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I Always Feel Fat

Fearing The Scale And Yet Addicted To It All The Same 900 People

    I used to be so active.

    My senior year I would have softball, track, and then id even go to the gym. Now here I am. 20 years old 40 pounds heavier and no motivation to workout. I seriously need help getting it together.
    countrydarliin countrydarliin 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 8

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    Why. I've lost 30 pounds,

    gone down in clothing sizes, yet look in the mirror with disgust. I am fat, they tell me in not, but they can't see the real me, the stomach, the back, the legs, the chest. Me, myself, my enemy. I will change myself, until I look in the mirror and smile, until I don't have to...
    JerryTheFish JerryTheFish 16-17, M 1 Response Jun 28

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    Every

    Every pound is a pound too many. I am big. I am gross. I am fat.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25, F 4 Responses Oct 6, 2010

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    I know that I'm not fat.

    I'm actually on the thinner side. I just feel so large all the time. I hate my body and I want to be skinnier.
    pinkishdolphin pinkishdolphin 13-15, F 1 Response May 16

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    I Always Feel Fat

    And it feels great! :P Nothing wrong with that!
    Notfatenough Notfatenough 36-40, M Jun 12, 2011

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    Im Not Fat But I Feel That I'am

    i was a chuncky baby family give me a name big bear even after i lost all my baby fat they kept calling me that they always picked on me my mom shut the AC off saying let het swet so she lose wieght but as a lil girl i hate my body and now i'm skinny but i still feel fat and no...
    jalool jalool 22-25, F Oct 29, 2010

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    Okay so i think i gained weight and it isnt from bloating maybe it is idk! but i think i want to give into him and stop eating agian..Imma go with his idea and go on a 30 day fast and help me.i cant cope with constant shouting in my head anymore! only thing going in my body is...
    alucardx alucardx 18-21, M Apr 29, 2011

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    Such negativity with many stories here.

    I was always very fit and watch what I ate.Than health issues with my spine and other things like arthritis.Unable to work out and exercise like I use to and prescription medications have slow my own metabolism down to a crawl.I'm fat now and it's not my best look but it's who I...
    bignatbreastluver bignatbreastluver 46-50, M Apr 18

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    So ive lost more weight :( my ana been real tough on me past few weeks cos im felling week havent been exersicing much..chrismas was really poopy..all my mom did was nag nag nag about how sick n skinny i looked..i told her not to talk about it it isnt helping me recover she said...
    xkity123x xkity123x 18-21, T Dec 30, 2010

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    Because Fat is not a feeling .

    . . it is NOT the name of an emotion . . . But it is something we are allowed to say When saying 'I feel guilty and dirty and ashamed and disgusted and fearful of this terrible demanding corruptible impermanent body' Is not socially acceptable And does not have a subtext of 'I...
    dispossessed dispossessed 46-50, F 1 Response Apr 27

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    I Dont Know What To Do Anymore.

    I am 16 and I know Im not fat but there is something in me that just makes me want to curl up in a ball and cry. I already do not eat a lot because of my ADHD meds but even when I do not take them I force myself not to eat. I weighed 125 over a month ago and I was so proud that I...
    pookey1996 pookey1996 16-17 3 Responses May 12, 2013

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    Everyone says I look fine

    and don't need to lose weight but I disagree
    Imbatgirl Imbatgirl 22-25, F 6 Responses Feb 22

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    Fat

    Even when I was down to 165 pounds a few years ago, what I saw in the mirror still looked fat.
    mailmanshadow mailmanshadow 51-55, M Sep 11, 2011

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    Gah

    another day and i cant even look at myself right now... seriously this is ridic and the worst part is my hubby likes me chunkier im ready to puke...
    tehkittehh tehkittehh 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 26, 2013

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    68 pounds and still felling fat D: urgh i hate it
    xkity123x xkity123x 18-21, T 3 Responses Dec 13, 2010

