I Always Feel Fat

Fearing The Scale And Yet Addicted To It All The Same 1,162 People

    Because Fat is not a feeling .

    . . it is NOT the name of an emotion . . . But it is something we are allowed to say When saying 'I feel guilty and dirty and ashamed and disgusted and fearful of this terrible demanding corruptible impermanent body' Is not socially acceptable And does not have a subtext of 'I...
    dispossessed dispossessed
    51-55, F
    1 Response Apr 27, 2014

    I fell and lost use of one of my legs

    (temporally.) since then I've gained forty pounds and lost so much muscle. I used to be a ballerina, now I just feel like a useless cow.
    alxelei alxelei
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 15

    My Clothes Never Fit Right.

    My boyfriend surprised me yesterday. He goes to school in Santa Cruz and barely visits me. When he does, I always spend hours and hours trying to figure out what I should wear and how my makeup should be done. No matter how long it takes, I am always hating the way I look in the...
    itsjamieee itsjamieee
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Sep 3, 2013

    Im here in Antigua visiting family

    and friends, I wanted to come soooo bad but now im here every one is tellin my i got fat. Yes okay mc donalds and ted lobster does that to u, u can stop now but no dey keep going. I become anti social because im afraid to talk, i cant eat in front of them and if i do i try to...
    ashash03 ashash03
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jul 2, 2014

    I used to be so active.

    My senior year I would have softball, track, and then id even go to the gym. Now here I am. 20 years old 40 pounds heavier and no motivation to workout. I seriously need help getting it together.
    countrydarliin countrydarliin
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jul 8, 2014
    madeofbones madeofbones
    22-25, M
    Nov 3, 2014

    Fat Fat Fat Fat Fat Fat....

    That's all I see when i look in the mirror. I see fat. I've always been a chubby kid my whole life-always had a big stomach, chubby thighs, and a fat face. About three years I completely shed all the weight dropping down to about 120. Now I'm around that plus a few...
    RogueAngelWithoutWings RogueAngelWithoutWings
    18-21, F
    8 Responses Dec 28, 2010

    No matter if I binge eat

    or just eat normally, I always feel so fat afterward. I guess that's why I throw it up. I haven't been throwing up as much lately. It's because my throat starts to bleed and gets really sore. It takes me so long to purge now. I have like no gag reflex anymore so I practically...
    ImYourLady ImYourLady
    18-21, F
    Jan 13, 2015

    I know I'm not overweight

    or anything... I'm a healthy weight for my age and height, but I always feel disgusting and just fat when I don't workout and just eat bad food. It doesn't help either with a one year old in love with candy and chocolate:(
    samantha280 samantha280
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Aug 14, 2014

    When your body gains weight

    so easily after slipping up a few times, it's very easy to start body shaming, which I'm doing right now. Starting today, I'm sticking with my weight watchers, going hiking as a form of exercise today since I forgot my T25 at school, and I'm going to stop doing my unhealthy...
    KrisMiss KrisMiss
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 19, 2014

    I always feel fat. It's

    because I am fat! My belly rests on my thighs, and my thighs have stretch marks on them. I have 3 fat rolls I have on my belly, one over my man-boobs, and 2 forming on my back!
    fattyfatt8 fattyfatt8
    18-21, M
    1 Response Feb 20

    I am constantly eating.

    I eat way too much. I don't known whats wrong with me. I can't stop eating... I eat all day long and I always feel like I gained a hundred pounds at the end of the day. I feel so gross but i can't stop my self... I need some advice. if you can help me, please message me. I need...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Nov 18, 2015

    I hate it, I hate myself,

    how I look. I want to lose weight really bad. I weigh around 123 and I'm 5'2. I have muscle though. I was called thunder thighs by my "friends" over text while I was at my best friends and I started crying. I was always teased for being the heavier one. I starved myself and went...
    CatWithScars CatWithScars
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Jul 8, 2014

    That Fat Feeling

    195. I loathe that number. I feel like that number controls my life. Like I can't escape it. Granted, I have a problem with being lazy and not wanting to wake up at 6am and jog. I also eat when I'm bored or feel pathetic.... which is very often... I look at all the prettier...
    needinghelp789 needinghelp789
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 3, 2012

    I am at the heaviest point in my life.

