I Always Felt Like I Didn't Fit In

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    I've always had friends,

    but kinda done my own thing. I've always been a non conformist, a leader and not a follower. Taken the road less traveled or hell the road no one would travel. These experiences have made me who I am. I'm still not sure I fit in...
    BeyondGreenEyes BeyondGreenEyes
    36-40, F
    6 Responses Mar 3, 2015

    I always felt like I didn't fit in.

    But it was more than that for me, I knew I didn't fit in. From first grade and someone asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up. My answer was normal. I wanted to be normal when I grew up. So even when I was little I knew I wasn't normal. But I didn't really want to be normal...
    ElizaKate ElizaKate
    18-21, F
    Jul 13, 2014

    I don't fit in anywhere I go.

    Not even here on EP. I wish this tumor would hurry up and finish me off. Maybe I'll fit into the afterlife.
    Kwakwakalanooksiwae Kwakwakalanooksiwae
    36-40, M
    1 Response Aug 31, 2015

    And I still don't. I don't want to fit in.

    I don't need to be like others. Of course, this is only partially true. It's not like I can walk up to a woman half my age who is unknown to me and compliment her fine ***. Well, I could, but the outcome of that interaction isn't likely to be a good one. But, in the...
    Some1umayNo Some1umayNo
    46-50, M
    1 Response Mar 4, 2015

    Outside Looking In.

    for as long i could remember, (until just recently) i had always ben the odd child out. first it was my height...i guess for girls you could say im tall..5'8 flat, and 6'1 or 6'2 in heels... what can i say? I love my high heels :) anyway, growing up I was always tall...my first...
    HERChikken HERChikken
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jan 22, 2011

    It is especially obvious

    where I work. Whenever I see my coworkers laughing it up and having a good time while I'm stuck working my butt off, I feel depressed. Then I make myself scarce, so it's harder for them to find me when they actually need me. "Get it your own damn self" as I like to say.
    killakissa killakissa
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Dec 7, 2014

    Ever since elementary school.

    I've always been the odd one out. It was like no one wanted to be my friend and they just wanted me for my smarts. As the years progressed I'd assumed that I would get that kind of sense of belonging but I still haven't. Highschool isn't that bad since I have a few friends I can...
    Xoxolife Xoxolife
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Aug 23, 2014

    I don't know if I was born in the wrong era

    or the in wrong side of the world or in the wrong family. I always managed to become an outsider. I don't like it and I wish to change.
    alexiadahl alexiadahl
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jul 12, 2014

    I still feel this way,

    because it's true. I will never matter to anybody. No friends, no family, no boyfriend......just.....nobody.....
    ImaWeirdie ImaWeirdie
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jul 12, 2014

    I went to a group who were also fatherless.

    I realised I was part of something more than loneliness of a parent. My father was killed. Some women have fathers who runaway. Although I still feel I don't fit in in this particular way over others, at least my father didn't reject me.
    Silfverberg Silfverberg
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jun 28, 2014

    I used to not fit in In till yesterday.

    I went to party got high and drunk, lost my virginity ended up going to jail because the cops where called and I was caught doing illegal things. Don't really care at this point, my dad bailed me out but whatever as long as I have my job and my money for weed I'm good. No longer...
    nerd1500 nerd1500
    18-21, M
    Jul 12, 2014

    I Really Started To Notice Around The Age Of 15 Or So

    i found that i didnt want to always go out and do stuff. i didnt want to get into drugs or even smoke. i remember telling myself and my best friend that i was going to try smoking pot. i convinced myself that i needed to try it. i never could do it though. and thats when me and...
    EdgeCrusher EdgeCrusher
    26-30, M
    May 12, 2011

    A sun rise A promise A new beginning A new

    chance For all things For the shadows of old stretch long and thin For a new days horror to find a new dark recess or shaded corridor to hide No not to hide To grow So that tomorrow they can stretch long and thin So hopefully I walk Through the valley of death Confidence...
    Drbosspaws Drbosspaws
    16-17, M
    Jan 11, 2015

    Throught out my whole life I have felt like

    that , even in my own family . I can't talk to my parents or my sister about it . They won't understand it's a personal problem.
    shyartist1983 shyartist1983
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Aug 3, 2014
    pmax2000 pmax2000
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Jun 28, 2014

    And that's when I realized

    that I needed a bigger bra.
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses May 4, 2014

    I am always the odd one out.

    When I'm at school I have a few different groups that include me, but when we're together I feel like I'm the only one they won't talk to. I'm confident, fun, and outgoing, but I feel like people purposely leave me out. Maybe I'm just paranoid. But why would so many people open...
    lifeinthecity lifeinthecity
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Jun 24, 2014

    I was stoked to visit my first comicon today,

    as none of my friends were really "nerdy" enough to be into it. I meticulously planned my matching costume with my biffle and I thought we looked fantastic! No one knew who we were though... Plus i think I was the only woman there wearing a moustache, lol. Well, this Mecca...
    BleuGardenia BleuGardenia
    26-30, F
    Jul 13, 2014

    I've always been a loner.