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    I feel so disgusting

    and fat everyday. I work out and eat healthy, but I lose no weight. my boyfriend tells me I'm a perfect size and I only think I weigh a lot because I have more muscle then fat. I hate my body and I want to die, and I don't know what to do.
    spence52 spence52 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 14

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    The Secret Life

    I am nearly 30. I have a secret which no-one knows, I'm still obsessed with my body and food. It began when I was 14, I assumed that when I was an adult I would get fatter and I wouldn't care. I was wrong. I often feel guilty or bad when I eat. I sometimes cannot stand having...
    tenyearsonstillhurting tenyearsonstillhurting 26-30, F 2 Responses May 13, 2013

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    I know I'm not overweight

    or anything... I'm a healthy weight for my age and height, but I always feel disgusting and just fat when I don't workout and just eat bad food. It doesn't help either with a one year old in love with candy and chocolate:(
    samantha280 samantha280 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 14

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    I Feel Gross

    I just feel so is gusting. I looked at myself in the mirror today and just stated at myself, thinking about how fat and ugly I am. I am so fat and disgusting looking, it's insane. I can't do it much longer. I see all these people in the movies and on tv, and even around school...
    Jacqid96 Jacqid96 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 22, 2012

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    I feel fat all the time.

    .. I guess it is because I am just fat. Need to loose weight.
    Scaredmonster Scaredmonster 16-17, F 2 Responses May 23

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    Urgh absolutely hate this feeling,

    after a workout aswell
    sarah3232 sarah3232 16-17, F 1 Response May 22

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    Why Couldn't It Have Been Reversed?

    I should have weighed 117 when I was 4'11" and 62 now at 5'3.5". But no. I went from 62 to 117 and no matter what I do I can't lose weight. My back and my thighs are so fat. I have to stand four or five inches apart to get my thighs not to touch. It's revolting.
    oliveostrovsky oliveostrovsky 18-21 Jan 13, 2013

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    My Dying Mother, Addicted Father, And Bumlimic Obsession

     My mother was always in my life. Not so much my father. He was back and forth between drugs and his family. Annoying? Very. When my mother was diagnosed with Cervical Cancer, which within 3 months turned to terminal cancer, my eating disorder which i'd hidden since 4th...
    SoSamantha SoSamantha 18-21, F Dec 13, 2009

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    My breakfast consisted of a granola bar (which

    I only ate half of) and 2 clementines. Clementines are a safe food for me. I take two because it makes me feel like I am eating enough. They are low in calories and high in vitamins. That's good, right? I always make these excuses. I feel so fat right now, after eating that. I...
    emilykane emilykane 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 23, 2013

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    I am at the heaviest point in my life.

    I know I could lose weight if I really tried, worked out and gave up some foods. But I always give up after a few days and never workout.
    Imsofancyy Imsofancyy 36-40, F 2 Responses Jun 28

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    When your body gains weight

    so easily after slipping up a few times, it's very easy to start body shaming, which I'm doing right now. Starting today, I'm sticking with my weight watchers, going hiking as a form of exercise today since I forgot my T25 at school, and I'm going to stop doing my unhealthy...
    KrisMiss KrisMiss 22-25, F Apr 19

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    People Don't Help...

    ...When they constantly feel the need to comment on how much weight I've put on. It's not my fault. You try being on a bunch of medications and not gaining weight. I'm beginning to think maybe it would be better to be skinny and crazy rather than fat and sane.
    BeteNoire BeteNoire 26-30, F 2 Responses Oct 3, 2010

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    Don't Care, Just Hope To Change One Day! :d

    I am fat, I don't feel it, I am.
    krk95 krk95 16-17, F Aug 26, 2012

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    Always, Always, Always!!!

