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I Act Tough, But I Really Just Want To Be Taken Care Of

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    Ive had to be tough my whole intire life Lets

    put it simple... My mom was a crack addict, dad alcoholic Mommy used to beat us Daddy used to stand back cry and just let it happen... i had to learn to look out for myself at a younger age so ive hardened my heart... that is until i met the love of my life... my husband Bert...
    AiymaSnikies AiymaSnikies 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 26, 2014

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    I have always been the one to work,

    the mom, the strong one. I wish someone could come along and want to take care of me.
    MommaHD MommaHD 41-45, F 1 Response May 17, 2015

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    The Truth.

    I like to present to the world a face that tells them that I don't need anyone. Ever. That I am in control and can take care of everything myself. That I don't want or need their help. That I am intelligent and strong and thats more important than connecting with anyone.  Truth...
    lastleafoffall lastleafoffall 26-30 May 5, 2011

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    I'm just laying here with my wet hair like

    if only I had someone who loved me enough to brush and blow dry my hair...but I'm a b**** so that won't be a reality any time soon.
    Alylovespuppies Alylovespuppies 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 6, 2015

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    I'm just so tired of fending

    for myself its exhausting and it leaves me no room for being able to see how to handle other people when they need help and idk its weird
    jacithepanda jacithepanda 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 19, 2014

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    I act like I don't care

    and I can handle anything but I actually break down a lot
    alyssabay alyssabay 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 26, 2014

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    lexinwonderland lexinwonderland 16-17, F Dec 26, 2014

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    I always act as if I am matured enough to stand

    by my own... I always act as if having God as my only company is enough... but in the end of the day, I just can't deny the fact that it's kinda lonely to be a lonely... I only see my mom ones a week, it is sometimes impossible to talk with my brother and sister, I often have...
    hummingtree hummingtree 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 26, 2014

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    I Act Tough But..

    I'd probably never admit this to anyone. But it's true. Sometimes I wonder if happiness comes with selfishness. I just cant bring myself to be that way. I have my responsibilities and I have to stick with em.
    LennonLover LennonLover 26-30, F Feb 25, 2013

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    I can be a tough cookie

    but like to be taken care of too...
    easynuh easynuh 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 26, 2014

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    I let people walk on me

    and act like it doesn't bother me. But it does. It really hurts. I say im fine when im not and I am always making sure everyone else is fine. I just want someone to make sure I'm fine.
    ialwaysregret ialwaysregret 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 20, 2015

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    I wish, there was someone to ask me how I feel,

    what're my favourites, and stuffs. I want someone to take care of me :) I want someone to accept me as I am. :)
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses May 17, 2015

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    I don't know.....,.,.

    ,.,,.,.. **II*IWJJWJJWJWWJWJj
    TruePeace33 TruePeace33 16-17, M 3 Responses Dec 24, 2013

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    Sort of crazy.. I'm sitting here,

    tired but not sleepy, scrolling through EP experiences, and I see this one. And I almost hit the 'me too' button, then I don't; I honestly don't know if this describes me perfectly or not at all.
    thatonewoman thatonewoman 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 19, 2015

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    Around people I act as

    if nothing bothers me and act basically like a badass. But really I am hurting constantly because the person I wanted to be with didn't see me in the same way.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 12, 2015

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    I have been through things,

    only god knows how much they hurt and how much they're terrible. And nobody cares.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Dec 26, 2014

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    Would Be Nice....

    I’m tired of being the strong one, just once I want to give in, I want to be held when I’m hurting, I want to be able to sink into someone’s strong arms, be protected, comforted, loved but I find it hard to give in to my pain when others are around… I shrug off my...
    lostlittlefirefly lostlittlefirefly 36-40, F 1 Response May 21, 2012

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    Do you know, what it's like to be punished

    for being soft? Don't cry or else you'll stand there for another two hours. Don't give me an explanation, don't you dare try to defend your actions, or I'll hit you to shut you up. Talking about your problems? Shut up. I don't want to hear. You deserved it. You were wrong. Don't...
    Fuzzies Fuzzies 61-65, M 1 Response Dec 11, 2015

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    Doesn't everyone deep down lol?

    And oh, I am tough, but doesn't change what the heart wants.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 26, 2014

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    Sometimes I shut out the world

    but I really want someone to just carry me away from the darkness.
    Amethyst09 Amethyst09 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 19, 2015

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    Almost all of my friends are convinced

    that I'm okay and that I'm happy with everything in my life. It's really hard for me to look into my best friend's eyes and confess everything because it would feel like I'm trying to compare my life to hers. My best friend has nothing... she lost her mom last year and also her...
    theultimatesashacourtney theultimatesashacourtney 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 8, 2015

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    i guess im more bitchy ,

    not by choice but because everything ive been put through,my innocence was taken when he lied,and cheated on me.im tougher mentally but all i want is for him to love me like today was my last day on earth....
    cynR1993 cynR1993 22-25, F Jan 19, 2015

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    adianoeta adianoeta 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 8, 2015

