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I Always Cause Myself Heartbreak

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    The Dreaded Ex-relapse

    I admit.. I did it. I had an Ex-Relapse and hooked up with the first man I had a long term relationship with, the first man I loved, the second man I was ever intimate with, and the man who showed me heartbreak is a real thing.. With long term effects. I call it a relapse because...
    SweetGG SweetGG 26-30, F 2 Responses Oct 16, 2013

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    When I'm out with friends

    and we run into guys I'm always like the 3rd wheel. As most of my friends are far more attractive than I am I feel like I'm always competing with them for male attention even though I'm not looking for a relationship or anything it makes me feel like crap.
    lostlonelysoul lostlonelysoul 18-21, F Aug 10, 2014

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    Its Really Easy To Break

    People try to break my heart and my hopes but I'm just a brick wall to have the Ability to pretend they're not even there. But only the souls I loved can break it, someday I will never see them again or never speak to each-other? it was nice to remember with the tears I gush out...
    Cupcake2 Cupcake2 22-25, M 3 Responses May 21, 2011

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    I Know Why

    I always cause myself heartbreak because I fall in love way too easily. I guess I just want to be in a relationship and I'm so needy for attention and affection and to display those emotions in return. It's like I have all of these pent up emotions of caring and romance and...
    social02 social02 26-30, M 5 Responses Nov 28, 2010

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    Yeah

    My heart has been broken more than once. Only once it has been broken by another person. I must admit that one was worse than anything I'd ever felt before, but all the times my heart was broken before that, were my own fault. I am naive. I can be very childlike. I can trust and...
    JojaRodenaLente JojaRodenaLente 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 6, 2008

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    i know that im very young,

    just 16. i have had very less to do with the opposite gender and im already pretty much fed up. my first relationship was a friendship that we thought could be more, but i wasnt exactly ready, i was in 8th grade and he was my senior. so i broke it off in a week. it was a bit of...
    purpletowel1 purpletowel1 16-17, F Jan 3, 2014

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    I'm not good at relationships.

    I always manage to find the flaws sometimes in other but mostly my own. I foretell the ending then go and create the cause save myself and end up alone. -David Levithan, The Realm of Possibility
    JustBreathe4J JustBreathe4J 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 1, 2014

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    We All Do.

    It's more like brainbreak...Since we fall in love with our minds and not our hearts. People always say to follow your heart, but if you did that you'd know right away to walk away. Because your brains doing all the talking and it's convinced you that you're in love with that...
    LylaRocks LylaRocks 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 15, 2009

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    Wrong Choices

     i've been through a number of relationships and i always end up breaking my heart. there were men who would give up everything for me and even give everything i need, but i never get to like them. i choose to break my heart by going after bad boys!huh..that's why i always...
    january24 january24 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 20, 2009

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    i dated the girl i am in love with 6 years ago.

    i screwed up. i left her for another girl who ended up cheating on me more than once. i left the cheating girl to get back with the love of my life. she wasn't allowed to date but we did anyway. high school comes along and were long distance, so she decides since we can't see...
    MrScrewUp94 MrScrewUp94 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 25, 2014

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    I respond with fear instead of trust,

    with tears and cruelty instead of smiles and hugs... that he gave me. why do I respond so wrong to the people who love the most ... I hate myself as I am right now.
    butterflyofchange butterflyofchange 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 18, 2014

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    I Always Cause Myself Heartbreak

    Don't need to go into detail, cause its' always the same thing......I try to make them love me, when they don't....I keep trying and trying....until its over for sure, and I cry for days......and never forget them no matter what. Sometimes men like me, but then I don't like them...
    ssuz545 ssuz545 51-55, F 3 Responses Nov 26, 2010

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    I didn't realize how much I hate myself. I'm always comparing myself to others and I'm used to reminding myself that I am an awful person. I don't think that's working out for me...
    AltF4 AltF4 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 20

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    whenever people are unhappy, complaining, or angry I have a tendacy to always blame myself for not providing the right kind of happiness...I always think "it must be something I...
    jbm1984 jbm1984 31-35, F 3 Responses Apr 24

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    I blame myself when things don't go right even if its not my fault because the only one who can fix the problem is myself. also sometimes its good to vent but who wants to listen...
    me0883 me0883 22-25, M Apr 6

