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I Abused Pills

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    I was really depressed

    and sad that day. When I got home I took 10 pills, I don't know what I was trying to accomplish I just knew I was tired of life. Anyway a couple hours after I took the the pills I was really scared I was going to die. They were sleeping pills so I was scared to go to sleep...
    LikeAPrayer LikeAPrayer 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    OMG Always

    Known for it... my cure all for life I guess. No I'm not out buying them on the black market but the thought of heading to Mexico does appeal to me. I just self medicate when need be. When I'm up all is well and no need... well unless I'm too up and uphoric and then take a small...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 1 Response Dec 2, 2008

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    I Used To

    ok i will admit this. i used to be addicted to sleeping pills. It started after i got kicked out of high school. I had real trouble sleeping back then. i would stay up fro over a day and sleep half a day. i would stay up all night walking around town then sleep when the day came...
    CaptainJackass CaptainJackass 22-25, M 4 Responses Dec 1, 2010

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    beautifuldisaster0 beautifuldisaster0 26-30, F Dec 30, 2013

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    Everthin

    ive abused pills of all sorts bout everythin u could think off painkillers anti-inflammatories sleeepin tablets anti psychotics blood pressure tablets ant acid tablets everthin u could think of i have abused and i aint gonna stop cause it keeps me alive and saves me...
    ccdo ccdo 22-25, F Nov 18, 2009

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    Last night I felt hopeless I took it without

    thinking My body went numb And I continued I felt heavy... I cried endlessly I laid on my bed And swallowed the last in the container Listening to music I felt paralyzed I couldn't move The pain was gone More tears ran down my cheek I smiled Then my phone ringed I...
    kpoppanda124 kpoppanda124 16-17, F Jul 1

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    I Still Do...

    abuse pills. It numbs the pain of having to live life. It makes me forget whats going on. It helps me shut my mind off otherwise I won't sleep for days because I have so many things eating away at me. You can call me what you'd like but this is how I deal. People always say do...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 31, 2011

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    I Still Kind Of Do....

    I take over the counter sleeping pills, as if they are candy or something like that, or at least that is what I have been told. Since I don't have any health insurance, I have to relay on over-the-counter pills, to help me sleep, and because I have to do that, it takes more than...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 10, 2010

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    Once, Never Again

    I'll admit to doing it once, when very low. Luckily didn't take enough to be sick, just a good sleep. I'll never do it again, I count my lucky stars.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Feb 4, 2012

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    Far, Far Away......

    I have abused these and more...I really like the feeling I get with painkillers. But, I tend to get hooked on them really quickly...I find myself taking doses more frequently, and when they're gone, the crash is horrid!!!  I need to stay far, far away from all painkillers...
    lonesurvivor lonesurvivor 51-55, F 3 Responses Nov 3, 2009

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    Used Them Until Near Death

    Two years ago I swallowed about 20 depression pills. I almost died from an overdose because of this. I've learned a lot from that mistake. Never again will I abuse pills like I did. It is so dangerous and I really didn't think at all when I took them. It feels good when you take...
    iloveedward iloveedward 18-21, F Nov 2, 2009

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    I'm Addicted!

    Yes, i've abused pills since i was 13. On and off until 2 years ago that it got so out of control> i was taking more than 12 pills a day < 2 bottles wouldn't last a week. So 15+ months ago i kicked it! i'm in recovery now and i know for a fact that if i start to take...
    andreinac13 andreinac13 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 6, 2008

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    Not Anymore Though!

