I Always Have My Guard Up In Public

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 368 People

    Just because I am pretty forthcoming on EP does

    not mean I feel comfortable sharing my stories with the outside world. I am an INFJ and we comprise about 1% of the human population. While I can "act" extroverted for short bouts at a time to function in society, I am guarded and will use humor as my shield. I have always been...
    choctawgrrrl choctawgrrrl
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Mar 27, 2014

    I never know if someone will judge me about my

    interests or appearance so I keep my guard up. For example boys never try to flirt with me because I automatically put up this wall to protect myself.
    deleted deleted
    Jan 5, 2015

    Its Natural

    Its natural for me to have my guard up in public. School included. Especially alone. Im ready to knock some teeth out. I feel safe with some ppl, and i can let my guard down around them, but i don't like it when there's ppl behind me. It natural like i said.
    Iamawerewolf Iamawerewolf
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 30, 2013

    All the Time I never let my guard down.

    I maintain a wall around my mind, to keep me in and others out. I speak little, lest in talking I let something out. My mouth is shut and my ears are open, scanning for potential danger. To e honest, I want to relax the barriers. To be me. I feel like I have to be someone I'm...
    CilaCuil CilaCuil
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 23, 2015

    I have to put up this personality to the public,

    when inside I'm totally different. Also, I manipulate people, which is bad, but requires concentration.
    nicias nicias
    16-17, M
    Jan 4, 2015

    Every time I'm out in public,

    or even at school, I tend to be very awkward and guarded when I'm standing alone. I try not to make eye contact with people, and when it looks like someone is going to talk to me, ill randomly just check my phone just for the heck of it. I'm so socially awkward xD
    lovedownunder lovedownunder
    18-21, F
    Dec 17, 2014

    I Always Have

    i always have my guard up . i have customers calling me lazy  . and too young to feel in that much pain .  i am always putting a guard up beucase i always have people calling me a fake or it's all in my head . all beucase i let my guard down about my life .
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    1 Response Mar 14, 2010

    I'm always on the lookout,

    somewhere they're always around. My childhood abusers still lives here and I see the in the town. I try to hide away the fear I feel, and try not to cower from site. The anxiety riddled inner self is still in it's childlike form, she hides behind my clothes, and peeks out...
    Littlemisssomebody Littlemisssomebody
    31-35, F
    Dec 16, 2014
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