I Always Felt Like I Was Different From The Crowd

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    When I dig in my earliest memories I see a child of 3 years old confronting the other kids.  It was the moment I knew that I was different and that my life would be a fight. I learned about crowds a lot since that moment.  I learned that they can be cruel and...
    moreandless moreandless
    56-60, M
    9 Responses Apr 23, 2010

    Of course, that is a symptom of Narcissistic

    Personality Disorder but that does not invalidate my feelings.
    utahwriter utahwriter
    41-45, M
    Jun 7, 2014

    I am different from the crowd

    because I don't follow it or stay inside of it. I'm just my own person in a world full of people.
    Born2Inspire Born2Inspire
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Jul 20, 2014

    I'm always exhausted

    and tired and I often go sit alone when in a group of friends.. I see them having tons of fun and feeling great and wish I could be like them.
    sammylynn333 sammylynn333
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 4, 2014

    So here is my Story..

    I am a regular guy well educated from some of the finest colleges and with a job to envy. I have achieved every mile stone like Buying a great car a nice home, promotions and more , All that is seen as success indicators in life till date. I would be perceived as a good...
    laaquila laaquila
    31-35, M
    1 Response Jan 5, 2015

    I have always felt this way.

    ..right to a child...I never played with the Barbie dolls, wanted the hot wheels and GI Joe... I have always been the very extrovert, out going kind, a tom boy, not scared to get in there and get dirty...... I never fit in with the "girl" groups, I was always a little...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    May 4, 2014

    This is because all the friends I have ever had

    are in a way leaving me. I feel like they hate me or are embarrassed by me because a can be crazy. I have grown a sixth sense to knowing when people are talking about me. I have seen many people talking to others about me and there facial expressions didn't look very nice. So...
    Singingbutterfly Singingbutterfly
    16-17, F
    May 18, 2015

    Fortunately for all. I don't think anyone

    would want a crowd of people like me. One is probably too many.
    HStoner HStoner
    51-55, M
    1 Response Feb 8, 2014

    I Chose To Be......

    I never wanted to be a follower. I never wanted to do things just because everyone else was doing them. I never wanted to not be myself to fit in.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Nov 19, 2013

    I Was/am Different

    I always had a hard time relating to people my own age growing up. Preferred listening to the adults and found them more interesting. I didn't fall for the trends or go crazy over male stars like other girls did. I thought they were nuts wasting their time and emotion over...
    snowberry75 snowberry75
    36-40, F
    4 Responses May 25, 2011

    Hopeless

    Have you ever felt hopeless? Have you ever felt pain? Have you ever felt loss? Have you ever felt gain? Have you ever felt eyes peering through your soul, lapping up your spirit like milk from a bowl? Have you ever felt fear from being alone? Through those feelings you must have...
    SadLonelyBroken SadLonelyBroken
    13-15, F
    Apr 16, 2013

    I am what most people woule categorise

    as a loser. Nearly 30 and still living at home, single, look like a kid with no boobs or shape and am very different from most 30 yr olds who are either married with kids or highly career focused. I work in childcare and people find it weird that I don't have my own kids yet...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    May 2, 2015

    I'm Glad I Am...

    I've always been different. I don't want to be the same as everybody else and I like being me. I choose to keep myself separate from the in-crowd, although my work means that I have alot of clients who are girls about town. I often get asked to come along, but always...
    est941 est941
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Mar 15, 2010

    Today, For First Time, I Listened My Brother's Voice...

    Today, for first time, i listen my brothe's voice, i'm 32 he is 22. He is from Sao Paulo, Brasil, i'm from Uruguay living in Ireland. He was having lunch with my mum in the tallest bulding in Montevideo, watching the cruise where he works. I'm so happy! Metting them one by one!
    moniquita moniquita
    31-35
    Jan 18, 2012

    Well...yes.I have travelled

    since birth and seen a variety of lives and experiences.I was a very stimulated child with culture and cultures,history,books...and awesome mother <3 Sadly,I couldn't stay enough to make friends for life or keep contact with them because we had not the net.However I carry...
    4biandu 4biandu
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jul 15, 2014

    I've never been like everyone else,

    I've always had different opinions maybe that's why I don't have many friends..
    UnderTheSleeves UnderTheSleeves
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Feb 2, 2015

    I used to think I was the strangest person in

    the world but then I thought there are so many people in the world, there must be someone just like me who feels bizarre and flawed in the same ways I do. I would imagine her, and imagine that she must be out there thinking of me too. Well, I hope that if you are out there and...
    AnonymouslyGeneric1 AnonymouslyGeneric1
    46-50, F
    Jan 16, 2016