    Although I would if I could (as sad as that is)... It's just not within my means right now.  I live in a new state and wouldn't even know where to begin.  They were so readily available to me where I was from.  Everything... OC's (80's), Loratabs, Xany's, percs...
    BlueWhaleMeatMcFacer BlueWhaleMeatMcFacer 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 4, 2008

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    Every Night

    I would take on average anywhere from 5-10 tylenols along with a few sleeping pills. This all started when I was 12 until I was about 16. My Mom kept all the pills in her bedroom above her bed. I would go in randomly complaining of a headache or sick stomach. She would usually...
    Aleighsha Aleighsha 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 8, 2010

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    Back To Square Zero

    This is going to sound stupid maybe, but I got so upset that I couldn't go to the fireworks show here. I love fireworks. It was too far though and I would have felt silly being all alone. I got more and more depressed and started crying. I took two Benadryl, a Klonopin, two...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jul 5, 2011

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    Tyanol Was My Best Friend

    Living with my mother I had a dependency on sleeping pills and tyanol 3's, They numbed all the pain away. But with this dependancy I became ill..all I can say now is that I steer clear of tyanol.
    Canadianpunchingbag Canadianpunchingbag 18-21, F Sep 27, 2008

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    Still Do Sometimes

    I like taking a bit more klonopin than what is prescribed to me because I just need something to chill me out. I get so anxious. Only bad thing is- it chills me out but I get so tired and I knock out.  Years before, I used to abuse painkillers. I would take at least a...
    nitid nitid 16-17, F Dec 1, 2010

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    Long Time Ago!!!!

    I was 16 when all this started..... me and my friends started taking 'relaxin' pills. these pills would relax all the muscels in the body and bring us in a new zone...we used to take 1 pill a day in the start and eventualy we took it as a candy without water..... we used to bear...
    Pseudo69 Pseudo69 26-30, M 1 Response Sep 20, 2013

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    Because I Am a Self Destructive Eejit

    I have abused pills for a variety of reasons from bulimia to suicide attempts from being very impatient and deciding to keep eating painkillers until the pain stopped rather than giving them time to work.  So the moral of this story - Don't, it is not big and it is not...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 7, 2009

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    I Did

    A long time ago... When I was in one of my experimenting phases... One of the stupidest things I have done... I have od'd more then ten times because of pills... But I never stop... Because well I was an idiot... I stop abusing pills when I was 14 because I thought I found better...
    XLunaXLovegoodX XLunaXLovegoodX 22-25, F Jul 17, 2008

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    Oh Yes.. A Lot

    Aqutic, Percaset, oxycodone serequill, all Years ago. The worse was probablyy when my best friend had saved up all of her medication, for a few months... we both just downed probably over 60 each...
    xScreamOfTheButterflyx xScreamOfTheButterflyx 22-25, F 6 Responses Nov 2, 2009

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    Maybe a Lifetime Ago

    I used to abuse pills almost every day.  I have been sober for a year and I just got off probation.  Already people want me to do them again.  The high i got from pills was unreal and that is always in the back of my mind.  I don't want to use pills again even...
    Locogirrl Locogirrl 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 9, 2009

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    To Sleep

    I guess I was getting a bit desperate. I didn't sleep well, on most of the nights not at all, and I still had to study as hard as possible five days a week. I wonder if I had gotten an actual sleeping medication if I asked for it? Maybe, maybe not. I live in a small town, where...
    Fearofsilence Fearofsilence 18-21, F Aug 11, 2010

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    Related Experiences

    This is a poem/rap that I wrote tonight because I've been struggling a lot with PTSD and people not understanding. Just a disclaimer, the police do know about what happened, and it...
    justtryingtosurvive justtryingtosurvive 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 17

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    My therapist told me to take these pills that make me happy and I really don't like it I really hate it I just want to be happy on my own an with out pills
    katie4399 katie4399 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    My body has become a symbol for who I am. I'm so small showing my deepest desire to slip away into nothingness. I have cut my arms to mar the skin as if to be a constant reminder...
    PoetGirl97 PoetGirl97 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 8

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    I've been acting like everything is just fine. I gloss over my problems like I can handle them, but I can't. I've been in Minnesota since September and have been high almost every...
    WiredCritter WiredCritter 22-25 Jul 12

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    Ill just stay up for days and days at a time, after 4 or 5 days u start feeling lightheaded and weird. That's when I hav to take a lot of sleeping pills
    burnout77 burnout77 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 14

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    How big are these pills? I have trouble swallowing them so I wanna make sure it's not to big
    Diamond1029 Diamond1029 16-17, F 18 hrs ago

