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I Always Feel Second-best

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    It's A Vicious Circle That Never Seems To Turn

    When I was a kid growing up, I was always that kid in the schoolyard who found solace with being on his own. Instead of going out at lunch, I'd come up with a hundred and one excuses not to. I'd pull a sickie and sit outside the principle's office for lunch; and on the rare...
    Samcro440 Samcro440 18-21, M 1 Response May 25, 2010

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    Always No.2 And How It Sparked Thoughts Of Death

    Well, if I am good at something, I can never be the best....NEVER~ someones gonna come and crush me down. In fact, I've never been"the best" in anything....I always think I am the worst...which is the truth. Was just thinking long and hard just now. Nothing can force me to keep...
    fuglygirlonthebench fuglygirlonthebench 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 1, 2011

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    Never Been Crowned The Best...:(

    I am the middle child among the three siblings.When we were younger people always said I am different because I was the only one who didn't know how to mingle with the people around me especially to my parents' friends and colleagues. I could still remember their reactions when...
    lonelylady25 lonelylady25 22-25 2 Responses Jan 18, 2012

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    This must how the folks in

    that small town in Washington State must feel right now. Why? Check the news ... that missing plane is STILL dominating the headlines (at least on CNN) even though it's almost been 3 weeks since it's gone missing and not a he1luva lot has been discovered to push the story...
    midnighttrain61 midnighttrain61 51-55, M Mar 26, 2014

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    I have come to notice

    that over the last few months i have managed to put everyone elses feelings before my own. Worrying about what they will think or worried i will hurt them in some way. I should have been looking out for myself in this process and i just forgot.I miss who i was becoming and not...
    deadinsideout deadinsideout 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 24, 2013

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    Always

    I never feel good enough... I have crushed my own ego.. I never am satisfied... I always want to achieve more... I wish I could stop this vicious cycle...
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25 6 Responses Jun 15, 2010

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    Eternal 2nd Place

    I’m tired. I have issues with not feeling good enough. I’ve felt like that my entire life. That I was in an eternal 2nd place. Literally, every day, I have to work on it. And it’s not just in one area of my life, it’s in all of them. It’s the reason I don’t ever like...
    cwhite35 cwhite35 22-25, F Oct 24, 2012

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    Music, Cooking And Other Things.

    I don't really have a whole lot to say about this other than I feel exactly the way this group title says. Wherever I play music live, there's always a hotshot freak player who's about to get signed and has only been playing for half the time I have. I'm never play poorly, but...
    rynfolk rynfolk 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 21, 2010

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    One of my best friends is always better

    than me, and it's just getting to me. She's always smarter (people listen to her advice), prettier (she gets hit on a lot), better (people want to spend time with her) than I'll ever be and it's wrecking my confidence. I love her to bits, but around her, I'm nothing but a second...
    SoulScribe SoulScribe 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 22

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    Second Best To Her Ex

    I am so tired of my gf crying about her ex..they never even met! She was just an online thing..why can't she see that when people talk online it can seem intense but its not real..the person can be so different in real life..Her ex has so many issues too and she can't cope with...
    taintedbutterfly taintedbutterfly 36-40, F Feb 10, 2013

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    Second Is Just the First Loser...

    I have felt, my entire life, like I was always second-best to someone or something else, no matter the situation.  Growing up, my grandparents had multiple grandchildrenm and I was not special.  I was just a number in the large group of grandchildren. The third...
    shag79 shag79 26-30 3 Responses Nov 11, 2008

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    So I've had a day of just feeling sorry

    for my self, and i guess it's just made me feel worse x I've never really had confidence issues, and I'm not a shy person; I'm just having a really big problem at the moment when I'm out with my best friend x We seem to be spending so much time to together and going on night out...
    chazneychimp chazneychimp 22-25, F Mar 2, 2014

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    Insecure

    isnt it just great feeling best though? always feeling like someone just speaks to you cause no one else will, or the other persons busy? yeah well this is me all the time. what am i doing wrong that no one speaks to me
    aloneinadarkroom aloneinadarkroom 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 20, 2013

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    Second Best ...

    See this group says ''feel'' second best ... that is not the case for me ... i know i am second best. It is one of the hardest things to feel and to come to terms with but when it comes down to people you love it becomes even harder and it breaks every part of you. I have spent...
    deadinsideout deadinsideout 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 23, 2013

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