    I grew up as an only child and both parents worked so I was a latch-key kid. I was alone much of the time. I learned early on how to amuse myself. That carried into school where I was happier in the back of the room by myself and after school where I went off to the woods or...
    FriendlyBryan FriendlyBryan
    46-50, M
    1 Response Jul 5, 2014
    kaye23e kaye23e
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 1, 2014

    I never fit in, from elementry,

    Jr high, high school, college and even career. But I finally realized...lots of people feel like that. And no one talks about it. And I realized that feeling like is was screwing with my mind and wasting my time and causing me to feel sorry for myself. So, I decided to stop...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Dec 1, 2014

    My therapist and I discuss this a lot.

    I've always felt like an outsider - in my home, with my friends, surrounded by strangers. No matter where I am or who I'm with, a part of me always feels so different. It started when I was really young and carried into adulthood. Now that I'm a bit older, I'm much more...
    AmayaTsuki AmayaTsuki
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Jan 29

    Picture this: you walk into school like you do

    every morning. People stare at you up and down trying to take in the way you look. To them, you're not like them. In fact, you're the opposite. They don't like that you're not like them. They make it their job to pick on you. To make you feel worthless. To post hurtful things...
    bemyforeverlove97 bemyforeverlove97
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 4, 2015

    Always. This is why I didn't stay in public

    school and was instead home schooled. I was always just so different from everybody else.
    LoneDreamer11 LoneDreamer11
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 26, 2014

    Being The Oddball

    Yes, even when i was with guys who were mostly the same age as me i was not quite the same as every one else in the group. Because i wore colours that were bright and girlish, i was considered to be something of a sissy ,even back then.When i was in middle junior high school and...
    RedEyesBlackDragon RedEyesBlackDragon
    51-55, M
    2 Responses Oct 16, 2013

    Do you ever feel you can not fit into into

    cliques and groups? I go to a recreational outlet for people who have various disabilities. I do not like I have to ride my bus there alone. Most of these people seem to know each other from other places. The ones that group up together tend to ride together too. I am from the...
    LovelyChris71 LovelyChris71
    41-45, F
    Mar 14, 2014

    Glad I didn't "fit in".

    ..**** that ****.Gotta' be your own individual,don't let society make one up for ya'.
    McKnight94 McKnight94
    18-21, M
    Jul 12, 2014

    Everyone has their own group of friends.

    I felt like I never was meant to have any friends. I didn't fit in with anyone. I tried so hard to have the guy I was totally "in love" with love me the way I loved him. But it was stupid. And I learned that I can't change people and I can't keep hoping that they will somehow...
    bonyknees bonyknees
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 16, 2015

    "I used to think I was the strangest person in

    the world but then I thought, there are so many people in the world, there must be someone just like me who feels bizarre and flawed in the same ways I do. I would imagine her, and imagine that she must be out there thinking of me too. Well, I hope that if you are out there and...
    AmayaTsuki AmayaTsuki
    26-30, F
    1 Response Feb 16

    My entire life I've felt like an outsider.

    So I've just made the most of it. I make a point of not following trends or doing what everyone else is doing. Why follow the crowd if I don't fit in anyway? There's this quote by C.S. Lewis that I love: "If we find ourself with a desire that nothing in this world can satisfy...
    rememberthegirl rememberthegirl
    26-30, F
    1 Response Sep 12, 2015

    Life was hard for me in past years,

    right now I am currently in high school.I was not that well speeking to other people I was antisocial.I also have friends that was not really my friends.I hear people talk about me behind my back mean words.I hope life just get better.Please take this as consideration, thank you...
    TramaleHitEmUp TramaleHitEmUp
    16-17, M
    3 Responses Jun 3, 2015

    Groupies, Gangs or club i really never had

    that kinda thing during my time in school even till now being in college. I mean other then my work environment but i mean that forced upon the employee so i don't think that really counts. I suppose i can be a little weird and corkie sometimes but i mean isn't everyone at some...
    NymNin NymNin
    18-21, F
    Mar 17, 2014

    I just dont feel like i belong in all the high

    school clicks im not a jock im not emo or goth im not popular im a bit of a rebel but i feel out of place when im there like a wolf in a lions cage it just feels strange to be there
    Moonpawsrabbitofthemoon Moonpawsrabbitofthemoon
    16-17, T
    Jun 21, 2014

    at school been bullied

    since year three. badly bucktoothed therefore badly bullied. lost all my friends basically spent a whole year of lunchtimes sitting alone. didnt feel like i fitted in at all. i struggled to make friends and got myself into lots of trouble at home and at school. by yr nine...
    emmy1998 emmy1998
    16-17, F
    Jun 23, 2014
    Youcanthandlemyusername Youcanthandlemyusername
    26-30, M
    Mar 2, 2015

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