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I Abused Pills

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    I was really depressed

    and sad that day. When I got home I took 10 pills, I don't know what I was trying to accomplish I just knew I was tired of life. Anyway a couple hours after I took the the pills I was really scared I was going to die. They were sleeping pills so I was scared to go to sleep...
    LikeAPrayer LikeAPrayer 18-21, F Jul 29

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    I Still Do...

    abuse pills. It numbs the pain of having to live life. It makes me forget whats going on. It helps me shut my mind off otherwise I won't sleep for days because I have so many things eating away at me. You can call me what you'd like but this is how I deal. People always say do...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 31, 2011

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    I Used To

    ok i will admit this. i used to be addicted to sleeping pills. It started after i got kicked out of high school. I had real trouble sleeping back then. i would stay up fro over a day and sleep half a day. i would stay up all night walking around town then sleep when the day came...
    CaptainJackass CaptainJackass 22-25, M 4 Responses Dec 1, 2010

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    I'm Addicted!

    Yes, i've abused pills since i was 13. On and off until 2 years ago that it got so out of control> i was taking more than 12 pills a day < 2 bottles wouldn't last a week. So 15+ months ago i kicked it! i'm in recovery now and i know for a fact that if i start to take...
    andreinac13 andreinac13 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 6, 2008

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    Used Them Until Near Death

    Two years ago I swallowed about 20 depression pills. I almost died from an overdose because of this. I've learned a lot from that mistake. Never again will I abuse pills like I did. It is so dangerous and I really didn't think at all when I took them. It feels good when you take...
    iloveedward iloveedward 18-21, F Nov 2, 2009

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    Still Do Sometimes

    I like taking a bit more klonopin than what is prescribed to me because I just need something to chill me out. I get so anxious. Only bad thing is- it chills me out but I get so tired and I knock out.  Years before, I used to abuse painkillers. I would take at least a...
    nitid nitid 16-17, F Dec 1, 2010

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    Everthin

    ive abused pills of all sorts bout everythin u could think off painkillers anti-inflammatories sleeepin tablets anti psychotics blood pressure tablets ant acid tablets everthin u could think of i have abused and i aint gonna stop cause it keeps me alive and saves me...
    ccdo ccdo 22-25, F Nov 18, 2009

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    Long Time Ago!!!!

    I was 16 when all this started..... me and my friends started taking 'relaxin' pills. these pills would relax all the muscels in the body and bring us in a new zone...we used to take 1 pill a day in the start and eventualy we took it as a candy without water..... we used to bear...
    Pseudo69 Pseudo69 26-30, M 1 Response Sep 20, 2013

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    OMG Always

    Known for it... my cure all for life I guess. No I'm not out buying them on the black market but the thought of heading to Mexico does appeal to me. I just self medicate when need be. When I'm up all is well and no need... well unless I'm too up and uphoric and then take a small...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 1 Response Dec 2, 2008

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    Last night I felt hopeless I took it without

    thinking My body went numb And I continued I felt heavy... I cried endlessly I laid on my bed And swallowed the last in the container Listening to music I felt paralyzed I couldn't move The pain was gone More tears ran down my cheek I smiled Then my phone ringed I...
    kpoppanda124 kpoppanda124 16-17, F Jul 1

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    Maybe a Lifetime Ago

    I used to abuse pills almost every day.  I have been sober for a year and I just got off probation.  Already people want me to do them again.  The high i got from pills was unreal and that is always in the back of my mind.  I don't want to use pills again even...
    Locogirrl Locogirrl 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 9, 2009

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    Once, Never Again

    I'll admit to doing it once, when very low. Luckily didn't take enough to be sick, just a good sleep. I'll never do it again, I count my lucky stars.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Feb 4, 2012

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    Not Anymore Though!

