I Almost Killed Myself

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    Accidentally and out of innocense.

    I didnt know that the soda bottle contains kerosene. My sister was drinking her soda and i asked some but she wouldnt give me a sip (she's a bit selfish). I was so thirsty and it was on the table. I drank it and immediately the effect start. I went to convulsion. Almost died on...
    WifeOfVegeta WifeOfVegeta
    26-30, F
    Mar 17, 2015

    I think today is finally the day.

    I want to say goodbye to so many people but I know they'll know. So I really can't but I wish I could tell them how much I love them and how sorry I am for being this way for so long and expecting them to deal with it.
    sweettlc sweettlc
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Apr 8, 2016

    When I was seven years old,

    I was alone at home. I remember I was so curious about the feeling of death. I was really reckless child, passionate about many things. Maybe a movie that I had seen or I don't know for some reason.. I d had to understand "How does it feel like to be dead?". So as a little girl...
    Nonotu Nonotu
    26-30, F
    Feb 7, 2016

    Two times actually...

    Apparently I'm even too stupid to die.
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Feb 8, 2016

    Sometimes I think putting a gun to my head,

    closing my eyes and counting to three would solve everything. But what would that truly accomplish? I've put a barrel to my forehead and I closed my eyes and then I thought of my family and how devastated they would be. There's a war going on inside of me and I want to keep...
    BrokenNOTcracked BrokenNOTcracked
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jun 17, 2015

    I'm killing myself, I'm

    so done with this ****, I can't take it anymore
    Jakesawesome2016 Jakesawesome2016
    16-17, M
    4 Responses Apr 5, 2016

    3 times... 3 times I survived.

    .. Why... Must I go to the top of a tower?
    ItzPuppeh ItzPuppeh
    13-15, M
    1 Response Feb 22, 2016
    Angel2345 Angel2345
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Apr 4, 2016

    "The greatest thing I ever did was continuing

    my life when I wanted to die." -Juliette Lewis
    JaylenTho1 JaylenTho1
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 6, 2016

    I never exactly tried anything,

    but i wrote a long note and saved a rope for when i was ready. I was 11.
    mandycandy0123 mandycandy0123
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jul 13, 2015

    A lot of you are struggling

    and it is sad to see. But I've been in your guys place before of having suicidal thoughts and attempts. About 3 months ago I almost died from overdosing on pain killers and ADHD meds. I true wanted to die. But I had an amazing friend who got e the help I needed. I got sent away...
    peterbiltgirl17 peterbiltgirl17
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 9, 2015

    Couldn't do it because my mom came just in time,

    I was in the process of drowning myself and then I hear my mom knocking on the bathroom door. I live with roommates so I was wondering how she even got in. She came to drop off some things and wanted to see how I was doing. Is that faith or what ?
    TheVirginRapids TheVirginRapids
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Jun 26, 2014

    I hope and pray I don't wake up

    and if I do I think I'll finnish it maybe this time I'll succeed
    hevenswaiting12 hevenswaiting12
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 21, 2016

    Things just kept bottling up

    and things got worse and worse until I could not bear it one more day. Was in the position of life vs death. The only thing that stopped me was being afraid to die. Being a teenager sucks.
    Noah8264 Noah8264
    18-21, M
    1 Response Mar 20, 2016

    I wonder if there's any coming back from a

    suicide attempt. You've lost all hope and don't see any point in moving forward, and decide not existing is the only way to go. You fail however and still have the same feelings. I've given it 5 years. No change. And right now I'm in a good place. No suicidal thoughts or...
    fcksociety fcksociety
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Apr 4, 2016
    Sarah2020 Sarah2020
    16-17, F
    11 Responses Mar 7, 2016

    Okay do I've tried this a few times already

    because of everything getting too much. I'd rather be dead than feel like a prisoner in my own home. Feel like I'm on attempt 8 now. Getting tempted to try again with how life is right now. I've even had a bullet in the arm but took out the bullet myself. Just sick of being...
    AngelOfDeath92 AngelOfDeath92
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Mar 2, 2016

    I've tried in the past

    before 2-3 times and I can never go through with it...wonder if Id try again it'd work this time...I just wish I wasn't here anymore idk why it's so hard for me to leave, but it is... Eff my life. :(
    deleted deleted
    6 Responses Jun 23, 2015

    Completely on accident I about three years ago.

    I was playing with knives (be careful with those btw) and I accidently slit my wrist. I almost l lost a lot of blood, but my parents are doctors, so I knew how to give myself stitches. Lucky me, huh?
    MrPoolofsouls MrPoolofsouls
    16-17, M
    1 Response Feb 22, 2016

    I know how I failed. Now I know better.

