I Act Tough, But I Really Just Want To Be Taken Care Of

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    Deep down, I act really strong

    and happy all the time and I hide my feelings from people but in reality I'm pretty depressed and want to be with someone in this lonely world.
    theultimatesashacourtney theultimatesashacourtney
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 26, 2014

    I wish, there was someone to ask me how I feel,

    what're my favourites, and stuffs. I want someone to take care of me :) I want someone to accept me as I am. :)
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses May 17, 2015

    I'm just laying here with my wet hair like

    if only I had someone who loved me enough to brush and blow dry my hair...but I'm a b**** so that won't be a reality any time soon.
    Alylovespuppies Alylovespuppies
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 6, 2015

    I have been through things,

    only god knows how much they hurt and how much they're terrible. And nobody cares.
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Dec 26, 2014

    I can be a tough cookie

    but like to be taken care of too...
    easynuh easynuh
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Dec 26, 2014

    The Truth.

    I like to present to the world a face that tells them that I don't need anyone. Ever. That I am in control and can take care of everything myself. That I don't want or need their help. That I am intelligent and strong and thats more important than connecting with anyone.  Truth...
    deleted deleted
    May 5, 2011

    I act like I don't care

    and I can handle anything but I actually break down a lot
    alyssabay alyssabay
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Sep 26, 2014

    I usually sit in class

    and never say a word to anyone. I dress kinda tough, grunge/punk sorta. I'll act tough if I need to, but really I just want a hug. I'd rather stay at home and cuddle with someone that anything else. I read a lot and listen to music and wrote poems, I'm not actually tough at all...
    TheAmityAffliction TheAmityAffliction
    18-21, M
    4 Responses Oct 18, 2014

    I don't know.....,.,.

    ,.,,.,.. **II*IWJJWJJWJWWJWJj
    TruePeace33 TruePeace33
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Dec 24, 2013

    I Act Tough But..

    I'd probably never admit this to anyone. But it's true. Sometimes I wonder if happiness comes with selfishness. I just cant bring myself to be that way. I have my responsibilities and I have to stick with em.
    LennonLover LennonLover
    26-30, F
    Feb 25, 2013

    That's actually so true,

    because I think nobody really cares about me and it hurts me. A lot. Even when some peoples know about me and how I'm feeling and how I tried t kill myself and they never stopped me :( I need someone t care really.
    imjustmex33 imjustmex33
    18-21, F
    Dec 26, 2014

    I'm there for others,

    but even still, don't I need someone there to take care of me in my darkest hours? I'm weak, just like everyone else is in some way, form, or fashion. Nevertheless, I'm strong enough to help others, yet often before I can help myself.
    shiranai97 shiranai97
    18-21, M
    Jun 15, 2015

    life is clearly never meant to be easy.

    growing up, being constantly told to share everything you come to expect everyone to do the same, but when the authority that instilled this moral into you gets corrupted, what do you do? it may be a small thing like a piece of cake or it could be something much more than that...
    shvg shvg
    22-25, F
    May 22, 2015

    White Horse

    This is a little difficult for me to reveal here, because it's something I have kept inside for a VERY long time. As a result of my childhood, I am closed-off and highly guarded. I grew up in a rural area, poor, and without my parents- my father was an alcoholic and didn't live...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Apr 23, 2013

    It's been a long day,

    lots of laundry folded and put away drawers and closets organized shoe shelves dusted and arranged, bedrooms cleaned... Children cared for... And this was my day off lol.... Then I was just laying on the couch my body tired and achy, it's cold I'm wrapped in my blanket & not to...
    TristeMuneca87 TristeMuneca87
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Apr 3, 2016

    I try to act like my life is just fine.

    But really, I just want a friend because almost every friend I have in my town judges me or think I'm a kid.......I have a lot of adult friends
    metalchick18 metalchick18
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 30, 2014

    I act like this girl

    that can't be hurt or never gets upset, but I actually sit there at night wanting to cry but just can't bring my self to it, please anyone want to talk?
    LittleLion13 LittleLion13
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Sep 25, 2014

    I'm just so tired of fending

    for myself its exhausting and it leaves me no room for being able to see how to handle other people when they need help and idk its weird
    jacithepanda jacithepanda
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jul 19, 2014

    Like you're carrying the world atop your

    shoulders. That's how I always felt, with friends, family, work. I somehow always blame myself when something goes wrong. I act all motherly around my friends. I would be overly protective at times. Even with the family, I tend to act all like a tough guy. "Mess with me or my...
    lonelydinosaur lonelydinosaur
    26-30, F
    Sep 27, 2014

    Everytime I smile, I laugh,

    but inside me, sometimes, there is pain and sadness. I lie to people, I act tough, act like nothing happen.. But I wish there will be someone that can see through me, see through my fake expression, my fake smile and laugh and realize that I am not okay. I wish that person can...
    TulipsLover TulipsLover
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Jan 29, 2014

    Sometimes I shut out the world

    but I really want someone to just carry me away from the darkness.
    Amethyst09 Amethyst09
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 19, 2015

    Doesn't everyone deep down lol?