    Although I would if I could (as sad as that is)... It's just not within my means right now.  I live in a new state and wouldn't even know where to begin.  They were so readily available to me where I was from.  Everything... OC's (80's), Loratabs, Xany's, percs...
    BlueWhaleMeatMcFacer BlueWhaleMeatMcFacer 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 4, 2008

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    Oh Yes.. A Lot

    Aqutic, Percaset, oxycodone serequill, all Years ago. The worse was probablyy when my best friend had saved up all of her medication, for a few months... we both just downed probably over 60 each...
    xScreamOfTheButterflyx xScreamOfTheButterflyx 22-25, F 9 Responses Nov 2, 2009

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    Far, Far Away......

    I have abused these and more...I really like the feeling I get with painkillers. But, I tend to get hooked on them really quickly...I find myself taking doses more frequently, and when they're gone, the crash is horrid!!!  I need to stay far, far away from all painkillers...
    lonesurvivor lonesurvivor 51-55, F 3 Responses Nov 3, 2009

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    Because I Am a Self Destructive Eejit

    I have abused pills for a variety of reasons from bulimia to suicide attempts from being very impatient and deciding to keep eating painkillers until the pain stopped rather than giving them time to work.  So the moral of this story - Don't, it is not big and it is not...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 7, 2009

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    Tyanol Was My Best Friend

    Living with my mother I had a dependency on sleeping pills and tyanol 3's, They numbed all the pain away. But with this dependancy I became ill..all I can say now is that I steer clear of tyanol.
    Canadianpunchingbag Canadianpunchingbag 18-21, F Sep 27, 2008

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    I Did

    A long time ago... When I was in one of my experimenting phases... One of the stupidest things I have done... I have od'd more then ten times because of pills... But I never stop... Because well I was an idiot... I stop abusing pills when I was 14 because I thought I found better...
    XLunaXLovegoodX XLunaXLovegoodX 22-25, F Jul 17, 2008

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    Back To Square Zero

    This is going to sound stupid maybe, but I got so upset that I couldn't go to the fireworks show here. I love fireworks. It was too far though and I would have felt silly being all alone. I got more and more depressed and started crying. I took two Benadryl, a Klonopin, two...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jul 5, 2011

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    beautifuldisaster0 beautifuldisaster0 26-30, F Dec 30, 2013

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    To Sleep

    I guess I was getting a bit desperate. I didn't sleep well, on most of the nights not at all, and I still had to study as hard as possible five days a week. I wonder if I had gotten an actual sleeping medication if I asked for it? Maybe, maybe not. I live in a small town, where...
    Fearofsilence Fearofsilence 18-21, F Aug 11, 2010

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    Every Night

    I would take on average anywhere from 5-10 tylenols along with a few sleeping pills. This all started when I was 12 until I was about 16. My Mom kept all the pills in her bedroom above her bed. I would go in randomly complaining of a headache or sick stomach. She would usually...
    Aleighsha Aleighsha 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 8, 2010

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    I Still Kind Of Do....

    I take over the counter sleeping pills, as if they are candy or something like that, or at least that is what I have been told. Since I don't have any health insurance, I have to relay on over-the-counter pills, to help me sleep, and because I have to do that, it takes more than...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 10, 2010

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    I don't have any children of my own but I can not imagine being able to abuse my own flesh and blood. I was never abused as a child by my parents but I was sexually molested by...
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    I'm actually still being abused. Yes, physically. By my brothers. When I tell people they say "every sibling PICKS on the other. It's normal" the thing that no one notices is it...
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    I don't know how people do it. Do you swallow food whole? No you don't. So why can't pills by chewable. I can't swallow anything bigger than about the size of an ant. I know it...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 70+, F Oct 15

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    I've been I use to be addicted to pills. Xanax. Perks. You name it I've probably done it. But i started to realize I wasn't me anymore. And I didn't care much for the person I had...
    LostGirl1029 LostGirl1029 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I'm 16 in the US can I get diet pills on my own?? Just curious.
    Dream0fParadise Dream0fParadise 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    I was mentally abused, not physically. My life is controlled and thanks to that problem, I can't fit in with society. I try to do "normal things" but I can't do it because I get...
    BlackBloodDemon BlackBloodDemon 13-15, M Oct 1

