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I Always Cause Myself Heartbreak

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    I'm not good at relationships.

    I always manage to find the flaws sometimes in other but mostly my own. I foretell the ending then go and create the cause save myself and end up alone. -David Levithan, The Realm of Possibility
    JustBreathe4J JustBreathe4J 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 1, 2014

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    The Dreaded Ex-relapse

    I admit.. I did it. I had an Ex-Relapse and hooked up with the first man I had a long term relationship with, the first man I loved, the second man I was ever intimate with, and the man who showed me heartbreak is a real thing.. With long term effects. I call it a relapse because...
    SweetGG SweetGG 26-30, F 2 Responses Oct 16, 2013

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    I respond with fear instead of trust,

    with tears and cruelty instead of smiles and hugs... that he gave me. why do I respond so wrong to the people who love the most ... I hate myself as I am right now.
    butterflyofchange butterflyofchange 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 18, 2014

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    I Know Why

    I always cause myself heartbreak because I fall in love way too easily. I guess I just want to be in a relationship and I'm so needy for attention and affection and to display those emotions in return. It's like I have all of these pent up emotions of caring and romance and...
    social02 social02 26-30, M 5 Responses Nov 28, 2010

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    i know that im very young,

    just 16. i have had very less to do with the opposite gender and im already pretty much fed up. my first relationship was a friendship that we thought could be more, but i wasnt exactly ready, i was in 8th grade and he was my senior. so i broke it off in a week. it was a bit of...
    purpletowel1 purpletowel1 16-17, F Jan 3, 2014

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    Wrong Choices

     i've been through a number of relationships and i always end up breaking my heart. there were men who would give up everything for me and even give everything i need, but i never get to like them. i choose to break my heart by going after bad boys!huh..that's why i always...
    january24 january24 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 20, 2009

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    Its Really Easy To Break

    People try to break my heart and my hopes but I'm just a brick wall to have the Ability to pretend they're not even there. But only the souls I loved can break it, someday I will never see them again or never speak to each-other? it was nice to remember with the tears I gush out...
    Cupcake2 Cupcake2 22-25, M 3 Responses May 21, 2011

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    I Always Cause Myself Heartbreak

    Don't need to go into detail, cause its' always the same thing......I try to make them love me, when they don't....I keep trying and trying....until its over for sure, and I cry for days......and never forget them no matter what. Sometimes men like me, but then I don't like them...
    ssuz545 ssuz545 51-55, F 3 Responses Nov 26, 2010

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    We All Do.

    It's more like brainbreak...Since we fall in love with our minds and not our hearts. People always say to follow your heart, but if you did that you'd know right away to walk away. Because your brains doing all the talking and it's convinced you that you're in love with that...
    LylaRocks LylaRocks 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 15, 2009

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    i dated the girl i am in love with 6 years ago.

    i screwed up. i left her for another girl who ended up cheating on me more than once. i left the cheating girl to get back with the love of my life. she wasn't allowed to date but we did anyway. high school comes along and were long distance, so she decides since we can't see...
    MrScrewUp94 MrScrewUp94 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 25, 2014

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    When I'm out with friends

    and we run into guys I'm always like the 3rd wheel. As most of my friends are far more attractive than I am I feel like I'm always competing with them for male attention even though I'm not looking for a relationship or anything it makes me feel like crap.
    lostlonelysoul lostlonelysoul 18-21, F Aug 10, 2014

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    Yeah

    My heart has been broken more than once. Only once it has been broken by another person. I must admit that one was worse than anything I'd ever felt before, but all the times my heart was broken before that, were my own fault. I am naive. I can be very childlike. I can trust and...
    JojaRodenaLente JojaRodenaLente 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 6, 2008

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    That's what I tell myself anyways.... My kids think i'm downright 'Loopey' lol
    guineapig77 guineapig77 36-40, F 38 mins ago

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    To the person who thinks I am weak, I hope I can always give second chances... No... Just chances.. I hope I am strong enough to give more of it but I'm still just a girl, I have...
    officialwanderer officialwanderer 18-21, F 13 hrs ago

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    it's my birthday in three hours n I hope I become a better person
    viqsteels viqsteels 22-25, F 8 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    To fall out of love was something o could not do...so i created a new me..stronger,smater and so hard nothing could get in...not even love...at least not anymore...but it did...
    jrcervin jrcervin 16-17, M 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    I know I'm crazy, therefore i am not crazy, isn't that crazy?
    txasbf txasbf 36-40, F 12 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    And I figure it's inevitable that it'll happen. I have no college degree, much to my dismay, and fear that I'll be living with family for the rest of my life, working at McDonalds...
    strawberryviolet strawberryviolet 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    on days where I'm not feeling pretty, ppl will compliment me, on those days, I have no idea if they are serious or not? I dont always c myself as ugly, but i dont always c myself...
    StreetgirlnamedDesire504 StreetgirlnamedDesire504 36-40 1 Response 2 days ago