    I always feel so fat.  I weigh about 164 pounds now, which, at first I thought was soo great, because I DID weigh 200 lbs, but now...I just feel bad again.  Considering my height, I'm actually SUPPOSED to be at about 120, and at the HIGHEST 140.  That's 24...
    moonlit1 moonlit1 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 11, 2008

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    Im here in Antigua visiting family

    and friends, I wanted to come soooo bad but now im here every one is tellin my i got fat. Yes okay mc donalds and ted lobster does that to u, u can stop now but no dey keep going. I become anti social because im afraid to talk, i cant eat in front of them and if i do i try to...
    ashash03 ashash03 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 2

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    Chubsicle

    I don't know why. According to most people, I'm not fat. But they don't see what I do. They don't see all the fat I see when I'm not hiding it with loose clothing, or wrinkling my shirts over my belly to disguuise the fat rolls. I feel fat when I eat too much which is all the...
    Veronica4 Veronica4 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 16, 2011

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    Latley ive been felling down..i started cutting agian :( only little on my ankles i chounlt take his voice in my head..latley its been more controling and its hurting inside im all worn out and tired...i wont let him win i will defeat him one day..ana isnt gonna take over me...
    xkity123x xkity123x 18-21, T 1 Response Jan 14, 2011

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    My Clothes Never Fit Right.

    My boyfriend surprised me yesterday. He goes to school in Santa Cruz and barely visits me. When he does, I always spend hours and hours trying to figure out what I should wear and how my makeup should be done. No matter how long it takes, I am always hating the way I look in the...
    jamiieeee jamiieeee 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 3, 2013

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    Relapse

    it's happening again... I've gone days without eating since my major breakdown, but it was always forced, i'd always have to think about not eating now, even if i wanted to i cant eat last 3 days i've had 2 crackers, and a jolly rancher tried eating a bagel, but i couldn't, i...
    askanother askanother 16-17, F Apr 10, 2011

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    It feels that no matter how hard I try

    or how much I'm ashamed off myself I'll always be the fat girl.
    aprilj91 aprilj91 22-25, F 1 Response May 8

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    RachelAddison RachelAddison 26-30, F Feb 26

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    Doesn't Matter What I Weigh

    My weight has gone up and down over the years. My lowest (healthy) weight was around 150 pounds (recommended for my height of 5'9") and my highest was closer to 200, but no matter what I look like or how much I weigh, I feel FAT.
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 3 Responses Mar 8, 2010

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    I Just Always Feel Fat And Gross

    Since i was nine iv had a weight problem, i look in the mirror and i cry, i hate shopping despite my old friends telling me thats insane. I have had my mum on my case since i was ten but i can't ever seem to shed this weight. Iv tried alot of differnt diets, iv made myself throw...
    feelfatallthetime feelfatallthetime 22-25, F 7 Responses Jan 19, 2011

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    Fat Fat Fat Fat Fat Fat....

    That's all I see when i look in the mirror. I see fat. I've always been a chubby kid my whole life-always had a big stomach, chubby thighs, and a fat face. About three years I completely shed all the weight dropping down to about 120. Now I'm around that plus a few...
    RogueAngelWithoutWings RogueAngelWithoutWings 18-21, F 8 Responses Dec 28, 2010

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    That Fat Feeling

    195. I loathe that number. I feel like that number controls my life. Like I can't escape it. Granted, I have a problem with being lazy and not wanting to wake up at 6am and jog. I also eat when I'm bored or feel pathetic.... which is very often... I look at all the prettier...
    needinghelp789 needinghelp789 18-21, F Sep 3, 2012

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    I hate it, I hate myself,

    how I look. I want to lose weight really bad. I weigh around 123 and I'm 5'2. I have muscle though. I was called thunder thighs by my "friends" over text while I was at my best friends and I started crying. I was always teased for being the heavier one. I starved myself and went...
    CatWithScars CatWithScars 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 8

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    I was fat at 125lbs and horrifically fat at

    240lbs and now still disgustingly forever fat at 165lbs. I'll die a fat nasty pig. Hopefully soon.
    FatAlly FatAlly 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 22

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    Whatever people say, I still don't think I'm

    thin enough. I get angry when I look at myself in the mirror because I hate what I see. A girl with too long nose, ugly impossible hair, colorless eyes, big ears, weird feet, and a round belly. I hate it!! I really wanna wear short shorts and cute dresses...
    Pumpkinpiespice Pumpkinpiespice 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 28

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