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I Always Cause Myself Heartbreak

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    I'm not good at relationships.

    I always manage to find the flaws sometimes in other but mostly my own. I foretell the ending then go and create the cause save myself and end up alone. -David Levithan, The Realm of Possibility
    JustBreathe4J JustBreathe4J 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 1, 2014

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    Its Really Easy To Break

    People try to break my heart and my hopes but I'm just a brick wall to have the Ability to pretend they're not even there. But only the souls I loved can break it, someday I will never see them again or never speak to each-other? it was nice to remember with the tears I gush out...
    Cupcake2 Cupcake2 22-25, M 3 Responses May 21, 2011

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    I Know Why

    I always cause myself heartbreak because I fall in love way too easily. I guess I just want to be in a relationship and I'm so needy for attention and affection and to display those emotions in return. It's like I have all of these pent up emotions of caring and romance and...
    social02 social02 26-30, M 5 Responses Nov 28, 2010

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    Yeah

    My heart has been broken more than once. Only once it has been broken by another person. I must admit that one was worse than anything I'd ever felt before, but all the times my heart was broken before that, were my own fault. I am naive. I can be very childlike. I can trust and...
    JojaRodenaLente JojaRodenaLente 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 6, 2008

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    i know that im very young,

    just 16. i have had very less to do with the opposite gender and im already pretty much fed up. my first relationship was a friendship that we thought could be more, but i wasnt exactly ready, i was in 8th grade and he was my senior. so i broke it off in a week. it was a bit of...
    purpletowel1 purpletowel1 16-17, F Jan 3, 2014

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    When I'm out with friends

    and we run into guys I'm always like the 3rd wheel. As most of my friends are far more attractive than I am I feel like I'm always competing with them for male attention even though I'm not looking for a relationship or anything it makes me feel like crap.
    lostlonelysoul lostlonelysoul 18-21, F Aug 10, 2014

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    i dated the girl i am in love with 6 years ago.

    i screwed up. i left her for another girl who ended up cheating on me more than once. i left the cheating girl to get back with the love of my life. she wasn't allowed to date but we did anyway. high school comes along and were long distance, so she decides since we can't see...
    MrScrewUp94 MrScrewUp94 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 25, 2014

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    I Always Cause Myself Heartbreak

    Don't need to go into detail, cause its' always the same thing......I try to make them love me, when they don't....I keep trying and trying....until its over for sure, and I cry for days......and never forget them no matter what. Sometimes men like me, but then I don't like them...
    ssuz545 ssuz545 51-55, F 3 Responses Nov 26, 2010

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    We All Do.

    It's more like brainbreak...Since we fall in love with our minds and not our hearts. People always say to follow your heart, but if you did that you'd know right away to walk away. Because your brains doing all the talking and it's convinced you that you're in love with that...
    LylaRocks LylaRocks 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 15, 2009

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    Wrong Choices

     i've been through a number of relationships and i always end up breaking my heart. there were men who would give up everything for me and even give everything i need, but i never get to like them. i choose to break my heart by going after bad boys!huh..that's why i always...
    january24 january24 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 20, 2009

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    The Dreaded Ex-relapse

    I admit.. I did it. I had an Ex-Relapse and hooked up with the first man I had a long term relationship with, the first man I loved, the second man I was ever intimate with, and the man who showed me heartbreak is a real thing.. With long term effects. I call it a relapse because...
    SweetGG SweetGG 26-30, F 2 Responses Oct 16, 2013

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    I respond with fear instead of trust,

    with tears and cruelty instead of smiles and hugs... that he gave me. why do I respond so wrong to the people who love the most ... I hate myself as I am right now.
    butterflyofchange butterflyofchange 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 18, 2014

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