    I'm always liking different books,

    movies, or songs. If I get a friend to watch a movie I absolutely loved, they would have a totally different opinion on it. :P
    EnchantedMia EnchantedMia
    16-17, F
    Dec 26, 2014

    And I Still Do

    Only now I have more proof. I've never conformed to anything. Society, what is supposedly possible and impossible. I just don't like to be the same, never have. I don't want to be the same. I don't want that at all. So I will stay comfortably different. The circle amongst the...
    Veronica4 Veronica4
    18-21, F
    Jul 31, 2011

    I have friends but yet i'm always alone

    contemplating how I have no friends.
    plzidc plzidc
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jun 3, 2014

    I always felt different from the crowd

    but at the same time that could be a good thing or a bad thing its good one way cause its good to be different its boring if everyone was the same and its bad to cause than you might not be what people like either
    jon200547 jon200547
    31-35, M
    Oct 4, 2014

    Absolutely

    This is sort of a creative nonfiction that developed as I tried to write about something else.  Oh, well.  It's fitting for this experience, and I really liked being able to relive this moment a little.  It's not perfectly accurate, of course.  This occurred years ago and...
    WildMagic WildMagic
    26-30, F
    May 13, 2011

    Yes!!!

    Unique and different...and I absolutely love this feeling!!!
    natdj88 natdj88
    22-25, F
    Oct 8, 2010

    It's Not Just A Jewish Thing!

    I have always had this feeling that I am different, even when I was little and we came here to England from Israel. I was born in 1990 in Israel, and my parents brought me here to England in 1996 and we have lived here ever since. South Kensington is a very connected and...
    Iyyar Iyyar
    22-25, F
    Dec 31, 2012

    i just dont fit in...

    ......... O_o
    Pandorazz Pandorazz
    26-30
    1 Response May 9, 2014

    I am and I'm glad I am

    because being different makes me special :)
    HappyHart5 HappyHart5
    18-21, F
    Jul 20, 2014

    I as know I'm different from the crowd.

    no matter what I do I never feel like I'm treated the same as anybody else. I never feel like I get the same amount of chances, same amount of forgiveness, same amount of respect. sometimes I walk behind my :friends" just because they don't let me walk in line with them, of...
    Kayshove Kayshove
    16-17, M
    1 Response Oct 15, 2015

    I have always felt like I was different

    even my brother one day said " You're different from most girls" and I said " I like being different I don't wanna be just a regular girl. I'm a shy, gamer, strong, artistic, emotional wreck, beautiful (because every girl is beautiful), loves pandas, loves anime, loves YouTube...
    PandaGirl28X PandaGirl28X
    16-17
    May 25, 2015

    Ever since I was a little kid I knew I was

    different. I never imagined being married or dreamed of my wedding. I never pretended to have beautiful jewelry from a guy. I pretended I was being kidnapped. As young as three I remember playing like this. I would pretend I was tied up, being smacked, etc. When I learned what...
    cristy1989 cristy1989
    26-30
    Feb 12, 2015

    So What...

    When I started secondary school (11-16 in the UK) I felt like I didn't fit in. I wasn't into the same music as most people, I didn't watch the same shows on TV, I liked different films, I didn't have the same kind of style. I was quiet, shy and quite 'nerdy'. While all my friends...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Aug 20, 2013

    Can't say I've known many

    who came from overly traditional families and grew up in 3 countries. My life is such an odd collage of different worlds that I don't know if I will ever find people who can really exactly relate to me.
    OctaviaAugusta OctaviaAugusta
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jun 4, 2014

    I've never 'fit in' and never felt like I

    belonged somewhere or felt like a unique individual. Wonder if I belong anywhere.
    mahnouls mahnouls
    18-21
    Apr 8, 2014

    My Friends

    Maybe because I am different, but anyhow I always find I feel different. I go out with a group of kids I have known for ever and I feel like the loner. The odd one out. I feel like everyone is staring at me, wondering what I am doing with that group of cool kids! The thing is I...
    pinkimmy pinkimmy
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 12, 2013
    AlwaysPersevere71 AlwaysPersevere71
    41-45, M
    Jun 30, 2014

    The Black Sheep

    I always felt like the black sheep as if I was the only girl in the world who still like classy dates and holding hands love to watch people dreams expand the one who has no taste for pretty boys who fell in love with underground hip- hop and left the perm and now gettin...
    keyleeee keyleeee
    18-21, F
    Jun 9, 2013
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