence 18-21, F Aug 11, 2010

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    Oh Yes.. A Lot

    Aqutic, Percaset, oxycodone serequill, all Years ago. The worse was probablyy when my best friend had saved up all of her medication, for a few months... we both just downed probably over 60 each...
    xScreamOfTheButterflyx xScreamOfTheButterflyx 22-25, F 6 Responses Nov 2, 2009

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    OMG Always

    Known for it... my cure all for life I guess. No I'm not out buying them on the black market but the thought of heading to Mexico does appeal to me. I just self medicate when need be. When I'm up all is well and no need... well unless I'm too up and uphoric and then take a small...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 1 Response Dec 2, 2008

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    Pop a pill and feel better right? Wrong. I take at least a dozen pills a day. I take whatever I can get my hands on. Ibuprofen, Naproxen, Oxycodon, anything. It's gotten so bad...
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    Everybody who I've told what she does to me says that she is abusive, but I'm still not sure. I know that she's narcissistic because in all the articles I read about it almost all...
    jules401 jules401 13-15, F 5 Responses Mar 29

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    All out of sleeping pills for tonight. Benadryl and beer I guess. What OTC sleeping pills do you take?
    believe201427 believe201427 26-30, F 1 Response a week ago

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    This is something I have a hard time admitting and even though I have talked about the abuse to people I trust, I never let them know it was him. 10 years after the last incident...
    shierahawke88 shierahawke88 36-40, F 3 Responses Mar 31

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    My mom just told me the other day that I might have been sexually abused when I was 4. I was like, "What do you mean, "might" ? " She would drop me off at daycare when she went to...
    innerself000 innerself000 18-21 1 Response Apr 7

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    I've been sexually abused by my uncle and my grandfather both different days,thank god I wasnt raped, but there was a lot of fingering and as a little kid it hurt so bad,my uncle...
    Score16 Score16 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    I was sexually abused by my step grandfather I mean I remember I was at least 6 years old. But who is to say he wasn't sexually abusing me since before then
    Reynastaxx Reynastaxx 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    I was sexually abused by my older brother and was raped by my two cousin when I was a little girl from that day till now I wish I wasn't here in this world n I still wonder in...
    ezzyrock ezzyrock 13-15, F 4 Responses Mar 30

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    It's honestly the worst thing ever and I would never wish abuse upon my worst enemy. I can't take back this past year and a half and I regret it every day. It truly does suck. I...
    cak22 cak22 18-21, F Mar 31

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    The say sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt...I think Id rather get beaten with sticks and stones because words can pierce more than a two edged sword...
    auraboreale auraboreale 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    I WAS AN ABUSED CHILD, but I was also led to be good. When I acted out in rage, my friend Jared, who was beaten so badly as a kid that he was emancipated at fifteen picked me up...
    raylynn24 raylynn24 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 9

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    Child abuse is not the way. When my Mom abused me I was very angry and sad and I don't know what was going through my messed up head but I wanted to have children just so they...
    Qwerkyqwerty Qwerkyqwerty 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    GIVE but don't allow yourself to be used LOVE but don't allow your heart to be abused TRUST but don't be naive LISTEN to others but don't loose your own voice!!
    Sandyshaw13 Sandyshaw13 36-40, F Apr 10

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    I was sexually abused by my grandfather and his dog. I have looked on a lot of abuse sites but have never been able to find anyone else who was abuse by using an animal to do the...
    Veraspain Veraspain 16-17, F 5 Responses Apr 10

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    All through my childhood my mother abused me, physically, mentally and sexually. A lot of people never understand that a woman can sexually abuse a child but believe me there are...
    liberosis liberosis 41-45, F 3 Responses Apr 10

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    I am actually curious and have more of a question regarding this topic. Why do people who have been sexually abused desire to be hurt in such a way again? Or why do they turn into...
    TheSimsWePlay TheSimsWePlay 22-25, F 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    I feel like I've been abused by my brother he punches me tackles threatens me and then he makes me promise not to tell I don't know what to do please help me
    Halseyhope Halseyhope 13-15, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    my father mentally , physically, and emotionaly abused me as a child
    JamesB20 JamesB20 18-21, M 3 days ago

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    Emotional abuse isnt only insults and shouting at you. If they ignore you it is abuse aswell. Ive been ignored all my life from my schoolmates, work collegues and my sister...
    angel8i angel8i 31-35, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Or snorting them really haha like Xanax's, they're the best and make me so happy 💕💁😍
    Batchick420 Batchick420 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 25

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    I took roxylean and then my ears started burning red and my whole body swelled up and got all red and I had to go to the hospital and get a benydril shot lol it SUCKED!
    picKLe47 picKLe47 18-21, F Mar 31

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    I was attempting to stop taking them but it's 2am... Oh the struggle... To take them or to not take them? Such a predicament.
    LivviyLove LivviyLove 16-17, F Apr 11

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    So I'm going to start the abc diet! What of you think?!?
    mcginnis98 mcginnis98 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Not enough to die, just enough to feel good. Help me sleep and not have nightmares.
    jasonpw jasonpw 16-17, M 2 days ago

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    My name is Dakota. I'm 14. I'm a victim of sexual abuse. I'm overcoming this trauma one day at a time. I'm learning to trust again. If you want to know my back story, please read...
    mouthdakota mouthdakota 18-21, M 5 Responses Mar 22

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    Hello, EP. How are you? I know I haven't posted since my arrival earlier this week. But I'll tell you why. You see, even as I try to pretend that everything is normal and status...
    ArchSeven327 ArchSeven327 18-21, M Mar 22

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    I really do but see when a human does I don't care even if there in my family all animals I cry if there hurt ;( I don't have a cold heart it's just I don't know ;(
    daggerthewolf daggerthewolf 13-15, M Mar 22

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    Ok so when I was a little girl I used to be really close to my dad and all the time I would lay next to him on the couch and he would always pet me on my arms and head but then be...
    ninaaba14 ninaaba14 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 22

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    Very I cry and stuff, but when a human dies and there in my family I really don't care :) don't asked why I put :) face ;(=when any animal dies :|=when a human dies...
    daggerthewolf daggerthewolf 13-15, M Mar 22

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    I was six years ils when my biological mother would beat mr everyday and she choos drugs sex and alchol over me and she put my brother in the oven. she would beat me everyday and...
    lillyg96 lillyg96 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    My mom psychologically tortured me and my two older siblings growing up. She is an extremist Christian and has borderline personality disorder. She is not diagnosed by I am a...
    SilianRail SilianRail 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 25

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    My mom used to bully me, she used to hit me and call me fat. She made me do things that a child shouldn't have done.
    jimijmay jimijmay 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 27

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    I am a mere shadow of the person I used to be. I was always smiling, without even trying. My happiness and confidence shone out of me. Then I got married. Ignoring all the bad...
    rainydays88 rainydays88 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 27