    They didn't do as they promised, they didn't get better or get the help they needed. The meds worked for a little bit but are useless. Now they are a source of ridicule for my family. I get upset and I am told to go see my therapists or take my medicine. They brush me off when I...
    Alexz72 Alexz72
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Dec 24, 2015

    Three times. The most recent being yesterday.

    I can't say I regret it because I don't. It makes me who I am. Every single thing I do makes me who I am. Would I try again? I'd like not to. I want to be able to graduate college, get married, have kids, and eventually look back and say "I did it. I made it this far." At this...
    sighselly sighselly
    13-15, F
    3 Responses Feb 24, 2015

    Now I am just waiting

    for a good time.... I am tired of being pushed away because of her, I need to have my own friends that do not know her. I have no one to talk to.
    MakaniOther MakaniOther
    16-17, F
    Mar 9, 2016

    It was a dreadful night

    that I hope I don't have to relive ever again. My boyfriend and I were at each others throats, testing each others limits and becoming increasingly agitated with one another. Insults filled the rigid space and I had enough. I had enough of my ****** life. I had enough of his...
    Ginkofishin Ginkofishin
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 16, 2015

    I didn't want to live anymore & I didn't see

    the point in it, So I almost killed myself. I was so ready for it, but then once I thought of how much it would hurt my family, I stopped myself. Now, six months later, I've recovered & I feel like a different person, a happier person. I'm ready for whatever obstacles life...
    monicaar3 monicaar3
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 16, 2015

    I was 16 and a sophomore in high school.

    My mother isn't what you some would call "mother dearest" (basically she played ridiculous mind games and would take punishment a little too far.) she had finally divorced her abusive/cheating husband after 12 years. (surprisingly he divorced her, he finally came to realize she...
    millerandm1 millerandm1
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 20, 2015

    well long story short,

    i hated myself. and cut my arms. my parents noticed. and i stopped bc i didnt want them to know. then i found out that they wont look under my feet. so there my cuts will be.
    thatGirlho thatGirlho
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Feb 27, 2016

    I spent a week in a psych ward

    for "suicidal ideation". it really only taught me how to lie better
    helplesslyhopelessly helplesslyhopelessly
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 7, 2016

    Almost a year ago, I was in my room fading in &

    out of consciousness, in a puddle of (), trying to get warm because I was so cold. I was found & taken to the hospital last minute. How my liver healed itself in 4 weeks & has not ever come back to haunt me, I do not know. All I know is I have been given a second chance. if you...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Nov 15, 2015
    walkawayifyoudontlikeme walkawayifyoudontlikeme
    31-35, F
    Feb 22, 2016

    I got a ladder and climbed on it Tied a cable

    lead around my neck and tied the cable lead around underneath the satellite dish in our back garden on our roof, my parents were out... Was going to do it, but I might screw up, I have some plans just in case. Another time I was going to cut my throat with a large knife, I...
    thomas20s thomas20s
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Mar 25, 2016

    365 days ago I tried to kill myself

    because I felt weird and I felt different and I felt like I did not belong. But now I'm here. So I would like this moment to be for that kid out there who feels like she's weird or she's different or she doesn't fit in anywhere. Yes you do. I promise you do. Stay weird. Stay...
    deleted deleted
    8 Responses Oct 15, 2015

    Several times doing stupid stuff,

    barely a scratch if that.... Proves there is a God!!!!
    Greendragonwolfkin Greendragonwolfkin
    16-17, M
    Apr 5, 2016

    Tragic times. Manic depression

    and clinical depression aren't easy at all, but I am strong. I know I can make it through. I'll have a husband and a beautiful family someday so I just keep my head up now. :) There will still be bad days, but I have to remember the good days as well.
    2grunge4u 2grunge4u
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Nov 7, 2014

    A few years ago I was very depressed.

    Just because I knew I am born in the wrong body. I am not a boy, I am a girl. But how should I tell my mom and dad? I was so confused about everything. I needed to act like a boy, but... How??? I lived for 19 years as a 'Boy' as far as I could. I hated my life, I could not live...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Jul 28, 2015

    many many times! the last time was almost 4

    years ago. even made the noose. slit my wrist and of course the right way going down the vein in a hot bath. I didn't because my kids and I left the relationship of me being a punching bag ...so many sleepless nights and hospital visits. glad its done and learnt one thing there...
    moongoddess35 moongoddess35
    36-40, F
    1 Response Feb 7, 2016
    Tyler1500 Tyler1500
    13-15, M
    5 Responses Mar 8, 2016
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Jun 24, 2015

    I went through a pretty rough patch a couple

    months ago, I'm still muscling through it. I really am trying I guess.
    chianasykes chianasykes
    16-17, F
    Jan 17, 2016

    I will never share my story about this,

    what I will share is a story full of hope that change one person's mind before they went through with it. I read this a few weeks ago, as many millions of people did. But, incase you missed it I really think you should read this: http://m.huffpost.com/us/entry/56177218e4b0dbb8...
    YesImStillHere YesImStillHere
    26-30, F
    1 Response Nov 5, 2015

    Several times in middle school.