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    love that adrenergic rush but hate myself for procrastinating every act.am i to be blamed?if only my brain can be as sharp as this..if only my imagination can fly as high as this...
    dramaqueen95 dramaqueen95 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I had an interesting exchange with a co-worker recently. She told me about an encounter in which she had met my Mother a few days prior.. When my Mom told her who she was, that I...
    lavendersea lavendersea 41-45, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Would they be sad or happy? Would they pretend they loved me? Or would I die alone, like I lived, always by myself?
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response 4 days ago

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    {{4:56AM}} So much about me is so f*cked up. Most things I can never tell people because it's so personal.~ I need to better myself for me and if I want to live the life I truly...
    xMellowButterflyx xMellowButterflyx 18-21, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    LOL I can't help but laugh reading the tittle,I find it funny for some reason,maybe it's because i tend to find humor in irony's,cynicism and dark things.And this seems somewhat...
    simpleandpossible simpleandpossible 22-25, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    Expectations from this app may be high but since there are millions of people using it, I believe I can find what I'm looking for! I want to make friends online so if I need to...
    peacefulclouds peacefulclouds 22-25, F 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    Hello Everyone -- I came across this site when I googled "I hate my family" so I figured I'd give it a shot to hopefully find other people who can relate. I am so sad lately...
    hifuckedupworld hifuckedupworld 26-30, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    how do you let go of your past, when u you keep beating yourself up about things that have happened or worse things that could have happened. when I was about 8 I got a half...
    twoface444 twoface444 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    The hardest thing to do is to walk away from someone you truly love. Someone you could have so easily spent the rest of your life with. Stepping away from an unexplainable love...
    PricelessJourney PricelessJourney 36-40, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I know my ex boy friend from Social media since 2009. He is from Sri Lanka n I'm from Malaysia. We were became friends in Social media friends n used to chat once in a while. And...
    Solitaria87 Solitaria87 26-30, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I have a really bad habit of only talking about my problems after they've been resolved. And sitting on the things that bother me forever.
    fables fables 18-21, M Aug 25

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    Sometimes i just dont really want to be myself Sorry this is a rant... I was raised as a spoiled child and I still am. I always had to have everything I wanted and refused to...
    Pillemy Pillemy 18-21 1 Response Aug 24

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    hymn of nothingness oh i have serve feels like eternity to feel...joy and sadness illuminate my path with darkness and nothingness away from all this madness unite me with...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M Aug 24

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    Hello! I am doing a 10k run on October 4th 2015, for british heart foundation. I am doing this because i am a survivor of a heart disease, and would like to raise awareness and...
    amylouexoh amylouexoh 16-17, F 4 Responses Aug 23

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    I saw forever in YOU and I. Others did too. BUT YOU DIDN'T SEE FOREVER. You chose to do things that can make it END. Now... How can I still love you like you've never hurt me...
    ComplicatedWounded ComplicatedWounded 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 23

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    Been trying to get my life back on track and start drawing again, it's what I've wanted to do all my life so after a few years of not trying, I drew this little guy so please tell...
    Mantisrider64 Mantisrider64 18-21, M 4 Responses Aug 22

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    I really want to kill myself. My life is going on horribly. My mother has psychotic depression, she has been on an affair for 9 years & has just recently stopped after being...
    mangoseed mangoseed 18-21, F 15 Responses Aug 22

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    Everyone is a slave to their past. No matter how much you wish to move forward, the events of last year will bear down on you like the light of the stars as soon as you glance up...
    ohellnope ohellnope 16-17, M 1 Response Aug 22

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    You should never compare yourself to another human being. Or if you do do so with a grain of salt because it's not gonna go well. You should never compare yourself to someone you...
    Raptax231 Raptax231 18-21, M Aug 20

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    When people always say " I'm fine" you should be worry.. Who knows what had happened or cause it.. Because you never know....
    Soullessangel16 Soullessangel16 16-17, F Aug 19

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    The plane experience. I went to America last year and on the plane I really felt horn* so when everyone was asleep I went to the toilet and pleasured myself for a good 15minutes...
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Aug 19

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    reflecting a color only i can see greeted by monsters of my insecurities sleep..escape to another galaxy dream are monsters snatching away my sanity light some candles in...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M Aug 19

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    I think I know why. I still feel bad. I wake up pissy spend my day angry then come home mad and get more mad with every word. I got my own things with work happening. I work at a...
    animalexpert1128 animalexpert1128 22-25, F Aug 19

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