    And oh, I am tough, but doesn't change what the heart wants.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Dec 26, 2014

    Go to school and know everyone,

    even higher grades. Mess around with students, hang out with the principle! Mess with teachers, and have fun. Look strong and confident, a role model. People go to you for advice, help, protection. Anything. Your trusted. Yet the minute all heads are turned, no one's around, no...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Mar 29, 2014
    adianoeta adianoeta
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Feb 8, 2015

    Don't get me wrong, I'm not a complete softy.

    I can kick your *** so far, you'll end up in the next century if I want. But I act tough *all the time*, when I really just want someone to just hold me and make me at least their third priority...
    DementedKarkat DementedKarkat
    16-17, T
    May 17, 2015

    People think I'm stubborn now… Because I've

    made so many mistakes trusting people who hurt me and letting the wrong people in, so now I have walls upon walls up that I can't seem to break down… I have a boyfriend and I know he loves me but I still feel alone sometimes because I don't let him all the way in… And I...
    brokenandbi brokenandbi
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 20, 2015

    I love these kind of girl.

    I then feel like I can give you your space, and not feel like I am neglecting you. That allows me time to prepare surprises, be thoughtful, keep on top of my entrepreneurships, stay social so that you know I am still cool. I am a Christian Pisces***
    26-30, M
    Dec 12, 2015

    Do you know, what it's like to be punished

    for being soft? Don't cry or else you'll stand there for another two hours. Don't give me an explanation, don't you dare try to defend your actions, or I'll hit you to shut you up. Talking about your problems? Shut up. I don't want to hear. You deserved it. You were wrong. Don't...
    Fuzzies Fuzzies
    61-65, M
    1 Response Dec 11, 2015

    I have always been the one to work,

    the mom, the strong one. I wish someone could come along and want to take care of me.
    MommaHD MommaHD
    46-50, F
    1 Response May 17, 2015

    Around people I act as

    if nothing bothers me and act basically like a badass. But really I am hurting constantly because the person I wanted to be with didn't see me in the same way.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Dec 12, 2015

    Sort of crazy.. I'm sitting here,

    tired but not sleepy, scrolling through EP experiences, and I see this one. And I almost hit the 'me too' button, then I don't; I honestly don't know if this describes me perfectly or not at all.
    thatonewoman thatonewoman
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jan 19, 2015

    I let people walk on me

    and act like it doesn't bother me. But it does. It really hurts. I say im fine when im not and I am always making sure everyone else is fine. I just want someone to make sure I'm fine.
    ialwaysregret ialwaysregret
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Apr 20, 2015

    i guess im more bitchy ,

    not by choice but because everything ive been put through,my innocence was taken when he lied,and cheated on me.im tougher mentally but all i want is for him to love me like today was my last day on earth....
    cynR1993 cynR1993
    22-25, F
    Jan 19, 2015

    I always act as if I am matured enough to stand

    by my own... I always act as if having God as my only company is enough... but in the end of the day, I just can't deny the fact that it's kinda lonely to be a lonely... I only see my mom ones a week, it is sometimes impossible to talk with my brother and sister, I often have...
    hummingtree hummingtree
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 26, 2014

    Almost all of my friends are convinced

    that I'm okay and that I'm happy with everything in my life. It's really hard for me to look into my best friend's eyes and confess everything because it would feel like I'm trying to compare my life to hers. My best friend has nothing... she lost her mom last year and also her...
    theultimatesashacourtney theultimatesashacourtney
    18-21, F
    Mar 8, 2015

    Like today, I am kicking myself in the ***

    for not picking up my moms call last night. I am feeling really sick today (going on 6 weeks and nothing is helping) maybe if I'd told my mom I wasn't feeling good she'd have made me some soup today lol. But then I realize who the hell am I kidding my mother has not one motherly...
    TristeMuneca87 TristeMuneca87
    26-30, F
    Feb 20, 2016

    Would Be Nice....

    I’m tired of being the strong one, just once I want to give in, I want to be held when I’m hurting, I want to be able to sink into someone’s strong arms, be protected, comforted, loved but I find it hard to give in to my pain when others are around… I shrug off my...
    lostlittlefirefly lostlittlefirefly
    41-45, F
    1 Response May 21, 2012

    So the lab results came back,

    it's positive. Called my doctor and left her a voicemail I need to now schedule a slew of imaging appointments as well as a neuro consult I need to find a neurologist with a sub specialty on Endo It's gonna be a rocky year and EP won't be around for me to whine and post my...
    TristeMuneca87 TristeMuneca87
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Mar 24, 2016

    I'm a ***** to everybody

    so nobody cares enough to ask what's wrong because if they really knew what was wrong they'd think I was broken
    HyacinthMay HyacinthMay
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jan 13, 2016
    lexinwonderland lexinwonderland
    18-21, F
    Dec 26, 2014

    I know that pain all too well.

    I had that person for 7 years of marriage, sadly, she passed away July 30th, 2013. She knew exactly when to lay her head on my chest, listing to my breathing, and be able to tell me "Everything will be alright, it will work out for the best, and you will be stronger in the end...
    mrniceguy1979 mrniceguy1979
    36-40, M
    1 Response Jun 28, 2014
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