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I Act Tough, But I Really Just Want To Be Taken Care Of

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    Not An Act... But...

    It is no act... I am tough most of the time. Not to pull off some image, mind you, I could give a crap about that! But, because I HAD TO BE, for most of my life. My life haven't been easy at all. My oldest brother was the man of the family, a decent and honest man, that he is...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 27, 2009

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    I'm just so tired of fending

    for myself its exhausting and it leaves me no room for being able to see how to handle other people when they need help and idk its weird
    jacithepanda jacithepanda 13-15, F Jul 19

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    Broken

    I've always been proud of my independence and my indifference to the rest of the world. As I've grown older, I realize how much I alienate myself from others. It's a safe place where I am in control. Other people can't hurt or reject me.  It's also a very lonely place. It...
    musingsofaseveredviolet musingsofaseveredviolet 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 7, 2009

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    8th grade. Queen of the middle school.

    Not on top, but everyone knows her. High fives down the hall, hugs the younger kids. Does what she wants. The trend setter. The spunky one with the short hair. Lesbihonest. Went through hell but got through. Has scars, tells stories. Confident, different, cool. But no. Home...
    Boo37 Boo37 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 23

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    I always act like I can do something on my own

    and even frequently I act like i can stay up by myself doing nothing. But the truth is I want someone to tell me not to do it and tell me why it is bad for me. i want someone to tell me that they care too much to let me do that. I want to be cared for.
    Raptax231 Raptax231 18-21, M Sep 25

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    I try to act like my life is just fine.

    But really, I just want a friend because almost every friend I have in my town judges me or think I'm a kid.......I have a lot of adult friends
    metalchick18 metalchick18 18-21, F Oct 30

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    Go to school and know everyone,

    even higher grades. Mess around with students, hang out with the principle! Mess with teachers, and have fun. Look strong and confident, a role model. People go to you for advice, help, protection. Anything. Your trusted. Yet the minute all heads are turned, no one's around, no...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 29

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    Out Side Butch Inside Baby Girl.

    Ok if you met me you would think that I'm a bit of a butch. I don't wear dresses or skirts, I don't wear make up, I don't cry and I don't seem like I need protecting. This is not the real me. The real me is kinda protective of who she cares for yes but is also scared of losing...
    teenkitten13 teenkitten13 13-15, F May 29, 2011

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    I Act Tough But..

    I'd probably never admit this to anyone. But it's true. Sometimes I wonder if happiness comes with selfishness. I just cant bring myself to be that way. I have my responsibilities and I have to stick with em.
    LennonLover LennonLover 22-25, F Feb 25, 2013

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    Well Kinda...

    I AM tough, and I am also fiercly independent, and pretty low maintenance, so to admit this is even foreign to me.  I have to admit though, sometimes I don't want to be tough.  I don't want to have to face the world and I want nothing more than to lay in bed and be held...
    BlasphemousAngel BlasphemousAngel 31-35, M Jan 9, 2010

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    Even Just A Rest Would Be Nice.

    But not have my independence totally erased. It's not even that I "act" tough, I have to be tough.. I have to be strong for everyone and for once I would just like to be taken care of. I have to take care of everything from making sure everyone is fed to making sure the bills are...
    CuteInChaos CuteInChaos 18-21, F Jun 2, 2011

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    Tough, Cold, Heartless...

    This is embarrassing for me to admit, but I guess I can't deny the fact that it's true. I can be cruel sometimes. Miss Heartless, Miss Tough Cookie, Miss I Don't Give A F***, whatever but deep down inside... Well, yeah. You all get the idea.
    deadmoon deadmoon 18-21, F 4 Responses May 30, 2011

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    Like you're carrying the world atop your

    shoulders. That's how I always felt, with friends, family, work. I somehow always blame myself when something goes wrong. I act all motherly around my friends. I would be overly protective at times. Even with the family, I tend to act all like a tough guy. "Mess with me or my...
    lonelydinosaur lonelydinosaur 26-30, F Sep 27

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    Yes....

    I act like I am tough, I act like I  can handle everything that is being thrown my way. I act like I have it all togehter, and like I will be fine, but really, I want someone to look past the words coming out of my mouth, and look into my eyes, and see that it is all a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 7, 2009

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    White Horse

    This is a little difficult for me to reveal here, because it's something I have kept inside for a VERY long time. As a result of my childhood, I am closed-off and highly guarded. I grew up in a rural area, poor, and without my parents- my father was an alcoholic and didn't live...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 23, 2013

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    Sometimes, I act tough.

    Usually, I am kind.
    4EverBlissful 4EverBlissful 26-30, F Jun 24

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    I Act Though, But I Really Just Want To Be Taken Care Of.