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    I always act like I can do something on my own

    and even frequently I act like i can stay up by myself doing nothing. But the truth is I want someone to tell me not to do it and tell me why it is bad for me. i want someone to tell me that they care too much to let me do that. I want to be cared for.
    Raptax231 Raptax231 22-25, M Sep 25, 2014

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    I act like this girl

    that can't be hurt or never gets upset, but I actually sit there at night wanting to cry but just can't bring my self to it, please anyone want to talk?
    LittleLion13 LittleLion13 16-17, F 5 Responses Sep 25, 2014

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    I'm there for others,

    but even still, don't I need someone there to take care of me in my darkest hours? I'm weak, just like everyone else is in some way, form, or fashion. Nevertheless, I'm strong enough to help others, yet often before I can help myself.
    shiranai97 shiranai97 18-21, M Jun 15, 2015

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    I usually sit in class

    and never say a word to anyone. I dress kinda tough, grunge/punk sorta. I'll act tough if I need to, but really I just want a hug. I'd rather stay at home and cuddle with someone that anything else. I read a lot and listen to music and wrote poems, I'm not actually tough at all...
    TheAmityAffliction TheAmityAffliction 16-17, M 4 Responses Oct 18, 2014

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    life is clearly never meant to be easy.

    growing up, being constantly told to share everything you come to expect everyone to do the same, but when the authority that instilled this moral into you gets corrupted, what do you do? it may be a small thing like a piece of cake or it could be something much more than that...
    shvg shvg 22-25, F May 22, 2015

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    Deep down, I act really strong

    and happy all the time and I hide my feelings from people but in reality I'm pretty depressed and want to be with someone in this lonely world.
    theultimatesashacourtney theultimatesashacourtney 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 26, 2014

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    I love these kind of girl.

    I then feel like I can give you your space, and not feel like I am neglecting you. That allows me time to prepare surprises, be thoughtful, keep on top of my entrepreneurships, stay social so that you know I am still cool. I am a Christian Pisces***
    GJTF GJTF 22-25, M Dec 12, 2015

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    White Horse

    This is a little difficult for me to reveal here, because it's something I have kept inside for a VERY long time. As a result of my childhood, I am closed-off and highly guarded. I grew up in a rural area, poor, and without my parents- my father was an alcoholic and didn't live...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 23, 2013

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    People think I'm stubborn now… Because I've

    made so many mistakes trusting people who hurt me and letting the wrong people in, so now I have walls upon walls up that I can't seem to break down… I have a boyfriend and I know he loves me but I still feel alone sometimes because I don't let him all the way in… And I...
    brokenandbi brokenandbi 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 20, 2015

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    Everytime I smile, I laugh,

    but inside me, sometimes, there is pain and sadness. I lie to people, I act tough, act like nothing happen.. But I wish there will be someone that can see through me, see through my fake expression, my fake smile and laugh and realize that I am not okay. I wish that person can...
    TulipsLover TulipsLover 18-21, F 8 Responses Jan 29, 2014

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    layers.

    Tough like the boys on the outside but very fragile on the inside. Constantly broken, never put back together. I wish to find the person that can help take care of me. I hate to admit that I desperately need to have someone look after me. I want to take care of someone but I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Dec 11, 2012

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    Like you're carrying the world atop your

    shoulders. That's how I always felt, with friends, family, work. I somehow always blame myself when something goes wrong. I act all motherly around my friends. I would be overly protective at times. Even with the family, I tend to act all like a tough guy. "Mess with me or my...
    lonelydinosaur lonelydinosaur 26-30, F Sep 27, 2014

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    Don't get me wrong, I'm not a complete softy.

    I can kick your *** so far, you'll end up in the next century if I want. But I act tough *all the time*, when I really just want someone to just hold me and make me at least their third priority...
    DementedKarkat DementedKarkat 13-15, T May 17, 2015

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    I try to act like my life is just fine.

    But really, I just want a friend because almost every friend I have in my town judges me or think I'm a kid.......I have a lot of adult friends
    metalchick18 metalchick18 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 30, 2014

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    I know that pain all too well.

    I had that person for 7 years of marriage, sadly, she passed away July 30th, 2013. She knew exactly when to lay her head on my chest, listing to my breathing, and be able to tell me "Everything will be alright, it will work out for the best, and you will be stronger in the end...
    mrniceguy1979 mrniceguy1979 36-40, M 1 Response Jun 28, 2014

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    I'm a ***** to everybody

    so nobody cares enough to ask what's wrong because if they really knew what was wrong they'd think I was broken
    HyacinthMay HyacinthMay 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 13

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    That's actually so true,

    because I think nobody really cares about me and it hurts me. A lot. Even when some peoples know about me and how I'm feeling and how I tried t kill myself and they never stopped me :( I need someone t care really.
    imjustmex33 imjustmex33 16-17, F Dec 26, 2014

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    Go to school and know everyone,

    even higher grades. Mess around with students, hang out with the principle! Mess with teachers, and have fun. Look strong and confident, a role model. People go to you for advice, help, protection. Anything. Your trusted. Yet the minute all heads are turned, no one's around, no...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 29, 2014

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