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    How big are these pills ? Help
    Diamond1029 Diamond1029 16-17, F 18 hrs ago

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    I want to make sure they're small pills. How big are they?
    Diamond1029 Diamond1029 16-17, F 18 hrs ago

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    I'm trying to get a conviction against a man who sexually abused me.
    claireoblast claireoblast 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 2

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    I was sexually abused at around the age of 9 by my brother it was repeated till the age of 12. At the age of 14 i found this was wrong and told my pastoral manager at school who...
    RandomSomeone RandomSomeone 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 2

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    I was about 6 when my older step brother who is about 7 years older than me, sexually abused me. I've tried so hard to block it out, thankfully I only have a short memory of it. It...
    nzm87 nzm87 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 6

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    I was abused by my mother... For so long while growing up while I was younger hit me for what seem for no reason! If I didn't do as she asked quickly as she wanted she'd hit or...
    shexlove shexlove 22-25, F Jul 7

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    I was emotionally abused by my mother all of my life. The abuse started as i was 9 and continued till last year. As i lived with my parents in my mother country i was hurt every...
    angel8i angel8i 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 8

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    well...I wasn't an abused child...lol but my mom kicked my *** throughout child hood because i deserved it being a little punk in my day hahah just saying
    jonnygoode74 jonnygoode74 36-40, M Jul 10

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    i binge eat. i starve. i slide razors on my skin. i go hungry for days. i cry till my face tingles so vigorously it goes numb. i stick with people who can break my heart. i go...
    meowshelbs meowshelbs 16-17, F Jul 11

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    I'm not sure if I was sexually abused. When I was 14, a much older man in his late 40's took an interest in me and my being naive and fatherless decided I liked the attention. He...
    danielle1423 danielle1423 22-25, F 5 Responses Jul 11

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    As a child my father was on drugs, amd my mother 'took care' of my brother and I. Its a complicated situation as I was the only one physically abused. I was picked up by the hair...
    tangibleorca tangibleorca 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 11

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    I'm pretty sure all my emotional problems stem from the fact that I was sexually abused
    Es777 Es777 26-30, M Jul 13

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    My mother was never physically abusive, but she certainly emotionally abused and neglected us. If I would write down everything that she did, then I would have one unbelievable...
    LostMittens LostMittens 31-35, F Jul 14

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    I can't get over the things I've experienced or the fact my mom doesn't believe me till this day. She doesn't know the whole story though, no ones know. I can't come out with it...
    RebeccaReynolds RebeccaReynolds 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 14

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    It's more than just mentally abused but the physical pain has healed faster than the mental, My entire life I was a punching bag for my brother, all of my friends and sometimes...
    LunaValentine LunaValentine 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 15

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    I lost everything because of someone who should have protected me. My mind is so screwed up and I don't know how to cope with it anymore. I lost my childhood, my family, my sanity...
    Ren10 Ren10 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    While I was growing up I was abused daily by my oldest brother. He would beat me repeatedly. He blacked my eye on more than one occasion. There was nothing I could do about it. My...
    nephthysbaby nephthysbaby 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 16

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    My name is Angel. I'm 13 now. I have experienced emotional abused since i was 4 or 5 i don't know. Its started with my friends at school. we are so happy together. then a new girl...
    CharlieA6654 CharlieA6654 13-15 1 Response Jul 16

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    I'm a 24 years old female. I was sexually abused by my biological father for 10 years or so. He came onto me at night. I thought every girl had to go through it. Realized I was a...
    cloudish cloudish 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 16

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    About 3 years ago I was drugged, raped and sexually abused..I was in a bar and 3 guys came and put a knife to my back...that is all I am gonna say cause..ya it's still very vivid...
    CosplayGirl321 CosplayGirl321 22-25, F 5 Responses Jul 17

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    I was 11 years old when it first started and it went on into my late teen years, I did tell at one time may my mom & grandmother rest in peace they said he would never do that but...
    sunnyday55 sunnyday55 46-50, F 4 Responses Jul 18