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I Always Cause Myself Heartbreak

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    Bad Track Record

     Of course, 4 divorces is somewhat of a train wreck, one could say.  I don't count the ones I didn't marry, too much drama to worry much about.  Really, I do care and always have about people being happy and liking me.  That got me into trouble.
    dorobo dorobo 70+, M Oct 24, 2008

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    Yeah

    My heart has been broken more than once. Only once it has been broken by another person. I must admit that one was worse than anything I'd ever felt before, but all the times my heart was broken before that, were my own fault. I am naive. I can be very childlike. I can trust and...
    JojaRodenaLente JojaRodenaLente 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 6, 2008

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    I Always Cause Myself Heartbreak

    Don't need to go into detail, cause its' always the same thing......I try to make them love me, when they don't....I keep trying and trying....until its over for sure, and I cry for days......and never forget them no matter what. Sometimes men like me, but then I don't like them...
    ssuz545 ssuz545 51-55, F 3 Responses Nov 26, 2010

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    The Dreaded Ex-relapse

    I admit.. I did it. I had an Ex-Relapse and hooked up with the first man I had a long term relationship with, the first man I loved, the second man I was ever intimate with, and the man who showed me heartbreak is a real thing.. With long term effects. I call it a relapse because...
    SweetGG SweetGG 26-30, F 2 Responses Oct 16, 2013

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    I Know Why

    I always cause myself heartbreak because I fall in love way too easily. I guess I just want to be in a relationship and I'm so needy for attention and affection and to display those emotions in return. It's like I have all of these pent up emotions of caring and romance and...
    social02 social02 26-30, M 5 Responses Nov 28, 2010

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    We All Do.

    It's more like brainbreak...Since we fall in love with our minds and not our hearts. People always say to follow your heart, but if you did that you'd know right away to walk away. Because your brains doing all the talking and it's convinced you that you're in love with that...
    LylaRocks LylaRocks 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 15, 2009

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    Wrong Choices

     i've been through a number of relationships and i always end up breaking my heart. there were men who would give up everything for me and even give everything i need, but i never get to like them. i choose to break my heart by going after bad boys!huh..that's why i always...
    january24 january24 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 20, 2009

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    i dated the girl i am in love with 6 years ago.

    i screwed up. i left her for another girl who ended up cheating on me more than once. i left the cheating girl to get back with the love of my life. she wasn't allowed to date but we did anyway. high school comes along and were long distance, so she decides since we can't see...
    MrScrewUp94 MrScrewUp94 18-21, M Mar 25

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    i know that im very young,

    just 16. i have had very less to do with the opposite gender and im already pretty much fed up. my first relationship was a friendship that we thought could be more, but i wasnt exactly ready, i was in 8th grade and he was my senior. so i broke it off in a week. it was a bit of...
    purpletowel1 purpletowel1 13-15, F Jan 3

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    Its Really Easy To Break

    People try to break my heart and my hopes but I'm just a brick wall to have the Ability to pretend they're not even there. But only the souls I loved can break it, someday I will never see them again or never speak to each-other? it was nice to remember with the tears I gush out...
    Cupcake2 Cupcake2 22-25, M 3 Responses May 21, 2011

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    I'm not good at relationships.

    I always manage to find the flaws sometimes in other but mostly my own. I foretell the ending then go and create the cause save myself and end up alone. -David Levithan, The Realm of Possibility
    JustBreathe4J JustBreathe4J 18-21, F Feb 1

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    "I am always improving myself." I hope so. The least I try. I study, exercise, observe as much as possible and most important, search for answers to my wonders. I try to do new...
    laughingsoul laughingsoul 41-45, F 4 Responses Jun 27

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    My sophomore year in college has shown me that I needed to change. I have multiples stories from this year but that requires a book. So, I would only like to write about love. I...
    diania234 diania234 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 8

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    I always try to live up to others' expectation of me. It has now come to the point where I want to breathe and live for myself. Still, 22 years of habit is not that easy to break...
    northsky northsky 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 6

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    I started last year a few weeks before school started because I got really depressed and couldn't take it anymore so I wanted to die I had been suicidal before in the seventh grade...
    Kelnea Kelnea 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 7

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    Annoying habit I want to change..I hate saying it but I'm so obsessed with what people think of me sometimes,with comparing myself to others whether im better or there better than...
    seeminglypossible seeminglypossible 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 26

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    I never feel good enough in my own skin. On a rare occasion I will wake up and feel amazing and I will love myself but usually I wake up and just get furious at my reflection and...
    jessicanorth jessicanorth 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 29

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    It's been about two years now since I first realized I had a problem. It was my 2nd year in college and I was talking to a professor about my idea for my independent study. She...
    MissJazz MissJazz 22-25, F 6 Responses Jul 7

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    A few years ago, I virtually stopped doing so, which I massively regret. But I'm trying to improve more and more intellectually and mentally. Maybe it'll help me improve as a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 9

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    I try, it seems to work out sometimes and sometimes it's disproving.
    Jakebrum Jakebrum 16-17, M 3 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    I read and I go to the gym! These two things are among so few which define me.
    Silfverberg Silfverberg 26-30, F 4 Responses Jun 25