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    but the truth is that I love the idea of improving myself and would love to be able to do that. But whenever I find myself in any kind of unpleasant situation, i don't see myself...
    Kheya092 Kheya092 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 17

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    I blame myself for my parents' divorce and the fact that they still have to talk to each other 12 years later to discuss my travel arrangements, because the divorce papers say that...
    PinkChocolate00 PinkChocolate00 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 25

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    Always always always strive to be a better version of yourself. Evolve, grow, face your demons with your head held high...this is your LIFE and it's not here to stay, so get it...
    NikkiTattooedHeart NikkiTattooedHeart 26-30, F 5 Responses Apr 14

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    I know it wasn't my fault... WHY do I still blame myself... I feel like I messed up some how in this whole situation
    Catho Catho 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 7

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    I am getting ready to run my first 5k! It's been a goal since I can remember and after lots of training and prepping I am ready! I have 4 kids so it's nice to do something for me...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Apr 13

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    I'm loving personal development and growing myself.
    georgecy georgecy 41-45, M 2 Responses Apr 14

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    I blame myself for all the pains and struggles I've been through in my life because at the end of the day I control what I allow, what I do, and how I handle things.
    ImJustANobody ImJustANobody 26-30, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I'm a constant work in progress. I'm always wanting to be a better person in every sense. I'm constantly learning for starters.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 3

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    My ex broke up with me, and I felt awful, he said that it was because he needed space because of his depression, but before he said that, he said "Before we were dating, I really...
    callXmeXrose callXmeXrose 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 7

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    Learn to appreciate what you have, before time makes you appreciate what you had.
    Kinggalxy Kinggalxy 18-21, M 4 Responses Apr 3

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    Fake friends are no different than shadows, they stick around during your brightest moments, but disappear during your darkest hours.
    Kinggalxy Kinggalxy 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 4

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    Happiness is not the absence of problems but the ability to deal with them.
    Kinggalxy Kinggalxy 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 4

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    Don't let your fear of the past affect the presence of your future. Live for what tomorrow has to bring, not what yesterday has taken away.
    Kinggalxy Kinggalxy 18-21, M Apr 4

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    If he's in a mood and responds negatively it hurts real bad, I'm sure I've done wrong and need to change or he won't care & love me or maybe he just doesn't :(
    Aagatha Aagatha 36-40, F Apr 7

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    Never go back to an old love, no matter how strong it is. It's like reading a book over and over again when you already know how it ends.
    Kinggalxy Kinggalxy 18-21, M 8 Responses Apr 8

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    Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.
    Kinggalxy Kinggalxy 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 8

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    In a world where everyone drowns themselves in poisons to mask the pain, I realize its easier to do bad... The real challenge is being good and LEARNING TO LIVE! #Positively :)
    92krosado 92krosado 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 8

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    I want a WRX. Saved 7k so far.....
    kidneygrl kidneygrl 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 13

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    taking my pics
    PaolaRomana PaolaRomana 51-55, F 4 Responses Apr 16

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    By working on my research Stepping outside my comfort zones Initiating conversations with others Volunteering once a week Being grateful for things going well Finding the good...
    easynuh easynuh 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 18

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    I do, I need to NOT do this... :(
    OneWithTheSkies OneWithTheSkies 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 25

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    Life isn't static, rather it's constantly flowing. My life is a constant work in progress. I don't ever expect perfection, I don't want it. I enjoy the triumph and struggle of self...
    JustUhhhThought JustUhhhThought 22-25, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    If my mom s feling down, litttle brother is mad, or anything else negative that happens to the people I care about the most, I feel like I'm to blame. I don't know...grew up...
    jellolia jellolia 16-17, F 3 days ago

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    I had an accident, and it changes everything
    harmonyh harmonyh 22-25, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    Omg sooo... Yeah yesterday in class it was just like any other day, sitting there bored and confused as usual until an hour later, when I get up from my seat and so it appears that...
    gunawannalatte gunawannalatte 13-15, F 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    No matter what I do its always wrong. With my friends, my family, my child and with my boyfriend. I never say or do the right thing. I always try so hard but all I want to do is at...
    standalonestar standalonestar 22-25, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I have been married for 9 years and that marriage is now coming to an end. We are on good terms. I would even say we are friends. Just in the process of getting divorce papers...
    girlx427 girlx427 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 21

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