    I know it seems stupid, but it was around this time that I was very different from anyone else I knew.
    sierra1997 sierra1997
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 22, 2016

    When the woman I loved filed

    for divorce, my world came apart. I found EP by accident, looking for support or advice. At my lowest point, I had my gun in my mouth, trying to think of a reason not to pull the trigger. At that moment, God placed an EP member into my life and she messaged me. Althouh she...
    Sheepdog47 Sheepdog47
    46-50, M
    3 Responses Oct 16, 2015

    I was recently cheated on.

    my boyfriend is my best friend, we went to a bar here in town and i caught him looking at his ex, later he tried making small talk with her. when we left and we were in the vehicle arguing i pulled my necklace off and gave it to him and said "give that back when you really love...
    Smileprettygirl13 Smileprettygirl13
    22-25, F
    62 Responses Jan 25, 2015

    who isn't emo in middle school?

    ?? lmao. like I tried 500 times to kill myself and quit when I was 13 because it almost worked. like I took so many pills I woke up 3 days later in the hospital and so yeah.
    psychedelicbabydoll psychedelicbabydoll
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Feb 22, 2016

    Its becoming unbearable again.

    I'm ready to meet oblivion. I'm so very very tired. When do I get an escape? Its been so many years. How much am I suppose to carry before I collapse? The world around me continues to crash around me. I think it is time to implement my escape plan once again, hopefully not fail...
    Alexz72 Alexz72
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Jan 8, 2016

    I was in a deep depression

    when my brother passed he was my heart. I planned on taking my own life and came pretty close to downing pills. But then I thought about how selfish I was being I wasnt the only one that was heartbroken by my brother's death. I would be doing more harm to my family than myself...
    easilyxgrimess easilyxgrimess
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 16, 2016

    I am afraid of this..

    . But there is no other option... Everybody hates me.. Everybody dies..
    xchrisjexx xchrisjexx
    13-15, F
    4 Responses Mar 10, 2016

    Last week, when I was dumped.

    I tried to off myself on the canals but then I realised that jerk should off himself, why should I have to end my life. I won't be giving him or anyone the satisfaction. I'm staying right here in the land of the living.
    LonerGirl24 LonerGirl24
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jul 7, 2015

    If my cat hadn't come in

    and sat in my lap that night I would have taken all of those pills and finished cutting.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jun 2, 2015

    Oh Lord, won't you leave me Leave me on my

    knees? Cause I belong to the ground now And it belongs to thee And oh Lord, won't you leave me Leave me just like this? Cause I belong to the ground now I want no more than this[...] Mother - Florence + the machine
    Saya024 Saya024
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 20, 2016

    I was cutting myself,

    lost too much blood. I was almost passing away, everything went dark for a second, than I felt cold... I was scared as a 13 yr old, it scared me so fu*king much. I tried to stop the blood, bandages and etc. I think I "survived". I would've do nothing if I knew what will happen...
    darklotus01 darklotus01
    13-15, T
    Feb 22, 2016
    sweettlc sweettlc
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Apr 16, 2016

    I don't know why he saved me.

    I wish he had the courage to let me go.
    oddpodd oddpodd
    22-25, F
    Feb 7, 2016

    It'll be a year ago tomorrow.

    I sometimes regret not doing but am at the same time thankful I didn't.
    deleted deleted
    Sep 13, 2015

    When I was 18 years old,

    my girlfriend broke up with me. We had only been together for three months, but I felt like I couldn't live without her. I swallowed quite a few antidepressants. I wanted to die, and I almost did. Luckily I survived. I have a wonderful family, an incredibly smart 4-year-old, a...
    Jononymous Jononymous
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Feb 22, 2016

    When my grandma died a piece of me left with

    her, I knew before I even got home she was dead. When her heart gave out i felt it I was so close to her I already knew what she died from they called me a liar until the coroner told us.Anyways after she died I knew my life wasn't worth living anymore so I started cutting any...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Feb 16, 2016

    So this happened on this Friday (04.

    17.2015). I overdosed on sleeping pills and a few painkillers. I did it about 7.30am. I knew that my mom got out of work 12pm. I remember hearing my mom yelling my name and then I blacked out again. Then I remember hearing the sirens and mom telling me that the ambulance is...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Apr 19, 2015
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