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    I believe I am being abused.. People told me I was since I got into the relationship and until now I brushed them off but he's abusive mentally mad physically.... I wish I has some...
    thugbean26 thugbean26 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 7

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    I was abused repeatedly by 2 brothers who lived next door to me
    billyjoe66 billyjoe66 16-17, M Oct 7

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    I was sexually abused by my biological mother when I was 5 years old. She also took me to her "close friends", and her friends raped me. They were also abusive in other ways. I...
    Saram13 Saram13 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 7

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    My boyfriend emotionally abused me for 2 years...I thought he was just moody and it was my fault for not being able to make him happy. I broke up with him a few weeks ago. I didn't...
    Indeciciveme Indeciciveme 16-17, F Oct 10

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    Ok so it's taken me a very long time to realise and stop defending him. I still love him, I still want to be with him and I know everything he did to me but it's starting to sink...
    Kerry1304 Kerry1304 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 14

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    I was sexually,physically,and verbally abused for three years from 9-12
    AnasFailure AnasFailure 13-15, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    My mother abused me: During most of my childhood my mother didn't even really spank me or anything. However, once I hit my teens she started to become physically and verbally...
    asariblue asariblue 26-30, F 3 days ago

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    as a man now aged 31 I never thought I could admit that my older sister abused me when I was around 5yrs old she would have been 16. I can barely look at her now but glad this...
    gamer3613 gamer3613 31-35, M 2 days ago

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    I was sexually abused by my aunt and grand mother. They convinced me that they were teaching me the ways of women. I was sixteen and seventeen and didn't realize that my...
    JeanColby JeanColby 18-21, F 1 Response 23 hrs ago

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    I can handle most of it. I can handle the flashbacks and not being able to smell cigarette smoke or see certain cars or having to leave certain situations but I'm getting really...
    musikachick musikachick 16-17, F 16 hrs ago

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    I have been taken against my will twice. I try not to let it define who I am or to let it dominate how I live. Most days are good though there are some rough spots - but that's...
    JennyPin JennyPin 18-21, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    Early today and also yesterday as well she would wouldn't saying how much she loves me and bla bla bla and looking at me with such fake love. I don't want to fall for this all over...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 70+, F 4 hrs ago

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    I just started taking Zantrex 3 Fat Burner in the red bottle today and it really curbs my appetite and makes me have extra energy. So far I haven't had any side effects and was...
    fallout07 fallout07 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 28

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    I am dizzy, I can barely breath, and I cant move.
    shortfry3 shortfry3 13-15, F Sep 29

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    I can't forget what he's done to me physically or what he's said verbally. The words he said....that's where the real scars are found when you look into my eyes...that is if I can...
    lonewolf2323 lonewolf2323 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 24

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    There is a reflection of pain in her eyes, as she fights back tears. Trying to figure out why she has put up with it all of these years. Innocence gone. Just taken away. Struggling...
    Cpaz33 Cpaz33 26-30, F 4 Responses Sep 24

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    After my mom died, it was just me and my father living together. We've never gotten along. He's bipolar and always takes out his anger on me. He says I'm a loser, I'm worthless, a...
    PFowler PFowler 16-17, M 2 Responses Sep 24

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    I need to talk. I can't stop thinking about it. I've tried talking to people here but only a couple have responded. I'm not comfortable talking to guys, I know it's stupid seeing...
    dontknowmylife dontknowmylife 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 25

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    I lay in my bed this morning thinking about it all. Every last little detail of what happened. Then I realized I was thinking about it.. and I started to think about why I was...
    bubblefishkiss bubblefishkiss 26-30, F Sep 25