    I know I could lose weight if I really tried, worked out and gave up some foods. But I always give up after a few days and never workout.
    Imsofancyy Imsofancyy
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Jun 28, 2014

    I need an eating buddy.

    and NOOO I don't mean some weirdo who wants to watch me eat or who will feed me, that's disgusting. I mean someone who will eat with me and talk to me while eating so I won't feel so alone. and so I won't feel the need to call myself names or beat myself up all because I...
    mentallyhigh mentallyhigh
    18-21, F
    8 Responses Oct 13, 2015
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Oct 9, 2015

    I was fat at 125lbs and horrifically fat at

    240lbs and now still disgustingly forever fat at 165lbs. I'll die a fat nasty pig. Hopefully soon.
    FatAlly FatAlly
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Feb 22, 2014

    I want to die so bad,

    I wish I was dead but I can't bring myself to kill myself. I hate my life and everyone in it. Kill me? Please!
    karinaspain karinaspain
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Jan 22, 2015

    I know that I'm not fat.

    I'm actually on the thinner side. I just feel so large all the time. I hate my body and I want to be skinnier.
    pinkishdolphin pinkishdolphin
    16-17, F
    May 16, 2014

    Urgh absolutely hate this feeling,

    after a workout aswell
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    May 22, 2014

    Don't Care, Just Hope To Change One Day! :d

    I am fat, I don't feel it, I am.
    krk95 krk95
    16-17, F
    Aug 26, 2012

    I Always Feel Fat

    And it feels great! :P Nothing wrong with that!
    Notfatenough Notfatenough
    36-40, M
    Jun 12, 2011

    Whatever people say, I still don't think I'm

    thin enough. I get angry when I look at myself in the mirror because I hate what I see. A girl with too long nose, ugly impossible hair, colorless eyes, big ears, weird feet, and a round belly. I hate it!! I really wanna wear short shorts and cute dresses...
    Pumpkinpiespice Pumpkinpiespice
    16-17, F
    Feb 28, 2014

    My Dying Mother, Addicted Father, And Bumlimic Obsession

     My mother was always in my life. Not so much my father. He was back and forth between drugs and his family. Annoying? Very. When my mother was diagnosed with Cervical Cancer, which within 3 months turned to terminal cancer, my eating disorder which i'd hidden since 4th...
    SoSamantha SoSamantha
    18-21, F
    Dec 13, 2009

    The Secret Life

    I am nearly 30. I have a secret which no-one knows, I'm still obsessed with my body and food. It began when I was 14, I assumed that when I was an adult I would get fatter and I wouldn't care. I was wrong. I often feel guilty or bad when I eat. I sometimes cannot stand having...
    tenyearsonstillhurting tenyearsonstillhurting
    26-30, F
    2 Responses May 13, 2013

    God, I'm a whale. I know how I got like this,

    but can I ever get back to a decent weight.
    transformerlover transformerlover
    41-45, M
    Jan 28, 2015
    Likeylalayys Likeylalayys
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 7, 2015

    It feels that no matter how hard I try

    or how much I'm ashamed off myself I'll always be the fat girl.
    aprilj91 aprilj91
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 8, 2014

    I love it when I wake up in the mornings

    and I look slim, but as soon as I eat I look plump...I'm not fat but I feel like I am all the time. My thighs don't help at all!
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    May 3, 2015

    Everyone says I look fine

    and don't need to lose weight but I disagree
    Imbatgirl Imbatgirl
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Feb 22, 2014
    Kailenalovesyou Kailenalovesyou
    16-17, F
    Apr 14, 2015
    RachelAddison RachelAddison
    26-30, F
    Feb 26, 2014

    As tight as my pants

    and shirts are getting in am getting fat not feeling it lol I love it too
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Sep 19, 2015

    I feel so disgusting

    and fat everyday. I work out and eat healthy, but I lose no weight. my boyfriend tells me I'm a perfect size and I only think I weigh a lot because I have more muscle then fat. I hate my body and I want to die, and I don't know what to do.
    spence52 spence52
    16-17, F
    1 Response Aug 14, 2014

    I feel fat all the time.

    .. I guess it is because I am just fat. Need to loose weight.
    Scaredmonster Scaredmonster
    16-17, F
    2 Responses May 23, 2014

    Either I eat little to nothing

    or I binge eat. I want to be healthy, I want to stay fit, but I also feel sad a lot and want to eat. I can barely look at myself in the mirror. My own body disgust me. I just want to ball up and never show my self again
    Danlor9991 Danlor9991
    22-25, M
    1 Response Feb 25, 2015

    Why. I've lost 30 pounds,

    gone down in clothing sizes, yet look in the mirror with disgust. I am fat, they tell me in not, but they can't see the real me, the stomach, the back, the legs, the chest. Me, myself, my enemy. I will change myself, until I look in the mirror and smile, until I don't have to...
    JerryTheFish JerryTheFish
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jun 28, 2014

    There's no sucking in anymore I'm a fatty

    who doesn't fit in her short shorts very well anymore.
    fantasypiggy227 fantasypiggy227
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jul 25, 2015

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