    I'll admit. I mean who doesnt want to be taken off once in a while. Im not saying I want to be dependent one someone but having a break once in a while is like the best vacation ever.
    applescruffs applescruffs 22-25, F Nov 26, 2009

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    layers.

    Tough like the boys on the outside but very fragile on the inside. Constantly broken, never put back together. I wish to find the person that can help take care of me. I hate to admit that I desperately need to have someone look after me. I want to take care of someone but I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Dec 11, 2012

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    Out Side Butch Inside Baby Girl.

    Ok if you met me you would think that I'm a bit of a butch. I don't wear dresses or skirts, I don't wear make up, I don't cry and I don't seem like I need protecting. This is not the real me. The real me is kinda protective of who she cares for yes but is also scared of losing...
    teenkitten13 teenkitten13 13-15, F 3 Responses May 29, 2011

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    Not Made Of Stone

    I am not made of stone. I have a heart. Or I did. Now it's just bits and pieces. Things crumbling around me it seems. First my Cody, killed in something so senseless. Then his family being toads, and leaving me to handle everything but not even considering that without their...
    Toby2day Toby2day 51-55, F 4 Responses Nov 29, 2009

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    I act like this girl

    that can't be hurt or never gets upset, but I actually sit there at night wanting to cry but just can't bring my self to it, please anyone want to talk?
    LittleLion13 LittleLion13 16-17, F 6 Responses Sep 25

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    The Truth.

    I like to present to the world a face that tells them that I don't need anyone. Ever. That I am in control and can take care of everything myself. That I don't want or need their help. That I am intelligent and strong and thats more important than connecting with anyone.  Truth...
    lastleafoffall lastleafoffall 26-30 1 Response May 5, 2011

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    I'm an independent woman

    and have been very fortunate to have the life I built on my own for my children and myself. I am single (but dating) and I just want to be taken care of. I'm approaching an age where I should be with someone who is successful and wants to and has the means to take care of me...
    IntomeYousee IntomeYousee 36-40, F Oct 30

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    I'm Not Sure

    I act tough all the time, emotionally and phsically but truth be told it really is an act. My mother said to me today that i have such a strong personality and that i didnt let anything get to me and that it amazed her how someone so young could be like that. I almost cried at...
    dancetoyourownmusic dancetoyourownmusic 13-15, F Mar 30, 2010

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    I don't know.....,.,.

    ,.,,.,.. **II*IWJJWJJWJWWJWJj
    TruePeace33 TruePeace33 13-15, M 2 Responses Dec 24, 2013

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    I know that pain all too well.

    I had that person for 7 years of marriage, sadly, she passed away July 30th, 2013. She knew exactly when to lay her head on my chest, listing to my breathing, and be able to tell me "Everything will be alright, it will work out for the best, and you will be stronger in the end...
    mrniceguy1979 mrniceguy1979 31-35, M 1 Response Jun 28

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    I usually sit in class

    and never say a word to anyone. I dress kinda tough, grunge/punk sorta. I'll act tough if I need to, but really I just want a hug. I'd rather stay at home and cuddle with someone that anything else. I read a lot and listen to music and wrote poems, I'm not actually tough at all...
    TheAmityAffliction TheAmityAffliction 16-17, M 3 Responses Oct 18

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    Would Be Nice....

    I’m tired of being the strong one, just once I want to give in, I want to be held when I’m hurting, I want to be able to sink into someone’s strong arms, be protected, comforted, loved but I find it hard to give in to my pain when others are around… I shrug off my...
    lostlittlefirefly lostlittlefirefly 36-40, F 1 Response May 21, 2012

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    I act like I don't care

    and I can handle anything but I actually break down a lot
    alyssabay alyssabay 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 26

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    Everytime I smile, I laugh,

    but inside me, sometimes, there is pain and sadness. I lie to people, I act tough, act like nothing happen.. But I wish there will be someone that can see through me, see through my fake expression, my fake smile and laugh and realize that I am not okay. I wish that person can...
    TulipsLover TulipsLover 18-21, F 8 Responses Jan 29

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    The Honest To Goodness Truth

    Its true, its true, I act so so tough when really and truly I am just so tired of having to be so strong and responsible for everything and anything for everybody else. Now yes, when someone first meets me i can come of as intimidating, because first and foremost i don't like...
    Venus5147 Venus5147 31-35, F May 30, 2011

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    *sigh*

    I do act like I am tough, I act like I  can handle everything that is being thrown my way. I act like I have it all togehter, and like I will be fine, but really, I want someone to look past the words coming out of my mouth, and look into my eyes, and see that it is...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 10, 2010

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