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I Always Feel Fat

Fearing The Scale And Yet Addicted To It All The Same 1,094 People

    Kailenalovesyou Kailenalovesyou 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 14

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    Fat Fat Fat Fat Fat Fat....

    That's all I see when i look in the mirror. I see fat. I've always been a chubby kid my whole life-always had a big stomach, chubby thighs, and a fat face. About three years I completely shed all the weight dropping down to about 120. Now I'm around that plus a few...
    RogueAngelWithoutWings RogueAngelWithoutWings 18-21, F 8 Responses Dec 28, 2010

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    Every

    Every pound is a pound too many. I am big. I am gross. I am fat.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25 4 Responses Oct 6, 2010

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    I Just Always Feel Fat And Gross

    Since i was nine iv had a weight problem, i look in the mirror and i cry, i hate shopping despite my old friends telling me thats insane. I have had my mum on my case since i was ten but i can't ever seem to shed this weight. Iv tried alot of differnt diets, iv made myself throw...
    feelfatallthetime feelfatallthetime 22-25, F 7 Responses Jan 19, 2011

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    My Dying Mother, Addicted Father, And Bumlimic Obsession

     My mother was always in my life. Not so much my father. He was back and forth between drugs and his family. Annoying? Very. When my mother was diagnosed with Cervical Cancer, which within 3 months turned to terminal cancer, my eating disorder which i'd hidden since 4th...
    SoSamantha SoSamantha 18-21, F Dec 13, 2009

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    The Secret Life

    I am nearly 30. I have a secret which no-one knows, I'm still obsessed with my body and food. It began when I was 14, I assumed that when I was an adult I would get fatter and I wouldn't care. I was wrong. I often feel guilty or bad when I eat. I sometimes cannot stand having...
    tenyearsonstillhurting tenyearsonstillhurting 26-30, F 2 Responses May 13, 2013

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    When your body gains weight

    so easily after slipping up a few times, it's very easy to start body shaming, which I'm doing right now. Starting today, I'm sticking with my weight watchers, going hiking as a form of exercise today since I forgot my T25 at school, and I'm going to stop doing my unhealthy...
    KrisMiss KrisMiss 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 19, 2014

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    RachelAddison RachelAddison 26-30, F Feb 26, 2014

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    I feel so disgusting

    and fat everyday. I work out and eat healthy, but I lose no weight. my boyfriend tells me I'm a perfect size and I only think I weigh a lot because I have more muscle then fat. I hate my body and I want to die, and I don't know what to do.
    spence52 spence52 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 14, 2014

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    No matter if I binge eat

    or just eat normally, I always feel so fat afterward. I guess that's why I throw it up. I haven't been throwing up as much lately. It's because my throat starts to bleed and gets really sore. It takes me so long to purge now. I have like no gag reflex anymore so I practically...
    ImYourLady ImYourLady 16-17, F Jan 13

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    I Dont Know What To Do Anymore.

    I am 16 and I know Im not fat but there is something in me that just makes me want to curl up in a ball and cry. I already do not eat a lot because of my ADHD meds but even when I do not take them I force myself not to eat. I weighed 125 over a month ago and I was so proud that I...
    pookey1996 pookey1996 16-17 3 Responses May 12, 2013

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    I feel fat all the time.

    .. I guess it is because I am just fat. Need to loose weight.
    Scaredmonster Scaredmonster 16-17, F 2 Responses May 23, 2014

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    God, I'm a whale. I know how I got like this,

    but can I ever get back to a decent weight.
    transformerlover transformerlover 41-45, M 1 Response Jan 28

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    Because Fat is not a feeling .

    . . it is NOT the name of an emotion . . . But it is something we are allowed to say When saying 'I feel guilty and dirty and ashamed and disgusted and fearful of this terrible demanding corruptible impermanent body' Is not socially acceptable And does not have a subtext of 'I...
    dispossessed dispossessed 46-50, F 1 Response Apr 27, 2014

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    Why. I've lost 30 pounds,

    gone down in clothing sizes, yet look in the mirror with disgust. I am fat, they tell me in not, but they can't see the real me, the stomach, the back, the legs, the chest. Me, myself, my enemy. I will change myself, until I look in the mirror and smile, until I don't have to...
    JerryTheFish JerryTheFish 16-17, M 1 Response Jun 28, 2014

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    Don't Care, Just Hope To Change One Day! :d

    I am fat, I don't feel it, I am.
    krk95 krk95 16-17, F Aug 26, 2012

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    Im Not Fat But I Feel That I'am

    i was a chuncky baby family give me a name big bear even after i lost all my baby fat they kept calling me that they always picked on me my mom shut the AC off saying let het swet so she lose wieght but as a lil girl i hate my body and now i'm skinny but i still feel fat and no...
    jalool jalool 22-25, F Oct 29, 2010

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    I Always Feel Fat

    And it feels great! :P Nothing wrong with that!
    Notfatenough Notfatenough 36-40, M Jun 12, 2011

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    My breakfast consisted of a granola bar (which