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    Excersize and my daily healthy shakes with snacks in between healthy better lifestyle what's next 👍
    kaaigee kaaigee 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 25

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    Sitting out here thinking of ways to become a better person 💕
    kaaigee kaaigee 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 26

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    I have been working on completely changing the way I view things the last couple of weeks. Every time I have a negative thought - I change the thought to be positive which feels...
    deepvisionss deepvisionss 16-17, F 4 Responses Jun 29

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    I want to start a new perspective in life... pls share yours
    mspokwang mspokwang 36-40, F 3 Responses Jun 30

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    The mornings for me can be the hardest. I have been working on repeating affirmations each morning and although it isn't instant, it really helps. Today my mantra will be: I...
    mylove77 mylove77 36-40, M 4 Responses Jul 1

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    To make life better for my baby girl ! The more I improve the better our life will be
    kaaigee kaaigee 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 5

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    Buuuuuut...why did I eat like 3 cups of cookies and cream frozen yogurt?! Although it still fit into my macros (yes, I obsess with that), I did it while bored and feel like it's a...
    Lovelywildflower Lovelywildflower 36-40, F Jul 6

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    It is my fault, largely. This idea has been hammered home for a very long time. It is part of my conditioning, my programme. They sure believe it. In many ways, so do I.
    macabrEnigma macabrEnigma 18-21, T 1 Response Jul 9

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    I'm afraid the pain I've gone through in life has made me to damaged to love
    DeLos1985 DeLos1985 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 10

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    It's hard, but every morning I pray for help to make each day a good one. And I try to stay upbeat and support my friends as much as I can! Sometimes I slip up and inadvertently...
    jasenamigala jasenamigala 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 11

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    I battled with anxiety, you know it's all in our mind. I won because I realized that the things that I was worried about never really happen and that the unexpected things are...
    Mintyberries Mintyberries 16-17, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    For my better future ;) lol
    silentwill30 silentwill30 22-25, M 5 days ago

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    I have been trying to improve my confidence forever but that is something that is really hard to do. Every time I look in the mirror I wish that wasn't what I looked like.......
    firecancatchme firecancatchme 16-17, F 6 Responses 5 days ago

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    I'm 34 now and prettier then ever I guess. I wear diapers so often that I' d figure toss the panties...I'm in diapers now and now all I have to wear are Small diapers nothing other...
    keligo keligo 31-35, M 19 hrs ago

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    I don't know when did this start, but I've always considered myself as an ugly person, period. No one could convince me the opposite, I don't believe them! I have the talent for...
    youaremygift youaremygift 31-35, F 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    This both a good and bad thing for me. The good: whenever I'm alone or with someone I don't like for example my fake *** friend I tend to talk to my self. When I need to make a...
    FighterWolf FighterWolf 13-15, F Jul 9

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    I always find myself stressing out over something, weather that be my Heath, my physical appearance, my education/grades. My future, etc. no matter how great my life Is I always...
    ECrierie ECrierie 16-17, M Jul 15

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    And I always will even if I'm happy, even if I laugh I will always hate myself simply because I'm me.Who am I? I'm a loser, a very stupid,dumb,retarded,idiotic person.I'm a ugly...
    wassup305 wassup305 13-15, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    Part of me looks forward to it. I know that's out of ignorance. I don't know the physical pains that come with being old. But I always imagine myself to be a stereotypical old...
    fairytalesandspiderwebs fairytalesandspiderwebs 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    My dad was beating me for nothing cause he got mad at his girlfriend I went in my room put a rope on the ceiling fan and stand in a chair to hang myself and my mom ran in and took...
    tamaraiwannaknow tamaraiwannaknow 16-17, F 12 hrs ago

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    As of late, my life hasn't been what I would consider to be optimal; I distanced myself from the only person that I have had any inkling of romantic attraction to, bickered with my...
    woahwoahpotato woahwoahpotato 13-15 Jul 5

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    as it happens again, I get scared. Not of the loss I am experiencing, not of the missed chance of actual happiness, or her smile that use to give me a physical feeling of...
    xavis xavis 26-30, M Jul 14

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    'Cause now that I am weak and sick, no one's there for me, even the 'friend' who asked me to stay by his side.
    officialwanderer officialwanderer 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 27

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    I screwed it all up, I can feel it. I don't get looked at the same, felt the same. I feel a lot of times things would be better without me around. The girl I met couldn't get...
    Lost42000 Lost42000 22-25, M 5 hrs ago

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    I always mess things up, I'm constantly worrying about how I look and act, and I can never find someone who truly loves me because of how I am. :(
    NyanCat73 NyanCat73 13-15, M 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    I have been staying in my room for 3 days now...maybe 4....I have been doing much els sleeping, eating and watching grey's anatomy, I'm so sad I just don't wanna socialize with...
    catxfreak catxfreak 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 12

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    I recently went through my first heartbreak.. And it's killing me.
    athleticnerd athleticnerd 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 14

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