    I only ate half of) and 2 clementines. Clementines are a safe food for me. I take two because it makes me feel like I am eating enough. They are low in calories and high in vitamins. That's good, right? I always make these excuses. I feel so fat right now, after eating that. I...
    emilykane emilykane 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 23, 2013

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    Urgh absolutely hate this feeling,

    after a workout aswell
    sarah3232 sarah3232 18-21, F 1 Response May 22, 2014

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    Last week I had to go to my local home

    improvement store. I usually go in the middle of the day to avoid any semblance of a crowd. Thus I had the place mostly to myself - except a few hardy contractors. I went to the sole clerk, who had no line. I avoid those automatic check outs because I invariably mess up and need...
    CatalinaVanilla CatalinaVanilla 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 9, 2014

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    Likeylalayys Likeylalayys 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 7

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    I used to be so active.

    My senior year I would have softball, track, and then id even go to the gym. Now here I am. 20 years old 40 pounds heavier and no motivation to workout. I seriously need help getting it together.
    countrydarliin countrydarliin 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 8, 2014

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    I am at the heaviest point in my life.

    I know I could lose weight if I really tried, worked out and gave up some foods. But I always give up after a few days and never workout.
    Imsofancyy Imsofancyy 41-45, F 2 Responses Jun 28, 2014

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    Either I eat little to nothing

    or I binge eat. I want to be healthy, I want to stay fit, but I also feel sad a lot and want to eat. I can barely look at myself in the mirror. My own body disgust me. I just want to ball up and never show my self again
    Danlor9991 Danlor9991 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 25

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    I want to die so bad,

    I wish I was dead but I can't bring myself to kill myself. I hate my life and everyone in it. Kill me? Please!
    karinaspain karinaspain 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 22

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    I was fat at 125lbs and horrifically fat at

    240lbs and now still disgustingly forever fat at 165lbs. I'll die a fat nasty pig. Hopefully soon.
    FatAlly FatAlly 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 22, 2014

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    It feels that no matter how hard I try

    or how much I'm ashamed off myself I'll always be the fat girl.
    aprilj91 aprilj91 22-25, F 1 Response May 8, 2014

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    Relapse

    it's happening again... I've gone days without eating since my major breakdown, but it was always forced, i'd always have to think about not eating now, even if i wanted to i cant eat last 3 days i've had 2 crackers, and a jolly rancher tried eating a bagel, but i couldn't, i...
    askanother askanother 16-17, F Apr 10, 2011

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    I know that I'm not fat.

    I'm actually on the thinner side. I just feel so large all the time. I hate my body and I want to be skinnier.
    pinkishdolphin pinkishdolphin 13-15, F 1 Response May 16, 2014

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    Whatever people say, I still don't think I'm

    thin enough. I get angry when I look at myself in the mirror because I hate what I see. A girl with too long nose, ugly impossible hair, colorless eyes, big ears, weird feet, and a round belly. I hate it!! I really wanna wear short shorts and cute dresses...
    Pumpkinpiespice Pumpkinpiespice 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 28, 2014

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    I know I'm not overweight

    or anything... I'm a healthy weight for my age and height, but I always feel disgusting and just fat when I don't workout and just eat bad food. It doesn't help either with a one year old in love with candy and chocolate:(
    samantha280 samantha280 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 14, 2014

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    My Clothes Never Fit Right.

    My boyfriend surprised me yesterday. He goes to school in Santa Cruz and barely visits me. When he does, I always spend hours and hours trying to figure out what I should wear and how my makeup should be done. No matter how long it takes, I am always hating the way I look in the...
    jamiieeee jamiieeee 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 3, 2013

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    I hate it, I hate myself,

    how I look. I want to lose weight really bad. I weigh around 123 and I'm 5'2. I have muscle though. I was called thunder thighs by my "friends" over text while I was at my best friends and I started crying. I was always teased for being the heavier one. I starved myself and went...
    CatWithScars CatWithScars 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 8, 2014

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    Everyone says I look fine

    and don't need to lose weight but I disagree
    Imbatgirl Imbatgirl 22-25, F 6 Responses Feb 22, 2014

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    Always, Always, Always!!!

    I always feel so fat.  I weigh about 164 pounds now, which, at first I thought was soo great, because I DID weigh 200 lbs, but now...I just feel bad again.  Considering my height, I'm actually SUPPOSED to be at about 120, and at the HIGHEST 140.  That's 24...
    moonlit1 moonlit1 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 11, 2008

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    I love it when I wake up in the mornings

    and I look slim, but as soon as I eat I look plump...I'm not fat but I feel like I am all the time. My thighs don't help at all!
    ThisIsLife13 ThisIsLife13 13-15, F May 3

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    Im here in Antigua visiting family

    and friends, I wanted to come soooo bad but now im here every one is tellin my i got fat. Yes okay mc donalds and ted lobster does that to u, u can stop now but no dey keep going. I become anti social because im afraid to talk, i cant eat in front of them and if i do i try to...
    ashash03 ashash03 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 2, 2014

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    madeofbones madeofbones 22-25, M Nov 3, 2014

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